Thoughts & Pots

:')

2011-10-26T22:40:00.003+08:00

You know you have an awesome bro (both in blood and bro-ship) when,

He/She gets more angry at something that should make you angry.
He/She gets angry on your behalf and shouts obscenities you don't want to shout.
He/She picks you up when you're moping on the floor, practically glued to it.
He/She slaps you in the face (both metaphorically and literally) when you're being whiney.
He/She hates the person who hurts you.
No matter what you know you can lean on him/her.
He/She doesn't care about your flaws and is still there for you no matter what.
All you have to do is give him/her signals and he/she knows whats going through your mind or what you're about to say.
He/She knows you so much better than you know yourself.
He/She never ever gives up on you.

They make life so much easier to live and to know that you're never alone. :)

The Day She Went Away.

2011-09-26T15:25:00.005+08:00

Jessica Loo Hsing Wen left today! :'( Today cannot be any sadder. It's setting in now that you left! :(((((( Why did London have to take you for so long?!

I was having a nap in the afternoon (since I had to wake up at like 5am! :P) and I suddenly woke up and was like, "Jessica's gone. *sniffles sniffles*" and I couldn't go back to sleep and even when I did, I had a nightmare! Gah.

Things will be so different without you now. Especially with things like this,

:) hahahaha. See now that you're gone, I won't have random funny moments like these anymore. :( Haih! When you get settled in, we'll skype okay! I'll see whether I can round up all the Pitts and we'll group skype! :D

I'm gonna miss that empty seat every Sunday and you're ~~painful~~ and happy hellos. And I promise I'll write you an awesome message for Christmas okay! Hehe :) I hope you'll get to read this blog post soon and know that I'm super missing you now! :D

By the way Jess, read the song I wrote that I'm listening to. ;)

Oh and I just realized we don't have pictures of just the both of us! :(

I'm listening to

Hold On- Michael Buble

Giving myself a second chance.

2011-09-09T01:17:00.004+08:00

I know I owe those of you who are still reading, an update.

I've realized I've been talking a lot, to anyone who would listen, on just about anything and everything. I feel like I'm reverting back to my old self. The one I despised, the one no one else liked, the one who felt so alone. I promised myself I wasn't going back to that.

Anyways, this post isn't about that. I promised some people, that I'll try to make this a happy post.

Well, I'm on my break now and will be returning for my Year 2 in my Bachelor of Law some time in October. People keep asking me how it is, and all I can say is that its intense. Really intense. That's why I'm thoroughly enjoying my break now. My dad's also been taking us out places. Today, we went to this place called Tanjung Sepat for some pretty good seafood. Then we walked around Morib beach. It was pretty hot so we didn't stay for long but still it was a nice trip. :)

Oh and yesterday I Skyped with my bestie, Philip Teo Wern Jie, who's in Canada now and I didn't realize how much I missed him! :( You suck for going so far! :P Can we please skype again soon?! And you need to learn how to multitask! :P Hahaha. But it was a very awesome bonding skype call. Come back soon okay! :)

My little puppy is growing so big now! Ahhh! She's only 7 months but she already almost looks like her mother, in terms of size and features. But she's still my little cuddly puppy. Destructive as ever but still so adorable. I miss having the 9 puppies running everywhere with their cute fat tummies after the milk. :(

Hmmm. What else... Oh! For my birthday I got the best present ever from the Pitts! They gave me a really big stuffed toy dog we eventually named Patch. They gave it to me cause I've been ~~pretty~~ emo recently so whenever they can't give me hugs, Patch'll be there for me. :') That was pretty much the highlight of my birthday.

Okay before I starting ranting or becoming emo or babble on some more, I think I should stop here. For all those of you who are still reading my blog. Thank you for having hope in me to post something new up. :P hahaha. Since I'm on break, I promise I'll try harder kays. :)

Oh and check out a project I'm doing. If you have me on facebook, the album is called, "Let yourself smile, even for awhile. :)" But if you don't, you can click here and it'll lead you to my Flikr account where there are some picture. :)

Take care! :) Till the next post! And please do comment so I know that there are people who are reading and I don't feel like I'm talking to myself. :P

P/S: My blogger account is giving me a hard time on changing the colours, font and anything that makes it interesting. Sorry if its mundane! I have no idea how to put the colour back! :( Oh and I've changed my background and layout a little so let me know what you think bout it. :)

I'm listening to

Read My Mind - Alex Goot

I thought I meant something to you,

But I guess not,

Cause to you I'm a distant memory,

Something that can be left behind.

Promises that were made,

Mean nothing now.

No matter how much I want to believe,

That you'll keep it.

Note to self: Stop having expectations.

When you have no where else.

2011-06-05T01:49:00.001+08:00

I didn’t know who to turn to so late in the night. Plus I don’t feel like talking to anyone but him. Its the first time I’m blogging since it happened. Doesn’t make it feel any easier. Nor does it hurt any less.

I’m actually procrastinating from sleeping cause what I dreamt last night hurt me so much. I wanted him so badly but yet I knew it wasn’t the right thing to do. He had moved on and found someone else but I didn’t know that. Not yet anyways. So when he came back to me I was happy again until I found that he had that girl. I didn’t wanna be the girl who broke up a relationship so instead of having him, I pulled away and watched him slip through my fingers again. I guess my greatest fear manifested itself. My fear of having to watch him get another girl while I hang on to him.

Sometimes I wonder whether it was my short comings that made him wanna let go now. That made him want to end it now. What if I was hotter? What if I was everything he wanted me to be? Would he have stayed?

I have so much to say and yet, I don’t know what to say.

You think you’re getting stronger but instead of taking a step forward, you’re foot just takes off and lands where it was before. Something like what I used to do in school, jogging setempat. You’re never moving anywhere but yet, you’re tired from just jogging in that one spot. That’s how I feel.

2 weeks and it still doesn’t feel any easier. Should I? Shouldn’t I? A question I have to ask myself every time before I decide on whether to talk to you. It never used to be this hard. I never had to think of whether to talk to you. Now I have no choice but to ask myself.

P/S: forgive me for the lack of bright colours and what I usually do.

realization

2011-05-11T14:13:00.002+08:00

After class today, some of my classmates started some mind-boggling, pay-attention-and-observe-the-answer-is-right-in-front-of-you kinda puzzles. There were like 4 different puzzles to figure out and well, I couldn't even figure out one.

I gotta admit it made me really frustrated and I still am. But it doesn't really matter now. No point in staying frustrated anyways.

Why I'm bringing this up is cause as we were playing the games, and as I sat there watching the frustration rise in others, I realized something. I've come to realize that we're not satisfied with the answer we get until we figure out how the answer was gotten. We try and try and try all sorts of answers in hopes that we'll get the answer and probably the reasoning behind it. And sometimes when we can't figure out that reasoning, we start getting frustrated at ourselves and everything. We go on for years trying to figure out why. Sometimes it takes us years, even centuries to figure out why and when we finally figure it out, it seems so insignificant and sooner or later, we move on to something else to figure out.

What I've come to learn is to let go of things that I should instead of letting it bring me down. So I'm letting the fact that I couldn't get the answers to any of the puzzles go and moving on. :)

its been long. :)

2011-04-21T22:56:00.001+08:00

Okay I know I haven't blogged in like 3 months.

Ever since work started to pick up in Uni, I've barely had time to do anything. Plus, the passion to blog is gone. Nooooo! But yes.

Anyways, not much to blog about actually. A lot of dramatic stuff has happened these few months that aren't really worth going into for the sake of not spreading gossip which I realize I have a tendency to do but nyeh, I don't announce it publicly. But no, if you tell me not to tell anyone, I will not. :) Seee! I don't break promises and I can keep secrets.

Since, the only thing I've been busy with is Law School, I'll briefly blog about it (cause there technically isn't much to blog about). Erm. I'll start with the lecturers, I kinda like my lecturers. They're really cool. I am pretty ~~intimidated~~ by one of them to the point of silence. Yes, I would rather just sit there and nod though I may not understand. Oh moots (something like a mock trial) has started and my turn would be in like a month. I know I'll procrastinate so yeah. I promise I'll get to work on it! Soon. XD Syllabus wise, its been pretty intense. So intense I spent my week's break studying for my mock test. It doesn't even count for the finals. Yes, I'm that kiasu and scared. Ohhhh! And I finally got my contract law book after like 4 months of waiting for stock. =_=! And I accidently bent the front cover of my criminal law book! Nooooo! Yes people I am a perfectionist when it comes to preserving my books (well some of them) and I'm reading a book to lessen my perfectionist attitude. :)

Yeap, I guess that's all. Oh and just a point to add to the point above, the work load is like, I can't even think of an example. Let's just say, you're literally exhausted by the end of the week and even the weekends doesn't feel like a break. And when you finally get a break, its like you just resurfaced from being underwater for too long. I'm honestly not joking about the last part. I finished my assignment early this week and I was like "I CAN BREATHE!!! :D"

P/S : check out my facebook or possibly my tumblr cause I'm doing this positive words on a picture project thingy. :) and sorry, I know my life's become pretty boring. :(

Your thoughts are all mixed up,

You try to set it apart,

Its hard to see,

Life so serene again.

I'm listening to

Nothing - The Script

looking.at.life.through.a.window

2011-02-19T23:18:00.001+08:00

Somehow when you take a step back from life and just look at it, it seems pretty different.

Well, at least that’s how I felt. I’ve been quietly (sometimes not so quietly) observing everything that goes on in my life and trying to see what it would be like if I wasn’t there, no I don’t mean it in a way of whether I was born or not but more of if I was not there in that situation kind of thing. Get my drift? I hope you do.

These past few days have been a little bumpy. Classes are still as usual. Starting to cope better now. Still not much to say about it besides, its alright. I feel bad whenever someone asks me “How’s Uni?” and all I can answer is, “It’s okay." But there is really nothing else to say. It is okay. It has its good days and its bad just like anything else.

On a related note, I have done all my first tutorials for all subjects but Criminal Law which I am rather looking forward to. For those of you who don’t know what tutorial’s are, it is where we are given a set of questions related to the lecture to prepare and are to be discussed in tutorials. Because lectures are big, tutorials help students test their understanding on the topic and also, have more attention from the lecturer. Its more like a class review in small groups. Yup, just an insight for those of you who don’t know what tutorials are.

Oh! The most “tragic” thing happened to me last Thursday. We had this lecture that was cancelled and so, Jameson and I decided to go back to SS15 to have lunch with our friends thinking we have a long break (10.00-1.30). We came back at about 1.15pm and when I reached class, I was quite taken aback when I didn’t see anyone outside class which is highly unusual seeing as there are usually people hanging outside. So I checked my timetable and guess what? Class was at 12.00pm and not 1.30pm. It was such an FML moment. We had no idea how we so confidently thought that class was at 1.30pm and not at 12.oopm. In other words, we had accidently skipped class. We got so emo, we sat in the car for like 15 mins being emo and eating chocolate and then headed to Galvin’s house to hang out with him and to emo some more then play some PS3 games

I guess I better stop now. My post became so long. =_=! Sorry!!

P/S: I’ve realized I talk a lot now. So if I talk to much, please do stop me. Hmmm. That might not work either cause I tend to interrupt people and continue talking. Err. Hmmm, I guess just tell me I’m talking too much. :) Thanks. And I’m trying some fonts thus the different fonts for almost each paragraph. :)

Take care people.

I’m listening to

Landslide – Dixie Chicks

I’m afraid of what might be,

Afraid of the unknown,

Afraid of disappointing and of disappointment.

There is nothing to do but take a day at a time.

when.you.suddenly.run.out.of.words.

2011-01-23T01:04:00.001+08:00

I’m trying to find a better way of titling my posts. Right now it seems pretty formal. I guess I’ll be reverting back and forth between different styles till I find one that I like and am comfortable with.

Don’t you hate how you have so much to say and when you’re given the chance, you’re suddenly at a lost for words? That’s what I’m feeling right now. As I was showering a while ago, I had so much I wanted to blog about but now that I’m blogging, nothing seems to be coming out. I suddenly don’t have anything to blog about or say.

Something totally random. I hate the new facebook profile. I can’t see what my last status update was unless I scroll down all the way and look for it neither can I do that for my friends. Besides that, I don’t really care about the rest. I just need some readjustment but I’ll be fine.

P/S : In my opinion, finishing a good book is like losing a friend. Sometimes I get so caught up in the story, it feels like I’m missing something once I’m done with the book. I got these 2 books for about RM12-15 each and I have to say its just as interesting as the books I pay up to RM40 for. My gums (not chewing gum but it does make me want to chew gum though) between my teeth somewhere at the back of my mouth is throbbing in pain. Great. Thanks.

I’m listening to

Tomorrow We Will Fly – Sam Hart (blinktwice4y)

Trying so hard to be alright,

When its only tears that fill your eyes.

Trying to close your heart,

To all the hurt inside.

Moving On To Another Chapter..

2011-01-14T23:49:00.001+08:00

Yes I know I haven’t updated my blog in a long while. I’ve been enjoying my holidays as much as I could by doing absolutely nothing. How awesome is that? :D I probably won’t have an opportunity like that again, not for a very long time at least.

For those of you who don’t know, I’ve started University already. I’m pursuing a degree in Law. So I will be graduating in 3 years time with a Bachelor in Law hopefully with first class honours. At the worse, second upper.

Probably from now on, my posts would be a little bit more formal and a little bit more serious. I have to start my training from now onwards. I will occasionally relax and be myself when I feel like it. :)

I’ll only be starting classes next week so I can’t tell you much about how Uni is. The only things that I can tell you is the campus is huge, and expensive. Just lunch alone could set you back RM8-10 inclusive of a drink. I have to admit that I am feeling quite guilty that I have enrolled myself in one of the most (or most) expensive Law school’s in Malaysia. So I am trying to cut back wherever I can. Sorry if I’m being calculative and cheap people. I will try to not be so annoying and anal about it.

I guess that’s pretty much about what I’ve been up to recently. Well, not only that but the others are pretty minor.

Oh and Leng Hue’s leaving tomorrow!! *sad face* I’ll be seeing her off at the airport tomorrow with probably tears in my eyes. awww. D:

P/S : My friend posted this on her wall and now I’m addicted to this website. It has one of the most hilarious stuff I’ve ever seen. This being the one I laughed loudest and hardest at : http://theoatmeal.com/comics/handshakes

Take care people! See ya soon, I hope. :)

I’m listening to

Why – Secondhand Serenade

I know I’ve fallen in love with you,

The timing of it may not be right,

But yet, I’m ready to hurt,

Just so I may have a moment with you. :)

would you have rather..

2011-01-02T01:07:00.003+08:00

Would you have rather loved and lost or not have loved at all?

I would choose whichever would hurt the less. Looking at the two choices, it would look like the latter would be the choice I should have chosen, instead I chose the former.

I'm not being a pessimist but rather a realist by saying I know that we would be parting ways some time in the future, when precisely, I don't know.

Going back, I don't know why, even with knowing that it would probably never last more than a year and a half, that I still got into it. I knew that he would be leaving, I knew that I won't, I knew so many things and yet, I got myself into it. I've also just realized that its history repeating itself.

Why? I have absolutely no idea. Why do we do things we know will end up bad? Why do we do things we know that will end up hurting us? There are so many possibilities. But to me, the main reason why was because I held on to the hope.

The hope that it MAY work out, the hope that it'd be different, the hope that everything will be alright.

Don't we always do that in live though? We always hope for things cause that's the only we can do in a future so uncertain.

P/S: As you can see, I've taken off my chatbox well cause it kinda expired due to its inactiveness. So yup. I will put it back up sometime in the future I guess but meanwhile you can just comment on my posts. Thanks.

Elevator music

2010-11-27T13:21:00.003+08:00

I have no idea why I made that my title but okay.

I finished my last ISU yesterday! oh yeah! =D Now to crunch for exams. damnit!

I'll be pretty much free in about 2 more weeks. =D weeeee.

Can't wait to be done with exams.

But the suckiest thing is that my marks this semester suck. Like I'm border-line 80. Gahhhh!

I'm thinking of whether to redo one of my assignments to kinda help boost my marks.

The second suckiest thing is, leaving everyone after finals. =(

Well, another suckiest thing was that I didn't get valedictorian. Yes, I am quite bummed out by it but it doesn't mean that I'm not happy for Wern.. =)

I'm probably gonna go back to sleep again after finishing this post. No idea why but I can't sleep through the night so I take naps. =D

P/S : Does anyone know how to get rid of/deactivate avast! antivirus from detecting adware cause its driving me nuts! I cannot do any work without it popping out. So damn annoying! Grrrr! Oh by the way, I am loving the whole, "put-your-favourite-cartoon-character-as-your-profile-picture-week" cause it brings back so many memories of sitting in front of the TV watching unendless hours of cartoons. The game on Jameson's iphone called “Tilt to Live” is unbelievably addictive. ish. it just makes me want to get an itouch or an iphone.

Just because I don't say it,

Doesn't mean I don't.

Cause when I say it,

I really mean what I say.

I'm listening to

I'm A Little Seal Girl - Macie Grey (As Told By Ginger)

Do I Even Need One? =)

2010-11-22T21:55:00.002+08:00

You're so sweet

You say the cheesiest things but yet it makes me go awww.

You tell me I'm beautiful even if I'm wearing the most hideous things or looking horrible.

You're so caring that sometimes, I feel I don't care for myself as much you do. =P

You take care of me.

You believe in me even if I don't and when no one else does.

You put up with my mood swings.

You respect my decisions even if you don't exactly agree with it.

You make me smile with the ridiculous things that you do.

You encourage me when I'm can't go on and to do things when I didn't have the strength to continue.

You reassure me that we'll make it.

You taught me to live in the moment and to leave things to the future.

You wiped away my tears when I cried over the littlest things.

Most of all, you love me for who I am. Quirks and all.

There are so many other reasons why I love you.

But do I even need a reason to love you? =)

All these reasons may change in time but one thing I know is that I will love you regardless.

I'm afraid of what ~~may~~ happen in the future but I'm gonna leave that for now and enjoy every moment I have with you :D

The future will be left in the future,

The past in the past,

And the present will be cherished.

Stop and smell the roses as you walk them by.

I'm listening to

Talking to the Moon - Bruno Mars

and I’m scared to death

2010-11-15T23:08:00.001+08:00

I just don’t wanna study anymore. just so tired and exhausted.

I had an awesome time in Vietnam. Didn’t take as many pictures of people as I did of the buildings and all that.

We visited a variety of places.

Can’t exactly remember the name of the places but the pictures that I’ve posted on Facebook should speak for itself. =)

Feel free to check them out. ;)

Well, I’m done with my Law ISU, in the ~~midst~~ of my IB and Econs CCA (which is due on friday =D).

I really ~~can’t~~ wait till I’m done with my ISU’s and finals but that also means that I’ll be graduating and I’ll be leaving my friends and him, and the days that all my friends start flying off are drawing near. =(

Though I know he’ll still be here till at least July, I’m am scared to death as to what future holds for both of us and what will happen after he leaves.

sorry but I’m just too tired to edit it but it does look beautiful on its own. =)

I’m listening to

If You Wanted A Song Written About You, All You Had to Do Was Ask – Mayday Parade

Never did I expect to feel like this,

You leave me smiling to myself,

At the things you do and say.

drowning in misery

2010-11-09T20:44:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry I haven't been updating my blog.

I've been super uberly busy with assignments after assignments.

I'll try to update as soon as I can okay (which may not be till next month unfortunately). =(

Take care till then. =)

the things you say

2010-10-21T08:04:00.002+08:00

I'm in the computer lab now to do my Law ISU, supposedly, but here I am blogging. XD

Don't worry I'll start on it soon. As soon as I blog about this before I forget.

There were these couple of guys in the computer lab when I came in and I overheard their conversation. This guy wanted to share a chair, which puzzles me a little cause the lab was EMPTY, with his friend and so he asked him to scoot. And continued by saying, "Hey, do you know that you can never do this with a girl unless your really really close to her or if she likes you?" and sorta repeated that a couple more times. One of them continued with saying like, "You could if you were the alpha male sorta guy and maybe they'll listen to you or something". Another one of his friends said, "Just say, move bitch, I wanna sit." I would like to see you say that to a girl, dude.

And thing about it was, the guy who started the conversation, was talking exceptionally loud about it and music after (which is totally unrelated). Anyways, I wanted to go up and tell him, why we don't share our chairs with guys is cause there are other bloody chairs that you can get up and go get yourself (if there are other chairs available). If there are none then the other reason would be, why would we want to touch butts with a guy we barely know? =_=! I definitely know that he would want to.

I should be getting to my research now. See ya guys. =)

I had the most awesome day yesterday. How we slow danced in the candle light, how you kissed me so gently, how you held me close. Everything about the day was incredible. Thank you for such a memorable day baby. :)

I'm afarid of the day,

I have to say goodbye,

To be missing you,

To feel the emptiness.

I'm listening to

Forever - Rascal Flatts

with thoughts swirlling around

2010-10-12T23:42:00.003+08:00

I am pissed off. But there isn't much point on dwelling on it.

I feel so disconnected with my friends. I don't seem to know what's going on in their lives anymore. I mean I'm not complaining or anything but I just wanna find that equilibrium between friends and him so I can enjoy the best of both worlds. I sound so selfish right now. =\. I just don't want to regret anything especially with only a couple more months left.

I just realized that in a couple of weeks October is done. Damn. How time really flies. Plus, it would be a month next week. =)

Anyways, as usual, I'm super busy trying to make time and stay focused on what I should be doing. The heat is definitely not helping things. =( gah!

That's pretty much about it.

Take care guys! =)

P/S : I have no idea why but there's colour in my posts! =D I used a different computer and ta daa there's colour.

You wipe away my tears,
You hug me tight,
And make everything feel alright,
You just make me want to smile.

I'm listening to
Back To December - Taylor Swift

Credits to Adrianna Jane

The other side of the story

2010-10-09T19:24:00.003+08:00

I've come to realize that my perception of someone changes when someone tells me something about some other person. Well, I know its not good and I try not to let it affect me but sometimes it falls through the cracks and it does.

Then, someone else tells me the other side of the story, and things start to make more sense. And yet again, my perception over someone changes.

I'm supposed to be doing my Economics now so I can enjoy the rest of my holidays without worrying about it but damn, I just get so frustrated when I can't find what I want. Nyeh.

Anyways, I had a very good Skype call with Adrianna today! Damn I miss her!! =( YOU'RE SO FAR AWAY AD!! T_T and yes I am very honoured that she let me see her without make-up and no contacts! =) Heeee. Thanks babe for the talk! I less then 3 you! =D

I had a pretty shitty week this week actually. But I ain't gonna blog about it cause its the past now and there is not much point. So yeah. I just gotta move on.

And yes, I know. My blog posts are exceptionally boring now that there's no colours. =( So I shall compensate with a picture! XD

Original picture by Andrew Tan Wei Aun.

Okay, I have no idea how this part of the post had colour. All I did was bold it and ta da there was blue. =S Freaky.

I feel you slipping through,

Always knowing that you would,

You used to be there when I opened my eyes,

But now you don't seem to.

I'm listening to

Breakthrough - Colbie Caillat

For All That I Couldn't Be.

2010-10-04T17:58:00.002+08:00

Well, today was a let down.

Pretty much screwed up the debate.

Studied intensively for the Econs test later on.

Didn't have lunch cause the dude just forgot.

Got pissed and didn't wanna eat anymore.

Rushed through doing my citations for my law essay so I could get to IB on time.

Surprise surprise, we played jeopardy for the test review.

I couldn't answer most of it cause I haven't started studying.

Found out that the winning team got 2 bonus points for it.

Read some more stuff for Econs.

Sat for the test.

Felt like killing myself.

Cooked in the bus cause there was some problem with the air-con.

Found out that I lost the debate.

Wanted so badly to cry.

Then the guilt of crying instead of studying kicked in.

Gotta study for IB test on Wednesday and complete a 5 min video based on an interview that was never done.

Must finish either one by tonight.

Life can't get any better. Yup.

Well, that's pretty much about it.

and yes, Blogger is still being a bitch by not allowing me to add colour. nyeh. whatever la.

It hears the silent whispers,

of a troubled soul,

The silent sounds,

of a heart afraid to move.

I'm listening to

Droplets - Colbie Caillat & Jason Reeves

falling back to reality

2010-10-02T12:01:00.002+08:00

I better update my blog while I still have the time.

I have 2 tests this week, 2 essays due, one video presentation, and a debate that I really really don't wanna do.

I am utterly pissed at the fact that I had to do the debate. I mean if the whole class had to do it, then I'm okay but it wasn't. Only a couple of us had to do it. and yes out of the whole class of 15 I had to be the one getting chosen. =_=!

Grrrrr!

But anyways, I had dinner with the awesome foursome, minus Nat =( at Italianneese yesterday. Well, Jameson and his girlfriend Pennie, Nisa, Bob and Brandon came along too. XD It was still as awesome though. The food was not as nice though. My roasted chicken was extremely dry. It was hard to even swallow it without any sauce. The wedges on the other hand was awesome. =D

I didn't really mind it all cause I had some awesome time with some awesome friends. Well, I guess that's pretty much about it. =)

See ya guys! ;)

P/S : I don't really have time to add colour to the post. So sorry! =(

You leave my head spinning,

Even with the little things you do,

You do so much for me,

that I just feel so fuzzy. =)

I'm afraid that I'm not good enough for you. =S

I'm listening to

Begin Again - Colbie Caillat

You break down the walls I've built

2010-09-24T23:18:00.004+08:00

Its Friday! Finally!

I don't know why but I can't seem to stay awake in class nowadays! OH NO!! NOT GOOD!! x_x

I have to figure out a way to stay awake soon or my grades are gonna go down the drain. Nyeh.

Well, just to update you guys about how life has been.

Life's been pretty awesome recently. I've been completing my assignments on time! =D and some other things that have made it awesome too. ;)

I'm afraid of the week ahead. I foresee a heavy load of assignments! Gah!!! I have to go to KL sometime next week before Tuesday for an interview with PT Foundation for my Law class, make a video for the same assignment, and a presentation. On top of that, I have my International Business ISU's Part 1 and 2 due on Wednesday! (Hmmm. I'll probably try to get that done by the weekend so I don't have too much to do) And hopefully no Econs test YET! If there is, I'm pretty much screwed.

I do hope I survive the week. If I don't, you guys won't be hearing from me for some time. XD

Well, that's pretty much about it for this post. Gah, I hope I didn't post too long. Sorry if I did. =)

take care people!

P/S : I'm super excited about helping out in tomorrow's Ice Hockey Tournament! Ahhh!! so kewl! =D And I'm still trying to get my blog to have colour so excuse how some parts of my post has colour and others doesn't.

You love me for who I am,

And you make me love myself,

Something I always struggled with,

But now I feel like I can face anything,

With you there by my side. =)

I never want to lose you.

I'm listening to

Science and Faith - The Script

I've finally found out how to add colour to my posts again but OMG! Its so damn tedious! I have to go through the codes, find the part of the text I wanna change and MANUALLY change it! Sorry guys, till I find out what's happened, you just have to put up with boring colourless posts except the last part. =\

as the sounds of crickets fill the air.

2010-09-17T02:11:00.004+08:00

I love how silent some nights can be

and the only sound is my fingers hitting the keyboard,

a little harder than they should be.

and no its not cause I'm angry,

its cause I'm just so used to it already. I blame typing games! =P

Anyways, going back to the topic.

I usually don't like quiet nights,

Cause they kinda freak me out, ya know,

like in all those horror movies where all the horrible things happen at night,

oh crap. I think I'm just destroying the mood by scaring myself.

Okay, I shall stop thinking about it.

I'm on the verge of finishing my essay,

All I gotta write is the conclusion and,

I'M DONE!

But instead of finishing it and sleeping,

I'm here blogging. Heeee! =D

That's all for now. ;)

See ya guys! =)

P/S : Blogger is being a prick. I can't seem to add colour to my posts anymore. T_T and Jessica seems to be experiencing the same thing so its not just my blog. Grrr! It makes my posts look so much more boring without colour! =(

My head's spinning,

The thoughts are like whirlwinds,

I want to take that leap,

But I need to how hard I'm gonna hit the ground.

Will you choose a friend over your lover?

Because I can sense that we're not getting along.

I feel that something's wrong.

So tell me what matters to you?

I know I should be sleeping,

To just finish it and be done with,

My eyes just wanna close,

And think about it tomorrow.

I'm listening to

Mine - Taylor Swift

I managed to add colour to this part cause I edited the HTML code. I tried doing that one of the parts, and I almost deleted the whole post.. Yeah. So, sorry no other colours! T_T

Oh the misery!

2010-09-15T14:04:00.003+08:00

Yes, the misery of being sick! Gah!

I'm in absolutely no mood to do my 2 essays! T__T

Nyeh. I should just complete it and get it over with so I would have my weekends free. =D

There isn't much to update about actually so I guess this is pretty much about it.

Oh yeah. I've revived my picture blog so click the link at the side of my page or here if you're lazy to look for it at the side. Do drop me a comment okay! Thank you! =D

Its starting to settle down now,

The thoughts swirling around,

My mind can't think straight,

This sickness is going to my head.

I'm listening to

All Time Low - Dear Maria, Count Me In

blue skies

2010-09-11T11:20:00.005+08:00

How I wish I could float in the clouds in the big blue skies with no care in the world.

That would be awesome.

I would really want to blog about my trip to Sunway Lagoon with some awesome people but the post would be super long and I've told myself that I would not write such long posts anymore. =)

I would also like to blog about Tiff's birthday lunch thing where I had such awesome ninja skills. =P

I would also like to blog about how awesome Andrew Tan and Adrianna Jane are as a farewell post kinda thing but it would be again a long post.

I would one day summarize everything though. =)

I would like to do so many things and I would like so many things to be a certain way but I guess we cant always get what we want. =/

I guess that's all for now. I'm trying to keep it short and simple so yeap. =)

I wouldn't know what to say,

If you ever told me,

Its all jumbled up now,

I don't know what to do.

I'm listening to

What If - Jason Derulo

The Stress/ The Pimples!

2010-09-07T22:33:00.001+08:00

I have a quiz tomorrow. Thank God there are no subjective questions.

My IB video is giving me hell. Oh at least the computers.

My Econs homework is waiting for me to get it done.

And all I want to do is roll on the floor screaming in frustration and probably just fall asleep after that.

If only! Gah..

as you watch it flow through you

2010-09-03T08:46:00.002+08:00

Yay! Moral is DONE with! I'm so glad I don't have to sit there and waste my life away.

Come to think of it, I can't understand why we have moral. I mean I can understand if you make us apply it and all but what's the point of teaching us theories of Moral? Why is there even theories of Moral? Gahhhh! Whatever. Its done with! =D

Law class was cancelled today so I had time to come and blog. =)

Anyways, I guess that's pretty much about it.

Ohhh! I'm going to the Ramadhan bazaar with my friends today!! YAY!! Ramadhan food and friends! Can life get any sweeter? ;D

P/S : I've started using my picture blog again cause I found out how to reblog stuff instead of saving it and re-uploading it. I'll update my You Know Not Who I Am blog soon (as soon as I get the time to do it. =P)

My thoughs keep drifting back to you,

To the regrets I've always had.

But its okay now,

It doesn't hurt as much,

Instead it makes me smile,

To remember that you were here with me. :)

I'm listening to

Wedding Dress - Tae Yang

I feel you slipping away.

2010-08-29T23:27:00.003+08:00

Yes I know I owe you people a post! heee! =)

Sorry for the emo posts, I've been feeling pretty under the weather recently.

Don't worry about me. Its just the built up of things so yeah.

I'm all better now! =D

I have been so socially busy recently.

I just want to stay home and be a pig.

I have no idea why but recently I've been very tired even though I get enough sleep.

I also constantly feel hungry.

What The Fishsticks?

something is definitely ~~wrong~~ with me.

oh yeah to top it all off, I have pimples ALL over my face!! GRRRRR!!! >=(

Well, that's pretty much about it. =D

Bye people! ;)

You work in my life,

Without me knowing,

You were there for me,

Even when I turned away.

Oh how much Your love surrounds me.

I'm listening to,

The Truth - Kris Allen

Credits to Tiffy!

Yes, that stick figure is me.

un-ti-tled

2010-08-19T09:30:00.005+08:00

just tell me how you want me to be, how to act, how to feel, how to look, what to say and I'll finally be good enough.

Its funny how having so many imperfections about yourself pointed out, you lose so much confidence in yourself and all you feel like doing is to give up trying to be ~~who you really want to~~ be or ~~who you really are~~.

I'm sorry for taking it personally. I'm sorry for feeling insulted. I'm sorry for reacting. I'm sorry.

Just leave me alone now.

As Mr. Suschkov would say "Such is life"

I just don't feel like celebrating it this year. I just don't want to pretend to be in mood when I'm not.

I don't matter,

You have him/her.

I don't feel that way,

You treat me that way.

I'm listening to

Conspiracy - Paramore

After So Long..

2010-08-17T16:23:00.003+08:00

Hello readers! yes, I know I have readers eventough I haven't updated my blog in about 2 weeks. I feel so honoured and liked. Thank you people! =)

As I've said in the last post, I've been swamped with assignments. I'm blogging now cause I don't think I have any work due tomorrow so I can breathe for a little bit and I'm waiting for the jam outside college to clear up before I head home.

The highlight of my week I think is the trip I had with my Moral project groupmates to PAWS. We got sorta lost getting there cause the map they gave wasn't exactly correct so we had to make a couple of U-turns, stops and phone calls to the office. PAWS wasn't exactly what we thought it would be. It looks pretty sad from the outside actually. It just looks like a shed at the corner of the highway and the only place you could park is in the little motorcycle lane so for those of you who plan to go, don't drive a Camry like Zer Hann did! hahahaha. =P

Anyways, me, Jenn, Naf and Philip cleaned the puppies section! IT WAS AWESOME! Okay beside the heat and smell it was fun. honestly. as we were cleaning the floors, we played with the puppies. After the washing we got to walk them! this was the funnest part if you get a hyper pup. I walked 2 puppies; the first one was a little hesistant at first but soon was playing with the other puppies but my second one was so timid that it didn't want to move and all it did was lie down and stare at us with such fear. awww. I named my first pup Scruffy and my second pup Scruffy the second (Scruffy II)

After the walk we had to wash the puppies and dry them and put them back in their cages. Washing them wasn't really hard cause they were small and both my puppies co-operated with me. I have no idea what happened to my second pup though. When I started trying it, it started vomitting and shiverring. I hope Scruffy II is doing okay. =(

If I hadn't had to get back for my IB test, I would have totally stayed longer.

Oh yeah talking about my IB test. I totally screwed it up! Its like I knew it but I didn't change the answers!!! WHY?!?! Grrrrrr!!! So annoying when that happens.

I just got back my Econs test results and whoa, I did not expect that (in a good way). I never expected to score so high! =D

I'm not doing too well in law though. I'm averaging at about only the 70's. =(

Yup so that's pretty much about what's going on with my life. Oh! Andrew is leaving to Singapore tomorrow and I won't be seeing him for a very very long time! =( COME BACK SOON OKAY ANDREWS!!! ='(

P/S : I'm just too lazy to add colours and all that so yeah. XD hahaha. sorry people! I know, I know. I'm getting lazy.

I feel like the more I think about you,

the more I feel myself falling for you again,

how is that possible,

when you're not even here.

why do I feel like how I felt when you first told me?

and why am I longing go back

into those memories

that I will always treasure.

I'm listening to

Just The Way You Are- Bruno Mars

Hello Goodbye

2010-08-09T21:29:00.003+08:00

Hi people.

I know I haven't been updating my blog.

I apologize. I've been swamped with assignments and hadn't had the time to blog. I will do it when I have the time okay! I promise! =)

Bye for now.. I hope..

Its a roller coaster ride,

There are days that are good,

And there are days that aren't so good,

I'm tired. exhausted.

I'm listening to

Misguided ghosts - Paramore

For Andrewtan

2010-08-03T10:05:00.002+08:00

I know this is super late cause this actually happened last Friday.

What was the occasion? We had a farewell party for Andrew Tan Wei Aun aka the Tanster aka Andrewtan.

What happened? We kidnapped him, literally, stuffed him into Grace's car drove around for a little bit before ending up at the field in front of McD's. The guys unloaded him from the car and carried him to the far part of the field, dumped him there and started to prepare for the BBQ. Andrew was a really squirmy wormy sperm. We actually had to take his shoelaces out and tie his hands with it cause he kept tugging at the masking tape that it got loose and was of no use. Anyways, I had a really good talk with Andrew while we waited. Very insightful talk it was. Just as we wanted to start BBQ-ing, it started to rain. =_=!

We freed Andrew and showed him the banner we did for him before we proceeded to AJ's aunt's house where we held the BBQ. The BBQ in general was awesome, I didn't eat much though but the group of people just made it so awesome that everything else didn't have to matter. We hung out, took pictures and laughed which in my opinion is the essence of a great party.

We ended things with a bang literally. Neil brought some firecrackers and lighted one or two but we mostly played with the sparkles. the ones you could hold and not burn your hand. The guys started to get really crazy and decided to light the huge one. So everyone got into positions to run after they lighted it. Neil being the crazy one, lighted it and as soon as he did, everyone ran to their cars, and sped off. It was a lucky thing too cause the bang set off a car alarm. Very exhilarating. Melvin even wanted to light another one while we were waiting at the shops.

So all in all, I got back at almost 1am and almost got into trouble with the parents but it was totally worth it.

I hope all goes well with you Andrew. All the best!! Keep rocking and I hope to keep in touch cause your one friend I don't wanna lose. =)

My heart is aching,

For what I don't seem to know.

I'm afraid of moving on,

Cause I'm afraid you'll think,

that it meant nothing to me.

I want to move on,

to fall in love again,

to experience what I did with you,

but I feel like I'm betraying you.

Please please know,

that I will never do.

You will always be my first love,

and nothing will ever change that.

I'm listening to

Whoever She Is - The Maine

a day to catch up..

2010-07-25T20:56:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was fun. I did alot of catching up with people I haven't seen since I started college.

In the morning, I met up with my high school friends some of which have been my friends since primary and one since kindergarten. Just for memories sake when I read back, I shall name them. Li Onn, Jitesh, Xin Zhi, Justin, Sean, Suey Erz, Peng Yen, Jing Wen, and last but not least Kat. It was the first time, ever, that the number of guys and girls were the same. The guys usually outnumber the girls. It was nice being able to catch up with them again over some bah kut teh. We sat around talking about old times and some really funny stuff after we were done. It made me realize how much I miss those moments. We went back to Li Onn's house to hang around for a little before we headed back home. I had to send Peng Yen to Xin Zhi's house to wait for Lindy so we (Suey Erz, Peng Yen and myself) hung out in the car while we waited for Lindy to pick Peng Yen up. While waiting, I drove around a little and went to pick Ching Pei up cause we were going to my house to get ready for prom.

I had to rush off cause I thought my sister needed the car by 2 so dropped Peng Yen and Xin Zhi back at his house. Picked Sheila up from Centro and made a wrong turn and ended up going to a place I've never been before and going into two lanes which were dead ends. =_='. Anyways, we finally made it out and back. Then I called my sister to tell her we were going to be late and she said she didnt need the car by 2! double =_=! I was rushing everyone being all tension cause I thought she needed the car at 2. Sheila wanted to buy some food and Ching Pei wanted some coloured hairspray, but ended up not buying. So Suey Erz and I waited in the car while they went to buy food.

Once we reached home we started getting ready. Sheila helped us with the makeup. Ching Pei brought her straightener so I started straightening my hair and everything. The most epic moment while getting ready : Suey Erz's eye linear pencil broke and we stepped on the broken pieces without knowing it which caused my floor to look like it had black chicken pox. We sorta had a hard time cleaning it up. To make matters worse, I thought by pouring water on it, it would've been easier, which Suey Erz only later said that it was waterproof. My reaction, "what!?!? O_o damnit! *rubs the floor harder* shit! * haha. it was funny looking back.

Anyways, Maniraj picked us up and had to drop by Sheila's friend shop to do her eyebrows. After that we were off to prom and we were really late. How late I shall not say. =P. It was fun to see everyone again and to hang out with them. A lot of us have changed in many ways and it was nice to see that we were still able to hang out like we used to. I haven't uploaded the pictures yet but you can go see it after I have. =) I hope to see you guys again. =D

Oh talking about that. I had another gathering with my college friends and seniors that have graduated on Friday. May was gracious enough to invite us to her potluck dinner. It was an awesome time! Like AWESOME! We had lots of food but as usual the drink finished way before the food did. I'm not going to go into detail about it cause I can't exactly remember the sequence of things but here are the highlights. We as in Bob, Jameson, Andrew, Zer Hann, Bryan, Melvin, Razlan, Cecilia, Nisa, Evelyn and myself played "The Bachelor Game" like the one on "Who's line is it anyways?". I came up with real life situations and presented them to the guys and some answers were really sweet while others we really, "=_=! like seriously man? come on!" The two sexually confused bachelors Cecilia and Nisa were harder cause I didn't know whether to present the questions to them as a guy or girl. haha.

We then proceeded to the playground. Some of us played on the swings, the see-saw (Andrew and myself) and the jungle gym. We slowly made our ways to the jungle gym where we tried to have a photo session which didn't turn out very nice. oh well. =) Anyways, we got thirsty and went back to the other side of the field where the food were. Sat around and decided to play chap chilli chap. A super classic game some of us use to play back in primary school. haha. It turned out to be a super funny session with a whole load of laughter. We played a couple of other games that didn't really turn out.

We ended the night by helping pick up the rubbish, cleaning up and packing up all the stuff to shift it back to May's house. (I think I forgot to mention that we had it in the field in front of her house) The rest went back not too soon after while I hung around with Melvin since he was the one fetching me home. We had some pretty epic moments too. Not very surprising as Azim was there. The funniest joke of the night. Jacob apparently doesn't have a sense of smell and Azim went on about how he can only taste the texture of things and not the taste of it since he has no sense of smell and all that. So Azim was like so if I fart you can't smell it la? Then I said, oh if its like that then he tastes the texture of the fart la?? LOL!! Anyways it was much funnier in that moment. I laughed till my side hurt. haha. the day pretty much ended up with Melvin sending me back after everything.

Yup so that's pretty much about it. I know its a super long post. I might break it into two separate posts or something tomorrow.

P/S : sorry for it not having any colour. Bob keeps rushing me to finish the post. blame him! =P anyways. I'll add in the colour and all that later. =)

I'm emotionally tired,

emotionally drained.

I take on problems that aren't my own,

and it feels like it is my own.

The scars are ripped open,

And I'm left vulnerable,

I struggle to pick the pieces up,

Before anyone can see the mess I've become.

But just as I thought I got away with it,

they turn and see,

the person I don't want them to see.

The person struggling to better the better me.

I'm listening to

Only One- Augustana

just for today.. please..

2010-07-22T09:33:00.003+08:00

Just for today just please let me hate the world.

Just for today just please let me be heartbroken.

Just for today just please let me be anti-social without judging me.

Just for today just please let me be anal.

Just for today just please let me hate the girl who keeps screaming at nothing.

Just for today just please leave me alone.

Just for today just please let me cry if I want to.

Just for today...

and now its going to eat at my soul

2010-07-20T22:29:00.002+08:00

I got so nervous for my audition that I could hear the quivering in my voice. =_='.

Ergghhh!! So disappointed with myself. Someone give me their honest opinion on it please!!! I need to hear someone said that "yeah it wasn't good" and not "Its okay", "Oh, it was fine" or anything sugar coated. Give it to me straight up.

I can't do much about it now but focus on helping out with the musical backstage. I'm glad I don't have to audition for that. pheww.

Anyways, I only reached home today at 8.40pm and I'm BEAT!! Like seriously beat. I could barely keep my eyes open when I drove. shhh!! Well one thing was because there was a stupid freaking jam for reasons I cant seem to see. I left Subang at around 7.20pm and a trip that usually only takes me 15-20mins ended up being 1 hour 20 mins or so. LIKE WTH!?!?! =_=

I was already so tired and the jam, rain and air-con just made it worse. at one point I did close my eyes for a split second while I was stuck in the jam. Just too freaking tired. But don't worry people, the cars weren't moving at all and I'm still in one piece and nothing was damaged so its all good. =)

I still haven't gotten the hang of cutting into a lane which is bumper to bumper which also means the cars are close to each other thus making it to cut the cars really hard for a relatively new driver like me. I wanted to go left but was kinda scared of the oncoming cars so the car behind me ( a very nice uncle) flashed me to kinda let me know that I can actually move out. Well I think that's what he was doing and not just flashing me cause I didn't know how to get out. I'll just go with the positive version of the story cause I saw him later on giving way to this woman who wanted to cut which was really nice. =) . I love people who are considerate of other. =D .

While driving I also saw typical Malaysian drivers. This car wanted to cut into the middle lane from the right lane. She (I'm guessing) eased her way into the lane and NO car wanted to let her go. You know what they did instead? They just avoided her and continued on the lane meaning that she was literally stuck cause no one wanted to give her way. Its hard to explain it but that's the best I could do. Super sakai man. ergghhh! No wonder even my lecturers don't like driving in Malaysia.

I guess that's pretty much about it.

bye people of the planet earth. *insert peace sign* :)

P/S : I'm sorry if the post isn't up to my usual standards. I'm extremely tired and all I wanted to do was sleep ever since I reached home. As usual, later. (refer to my previous post if you don't understand)

I hold on to the memories,

so tight I feel my knuckles turn white.

I'm afraid that if I loosen my grip,

that it will all just fall away.

I never want to forget you,

and I always want you to be a part of my life,

and I hope, I am in yours.

Every time I have a happy memory,

I am filled with this longing,

But with this longing I remember you,

and the best memories you had given me.

You are something I will never forget,

neither something I will ever regret. =)

I'm listening to

When I Fall In Love -Nat King Cole.. ahhh the classics.

its in the middle of the night..

2010-07-17T00:13:00.004+08:00

Just to update you about what happened between my last post and this post.

I went for the Musical meeting with intentions to do backstage work but ended up signing up for auditions too. I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT I WAS THINKING!!! Erggghhh!! someone please freaking kill me! Tze Ren telling me that that's how people hear you on recordings just made me realize that I actually really suck. X_X. I definitely don't wanna make a fool of myself.

Anyways besides that today's lunch pretty much sucked. We went to this vegetarian food stall near college. The food tasted quite weird. I didn't like that sodium-ish taste in the Wantan Mee I had. yuck! Well when we were eating half way, Zer Hann was like ewwww!!! I just stepped on something. So I thought it was like food or something. Instead I saw a freaking cockroach!! A FREAKING COCKROACH!! with like its juices all on the floor. eeeeeeewwwwwww!! well on the good side, Zer Hann sorta rescued the table from going into a fit of screams if the cockroach did crawl up any of our (girls) legs. XD.

Oh by the way, I have a new lunch gang now. My new lunch gang now is made up of Evelyn, Natasha, Zer Hann and Philip with occasional visits from people who so happen have the same break or whatever.

I definitely miss eating lunch with Victor and Min Zhi and all those little lunch moments I won't forget like the phone calls Min Zhi will get from his parents while also eating his lunch. epic!! =P. I'm so used to eating so slow with them that now when I eat with the others, I feel so extremely slow. I almost always seem to finish last. =S.

That's pretty much about the post. I'm like super sleepy now so I can't exactly think of things to blog about. I'm just blogging about what comes to mind.

Bye people! Take care. =)

P/S : Yes, as usual I'll redo the post later. Okay from now on to make things simpler, I'll just say later and it just means I'll re-edit it later. =)

Its like riding a roller coaster,

you go all the way to the top,

and hold your breath because you know,

that when you come down, it's heart stopping.

It grips your heart,

When all you want is for it to be free.

To be unable to feel.

Its funny how now that its over,

people seem to know.

And they help me deal with it.

To help me get back on my feet

and start smiling again,

without the pain that it hides.

I'm listening to

I'll be right here waiting for you - Bryan Adams

sorry if the pictures are pixelised cause I just copied it from facebook and kinda uploaded it and stretched it.

my soon to be distant memory..

2010-07-15T09:28:00.004+08:00

At the rate I think I'm gonna go, my blog is pretty much going to die pretty soon. Last semester I finished class at like 1. Now I finish at 3.30pm. Yes people. My class is from 8am to 3.30pm. And yes, I am exhausted and its only the 3rd day.

I have no idea how I'm going to survive. =S

I have 2 breaks though but I'm using my second break for lunch so there isn't much I can do after my lunch so its pretty taken up to eat. My first break though is quite free. I could use this time to blog but I seldom get my "creative" juices flowing at 9.15 in the morning so yeah. At night is when I use the time to catch up with the world. I know it sounds ridiculous but most of the people I talk to are my college friends which doesn't really make sense as we can see each other everyday and still have things to talk about at night. XD

So far, I've never failed to my beloved freaks who think feel they're cool. None other than Adrianna Jane aka Ad, who some how doesn't make sense sometimes and you're left wondering what on earth she means. =P, Razlan aka Raz aka Razi who is always bored and random and found a "epal" sugus on his table yesterday and last but not least Victor aka Vic aka the ultimate freak =P. He usually ~~kills the conversation~~ with whatever he says. Sometimes he's pretty into the conversation and sometimes he's pretty missing from the conversation. XD

Yup, so that's all I wanted to blog about since I have nothing else to blog about and Ad wanted an update.

Oh and if you wanted to know. College is going pretty well. Kinda freaked out about all my subjects this semester. I took Law, IB, Econs and HAD to take LAN. Law and Econs are my main concern I guess. I got really awesome lecturers though. =D. Econs is seriously deep and intense but interesting. Its hard to explain till your in the class. somehow me and Victor can never sit together in this class. =_='. But whatever, we still have the same class. =D.

P/S : Pictures on my blog posts might be seasonal cause I'm using the college computer. I could like copy and paste the pictures I have on my facebook but I'll only do that if I have the mood. Yes, I am a very moody writer. =P. I am in the mood today but I'm sorta rushing to meet Raz at ECA to go stone with him. XD. *edit : okay so I didn't go to ECA. As I was just about to exit the computer lab, I bumped into Nisa, Adrianna and Azim so I decided to chill with them instead. =D.

Take care dudess!! =)

Every hallway holds a memory,

of us walking in every one.

My thoughts still wonder back to you,

But now I know to smile instead of hurt.

remembering all those times we touched,

still sends electric shocks through my body,

I know now that we can be nothing more,

But what happened to just being friends?

I miss you my best friend,

and that's what I really want,

my best friend back.

I'm listening to

Stay Close, Don't Go - Secondhand Serenade

It Keeps You Awake, Against Your Will.

2010-07-09T09:15:00.003+08:00

So freaking sleepy now. Its like 9.15am and I slept at like 2am yesterday. I had to wake up to let the cleaner in and am now the fighting the urge to go to sleep, which I think I'll soon give up.

Anyways, I don't know what to do to help keep myself awake so here I am blogging. I was initially only supposed to spend a couple of minutes on the comp just to check my facebook but I ended up being stuck to it.

There's nothing much to blog about right now.

All the news I have right now is,

He's leaving Sunday evening.
I'm going to celebrate Jess' birthday tonight.
College is starting soon
And my trip to school to pick up my sijil berhenti sekolah was a waste of timecause all the info except my dad's name and my name were wrong. how can that be possible?!?! All they needed to do was to transfer info from a book into a cert and they still got it wrong. Idiots. and not only that, they have this counter so that you don't have to go into the office to deal with the people and they didn't wanna come to the window so they were standing some distance away asking me things. Like HOW CAN I HEAR YOU WHEN RECESS IS GOING ON AND YOUR STANDING SO FAR AND SPEAKING SO SOFT?!?! Okay this is more or less the conversation,

Lady : Apa? (or so I thought)

Me : Nak sijil berhenti sekolah

Lady : Tahu la. BILA??

Me : Oh. Tahun lepas.
Lady : Tahun bila? (Or so I thought, again)

Me : 2009?

Lady : Ish. KE-LAS A-PA????

Me : Oh. Errr.. *brain froze. I actually forgot what class I was in. I almost said 5S1*. 5S3

*she just walks away and directs me to another person*

after standing there like some idiot and I finally got my sijil, I check to see if the info is correct (all cause of mummy's training. =D) then I realized all my info was wrong. =_='. Dumbasses wasted my time coming to school and waiting for them just to get that piece of paper that contained all the wrong info. Goodness!! They can't even do this right. ish.

Okay, I know that this has become a rant post but who cares. you would be pissed too if it was you.

So that's pretty much about it for today.

Chao peps. =)

P/S : I'll re-edit it later when I'm more awake. =)

The more I think about you,

The more I miss you.

All the memories we had together,

Just makes letting you go so much harder.

Your leaving tomorrow,

and whether I'm ready or not,

I know I have to let you go.

so go be the best that you can be,

but please never forget me,

cause I will never forget you,

and how you made me feel. =)

I'm listening to

More Than A Love Song - Augustana

A Time Back When

2010-07-08T01:02:00.006+08:00

I had a barbecue with my college kawans yesterday. It was definitely a last minute thing cause I only invited them on Sunday. So, Leng Hue, Natasha, Evelyn, and myself met up in college at 1.30ish cause Nat and Eve, who are huge Seventeen fans (hmmm. it might have to do with the fact that they appear in the magazine that contributes to them being such huge fans. =P ) and Seventeen magazine was in college for a roadshow kinda thing. So after the lucky draw thingy we went to Carrefour to shop. It was pretty much our first time shopping without our mums so we were pretty lost. XD . We managed to get the stuff we needed except a couple of things. So we headed to Jaya Jusco Bukit Raja. Got all the remaining stuff there and went back to my house to set everything up.

Evelyn's GPS made Persiaran Bukit Raja sound like a jumble of words. Very very funny. XD

Anyways, Adrianna, Victor, Razlan and Zer Hann met us at my house. The guys were looking quite shaken which later I found out was due to the fact that they almost got into a accident. hahaha. Funny story. It took us about 1 and 1/2 hours to get the fire going. Zer Hann really helped me out the most with starting the fire. *cough where did the other two guys go cough*. Okay Razlan did try to start the fire and kinda gave up after awhile. =P

*edit : and eventually the girls helped out and even Evelyn sat like a man trying to wait for the fire to get going. XD

With the help of technology, a stand fan, we were able to get the fire going and soon we were barbecuing. =D We had mushrooms, potatoes, chicken wings, sausages, and chicken balls. For pictures of the food go to Leng Hue's blog to check out her awesome photography skills and the pictures of the barbecue.

We only decided to sit round the barbecue and hang around towards the end of the night. No idea why though. weird but awesome people. =P. While talking, we had this whole Bachelor No. 1, tell me blah blah blah.. something like that. you get the idea right? then some how moved on to Bachelorette then moved on to 'would you rather'. The most epic question of the night, with a little research done. Would you rather screw Whoopi Goldberg or Oprah Winfrey? and the winner is *drum rolls*... Oprah Winfrey cause Whoopi looks "like a man" ( I can't remember who said it but it wasn't me. XD) To help make the choice easier, they googled a picture of both.

My 'would you rather' question was slightly more gross, Would you rather eat cheese that's been rotten for a couple of months OR eat of the floor.. wait for it.. of a wet market. hahah. my other one was to Natasha which I asked, Would you rather get together with a fat, bald guy who can never get thin or grow hair but has a good heart or a good looking dude with a rotten heart. At first she chose the bald guy then preferred "to kill herself first". XD. hahahaha. the reaction on her face was funny. You can watch Nat's 'Would you rather' question to Victor on Adrianna's blog.

The barbecue ended pretty early which was like 10.30pm cause Adrianna had to get back and send all the guys back to SS15 so yeah. We stopped at approximately that time and started packing & cleaning up. Thank you to all for helping. A special thanks to Evelyn, Leng Hue and Natasha who stayed back a little while to help wash up and clean up most of it. I really appreciate it. After you guys left, cleaning up was pretty scary cause things were so quiet suddenly. =S.

But I had a great time and I hope they did to. =D I didn't take any pictures cause most of the time, my hands were pretty dirty but the other did though. You'll have to wait till they upload the pictures. =)

that's pretty much about it for today. bye people. =D

P/S : I think I should stop putting so much detail into my posts. I find that I'm just lengthening the post and putting redundant stuffs into it. =S I gotta get up to go sum where tomorrow so re-editing will be done tomorrow. =) I can never seem to sleep before 2am no matter how hard I try. =S

Its funny that when I read it,

That feeling of emptiness and sadness,

didn't wash over me,

and swallow me whole.

I guess its time to move on and start letting go,

but why am I feeling guilty for doing so?

is it because I'm afraid that if I let go,

the memories fade too?

I'm listening to

Twenty Years - Augustana.

~~I don't hear the words. All I hear is sound.~~

~~I had a dream that I was para-sailing and everything was just so peaceful that when I woke up, I wanted so badly to fall asleep again.~~

I'm Back From The Island Part 2. =D

2010-07-03T21:14:00.005+08:00

So on to the remaining part of the trip.

Day 3

We went for brunch at this shop somewhere downtown. I can't remember the name of the shop though. Some of us had chicken rice and the rest had curry mee. This curry mee shop did things quite differently. Its like they put all the ingredients into the bowl except the curry/spicy part of it and on the table, they have the sambal that you add into your bowl. So its like you kinda control how spicy and how oily you want it to be. I totally forgot to take a picture of it though. =S

Anyways, after that Keat Yang, his sister and Jian Wei took us to the Chong Fatt Tze or better known as the Blue Mansion. Unfortunately, the next tour was at 1.30pm and it was only 12.30pm when we reached. The day was too scorching hot to walk anywhere so they took us to eat some famous cendol. YUM!! Because we just finished brunch, I was still full and couldn't fully enjoy it. =( And the cendol was also abit different. They had red bean in the cendol which Klang cendol doesn't. I liked it. =D. As we were eating, someone suggested to have some rojak and thus 2 plates of rojak came. By the time we finished everything, I felt so stuffed.

Cendol with red beans and kidney beans

We later went to Komtar Walk to buy some ~~alcohol~~ and withdraw some money. Keat Yang, his sister and Jian Wei had to go for a meeting so while waiting for them we walked around Gurney Plaza where we met Kenny, Razlan, Lisa and Kimberly who were also in Penang. We didn't really get to hang out with them though. =S

Cam-whoring in Gurney Plaza

Victor being all outer-spacish.

After that we went back to the apartment to prepare for the remaining day at the beach. Okay this was the best part of the trip; the water sports. For RM150 we got para-sailing (two people) and the Viper. For para-sailing I'll have to wait till my friend upload's the picture to show you how awesome it was. I was pretty scared at first but when you get up there, its very peaceful, calm and windy. According to Evelyn, she saw a lot of jellyfishes but I dunno why I didn't see any. Oh wait, maybe I wasn't looking for it. =P. I went for the para-sailing with Victor since everyone else had their own partner. After the para-sailing we went for this thing called the Viper. Its quite hard to explain what it is until you see the picture of it. Its like this floaty that you sit in and they pull you at high speed across the water. At the end of it, your arms, wrist and ass will hurt from it. You feel like your literally holding on for your life. Your arms dare not let go for the fear of being flung off. XD. Well being flung off isn't too bad till you start thinking of the jellyfishes, or the amount that Evelyn described and the fear of being stung so yeah your arms react to it. XD. After the water sports we hung out in the sea and on the beach. We stayed till the sun set and went back to the apartment to bathe and clean up to go for dinner.

I doubt you can see us but from left : Jian Yung, Evelyn, Victor, Adrianna, Natasha,

Jian Wei, Keat Yang, Huey Kee and myself. =D

The sexay ladies. ;)

For dinner we went to this food court in Tanjung Tokong but the Har Mee wasn't as nice as the first day's one BUT the Oh Chien (Oyster Omelette) was awesome!! Yummy-ness!! =D

Burroti

Har Mee

Oh Chien

After dinner, we went to the 'pasar malam' near our apartment. Ad, Victor and I walked around looking for nothing in particular, well I was sorta looking for a purse and Victor was looking for Brazil jersey, which was sorta a waste seeing as how Brazil lost yesterday. =P . Nah I'm just joking. Loyalty and confidence in your favourite team. Way to go Vic. ;) We went to a couple of shops to find a reasonably priced jersey and finally found one in one shop. We met up with Evelyn and Jian Yung for awhile then decided to go back and on the way back we stopped by 7-11 to get some water and snacks.

Keat Yang trying to be Spiderman. =P

Then continued to walk back to the apartment where we waited for the others and then we started drinking, hanging out and watching TV. Oh and also our Maggi Cup party. XD. hahaha. I did some packing so I didn't have to wake up too early the next day. =P. Well that's the end of day 3, the final day we had in Penang before we took the bus the next morning. =(

Day 4

We woke up pretty early to kinda make sure we packed everything, have breakfast and obviously to not miss our bus. After dropping off the keys at the guard house, we were off to Queensbay. Our tour guides decided to take us somewhere near our bus terminal so that we don't miss our bus. We ate some mamak food which was pretty okay I guess. I was pretty quiet and moody cause I didn't get much sleep the night before so yeah. After breakfast, we tried to pay our tour guides some money for all everything they've done for us but they didn't want to accept it and even RAN. Ishh.. Modest, superly nice people!! hahaha. :)

Anyways, we boarded the bus and we were off back to Sunway. For the meal, this time, they served chicken rice. It was quite nice actually. I spilled some rice onto the carpet and felt really guilty for it. Hey! It wasn't my fault that the bus turned and the thingy slid off the tray okay!! XD

Yup so that's pretty much my trip to a small, beautiful, with ultimately delicious food called Penang. =D I hope you enjoyed reading about the trip.

Take care people.

P/S : I need to sleep sorta early today ~~okay its like 1.30am but this is considered to be early for me because I usually sleep at like 3. XD~~ cause I need to wake up for church tomorrow so I'll re-edit it, and again, hopefully by tomorrow. =P.

When I want to feel close to you,

I just revisit the memories we've had,

And if I'm really lucky,

It feels like you're there with me.

~~Just know that I never regretted being with you. :)~~

I'm listening to,

Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion

I'm Back From The Island =D

2010-07-02T22:23:00.009+08:00

Hey people!!

As you can see, I'm back from Penang. I came back yesterday at around 4 but I've been pretty tired and I only uploaded the pictures today so I'm only blogging now. =)

Forgive me if I make any grammatical mistakes or typos cause I'm watching the Netherlands and Brazil game while blogging. =P

The trip was really fun and awesome. The apartment we stayed at wasn't exactly up to our expectations but it was a pretty okay place. It was pretty near some shops and the 'pasar malam' so it was cool plus it was like so worth the money. It was like only RM100 for 3 nights per person. So if you wanna do the math its like RM100 X 6 = RM600 for 4 days in a 3 bedroom apartment with Astro and a view of the swimming pool. It was definitely value for money. Just for those of who want to know, we stayed in Batu Feringghi. :)

Seeing as this IS a long post, I might break it up into 2 posts cause I'm gonna talk about everything in detail for the sake of re-reading this a few years down the road and being all nostalgic cause that's how I roll. ;) Brace yourselves.

Day 1

We (Adrianna, Natasha, Victor, Evelyn, Jian Yung and myself) took the Aeroline Bus it was pretty cool. They had a screen behind every seat and everything. It really felt like a plane only with wheels. haha. We had Subway and a choice of coffee, tea or water for our meal that's provided. The ride was pretty okay. We arrived earlier than expected which was like 12.3opm, expected time of arrival was 1pm. We met Keat Yang, his sister Huey Kee (I'm sorry if I spelt her name wrongly. =] ) and Jian Wei (our tour guides and transporters during our whole stay there) at the Queensbay Mall. Some of us were pretty hungry so we went to Wong Kok to have lunch. We went get some snacks to stock up for the late nights we knew we were going to have. =P. So after that, we checked into the apartment and hung around there for a little while.

After we changed, we were off to the Gurney area. We took a walk to the shore of the beach, well not really the shore la but the coast? Okay I have no idea how to explain that but you'll get what I mean when you see the pictures.

You can see that like their's this wall there so we're not really on the beach itself. =)

This just reminded me of Buckingham Palace for some reason. XD

My reaction when I first saw it : O_O

Some of the other places we visited

So we spent sometime there and moved on to Fort Cornwallis. The funniest thing we found there was in the chapel, there was an air-con. super LOL moment. XD

The air-con I was talking about.

Anyways, we walked around there and took some pictures and sorta hung out watching the sunset and then went for dinner. Dinner was DELICIOUS!! YUM-NESS!!! And I found out that in Penang, Hokkien Mee isn't the black sauce version we get here in Klang, its actually Har Mee (Prawn Mee) and it was awesome sial!! I've never tasted anything so nice before. Okay, I admit that I've never been a Har Mee fan. I would choose lots of other food above Har Mee. When I ordered that I was actually expecting the black sauce version so when Har Mee came, I was like"O_O. What's this?" Then my friend told me that in Penang, this is Hokkien Mee and the black sauce one is called Hokkien Cha. Confusing eh. Penang really has a unique way of doing things. Their Hokkien is different from the usual Hokkien and even what they call some of their foods but I guess that's what makes them so special. Oh the place that we went to was New Lane.

The delicious bowl of heavenly Har Mee for only RM 3. =D

Anyways, we went to the 'pasar malam' on Macallum Road (forgive me if I spelt it wrong. I'm spelling it as I hear it) Walked around a bit then decided to go sit sum where to wait for the rest. And while waiting I finally decided to get a crepe. The wait was killer. People just cut in front of you to order and the waiting involved just to get yours. But it was all worth is. I had a chicken ham with seaweed and cheese. YUMMM!!!! *drools* Enjoyed every bite. Just thinking about it now makes my mouth water. =P

After the 'pasar malam', we went back to the apartment and hung around. Victor and I had an Uno session in which I owned him. muahahahaha. We were pretty beat so we headed to bed at about 2am.

The Uno session.

Jian Yung was dared to stuff as many marshmallows in his mouth

and he managed to stuff 10. hahaha.

End of day 1. =D

Day 2

We went for brunch at this nice high class mamak stall which had some pretty good food. Then we headed back to the apartment to change to hike to get to Pantai Kerachut where they say is really nice. Before we went hiking, we went to the Hard Rock Hotel. And damn, it was awesome. The pool everything was superb. Now, I know why it costs approximately RM700 a night. X_X.

The back of the hotel; the part facing the sea

I liked the symbols they used especially the female one.

A random shot of Victor on the beach behind Hard Rock Hotel

One part of the swimming pool.

Oh man. I never expected the hiking to be so hard when I first heard about it. and because I didn't expect it to be so hard, I packed a whole load of stuff. =_='. Because I packed so much damn stuff, ~~I was so weighed down~~ that I couldn't keep up with the others and I was pretty out of breath. A lot of times, I felt like I wasn't breathing enough for my heart. Anyways, Jian Wei was nice enough to carry my bag until like the halfway point. THANKS SO MUCH JIAN WEI!! I really appreciate it. =) When we finally got there, oh man, nothing can describe the feeling of achievement. Cause by the time we reached the beach it was like 3-ish and it was scorching hot so sitting under the trees with the wind blowing was heaven until I decided to step onto the sand that wasn't protected by the shade of the trees. You should hear the screaming man. It really felt like stepping on hot stones. I had to wear shoes to run across the sand. Took a walk with Evelyn up and down the shoreline talking about different issues in our lives and all that. We hung around there till about 4. Cause the hike up was already so torturous, some of them had arranged for a boat to come pick us up.

The view from where I was sitting of Pantai Kerachut

The boat ride which cost RM10 was so worth it. We saw eagles' nest and eagles flying around the top of the trees. Then we saw a rock that looked like a crocodile and turtle. And then we saw a pair of eagles dating in their nest which was really cool. The whole ride was so awesome but I didn't take pictures. My bag with my phone was with Victor and I was sitting quite far from him and at the speed we were going, I didn't wanna be standing up. =P

Anyways, from there we went home to clean up for dinner. We went to Sunset Bistro at the Batu Feringghi beach to watch the sunset and have our dinner. The place was really nice and the food was pretty good. And the price was pretty reasonable, about the same price as food in Klang and Subang. After dinner we (Adrianna, Victor and I) walked on the beach and had some very funny conversations. XD We decided to hang out at the bar. I shared a Malibu Sprite with Adrianna and honestly it tasted like cough mixture. =S . We headed back home and hung out there. Adrianna, Victor and I had a very very epicly funny Uno and Big 2 (Cho Tai Ti) session. hahaha. That was an awesome session.

The view from Sunset Bistro

The bar of Sunset Bistro

Malibu Sprite

As the sun sets. =)

My baked beans and cheese jacket potato which was okay.

And that's what we pretty much did for the first 2 days.

Sorry its like so freaking long. I hoped you enjoyed reading and I'll post the second part hopefully sometime these few days but I'll only post the 2nd part if you guys had fun reading this first part. =) If you didn't like how long it was then I'll remove it and make a new post on something different. ;) So let me know in my cbox whether you want the second part. =D

Bye people!!

P/S : I'll continue to add colour, pictures and all that hopefully by tomorrow cause it 3am and I haven't had decent sleep in a few days and I know I need to sleep, no matter how tempted I am to stay up to watch another episode of Bones. :)

I knew it I was holding on to a wish.

I knew the truth.

But can you blame me for wishing?

To wish that I would one day have you again?

I'm listening to,

In Your Arms - The Maine

Penang in less than 24 hours!! =D

2010-06-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging from Evelyn's house cause I had some transport problem to go to the bus terminal tomorrow morning and she was awesome enough to let me stay in her house and follow her the next morning. Thank you Evelyn! =D

I'll be in Penang for the next 4 days so I'll blog when I'm back and rejuvenated. Don't miss me my fellow readers. ;)

Anyways, I can't remember what I wanted to blog about. =S

Well, I guess that's all?

Oh yeah. Now I remember what I wanted to say.

I want some feedback from you readers about my blog, so just drop a comment in my cbox to let me know what you think about my blog, what I should improve, what you like about it and whatever else. =D

See you guys in 4 days.

Take care peps. =) ~~Take care people in plain old English~~

P/S : I won't have a picture for this post cause I'm using Evelyn's laptop. Sorry people!! =(

I think I'm over you,

But somehow my thoughts

Keep drifting back to you.

You'll be leaving me soon,

And I just hope things will get better too.

I'm listening to

Evelyn's room fan spinning, her clock ticking and the sound of my fingers hitting the keyboard.

But a song that's running through my head is,

Chris Brown - Crawl.

I decided to mix it up abit as you can see. =P

Since I Have Nothing To Do.

2010-06-25T03:07:00.004+08:00

I'm trying to keep myself occupied to prevent myself from thinking too much. Yups.

So here I am blogging. Hmmm. Since Nat says that I'm lacking pictures. I'll upload one soon. It would most probably be unrelated to the post but nyeh. At least its a picture right?! XD. Whatever.

Anyways, today was pretty filled so I didn't think much. =D. An achievement some how cause I've been doing a lot of thinking which would lead to wishful thinking which would most probably make me get all happy just so reality can bite me in the butt and crush the wishful thinking. Nyeh.

Oh yeah. I joined the CPU Blog Committee. So I shall practice blogging in a semi-formal way. I cant have smileys and stuff like that and I can't promise that I won't but I'll have to try so yeah I'm trying.

Penang trip in 3 days!! Woot woot!! I'm super uberly excited. I should probably stop getting myself excited cause I so hate the feeling of getting so excited over something and it doesn't turn out like how it does in my head. Yups. So yeah..

That's pretty much about.

Take care people.

P/S : If you haven't notice, I like to put a short stanza of whatever's in my head, what I'm listening to in each post. And now, I'm trying to add some pictures to it. The amount of pictures that I edit or whatever is probably insufficient for the amount of posts I do, so just bear with me.

I think I'm finally getting over you,

but I feel guilty for it.

but if I keep holding on to you,

will just hurt me more.

I'm listening to

More Than a Love Song- Augustana

Credits to Leng Hue. =)

While Its Still Fresh

2010-06-23T00:19:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna blog about what happened today while its still fresh in my head.

As usual, today I went play touch football with my fellow CPU-ians and the Americans. Today's weather was good so it made playing more bearable.

Okay I shall try my best to remember my teammates names this time. Zach, Raz, Adrianna, Jun Han, Melvin, Kellie, Sneaky (I only know him by his nickname), Andrew, and Akil? I think that's pretty much who played on the team. Forgive my memory. I don't actually remember who's all my teammates cause we usually change them after a round or two so yeah.

Unlike the last time, I played around 2-3 rounds today!! =D Its good okay cause its tiring to keep running up and down the field, chasing after people and of course the ball. Really had a good workout today. I really sweat it out. So after some time, I skipped the round by accident actually. I was thirsty so went to get some water then I just forgot to go to back to the game. XD. Anyways, they found a replacement and so I just hung out and rested.

We finished pretty early this time.. About 6 plus. So there was still time before we were to meet the Americans for dinner and we filled it with playing "Pepsi Cola" and Ice and Water. Haha. "Pepsi Cola" was funny. XD. Ice and Water on the other hand was tiring!!! The first round was pretty okay. We didn't play with boundaries and just scrambled in every direction making the people who were Ice harder to win but they still did. Damn you Russell!! Run so damn fast!! XD

But the second round we had boundaries so it should've been better right.. WRONG!! It was horrible. Halfway through, most of us called for a timeout. All the people who became Ice, myself included, were like panting and out of breath. In the end, the round ended with all of us just resting ~~indefinitely~~. hahaha.

Some of the guys did continue playing touch while the rest of us just chilled and talked. Anyways, after that we met the Americans at FacetoFace Noodles. The food there was pretty good. Nothing much happened during dinner so not going to talk about it much. After that most of us went for Connections (I'm not sure how you spell it but yeah) which is this like Bible Study the Americans go for every Tuesday. It's pretty cool.

We played this game which was something like Taboo only without the list of words you couldn't say. It was pretty fun. Then we read from Exodus 1 and 2. And had an activity. We were to reenact the decree given by the Pharaoh to kill all baby boys up till how Moses was give his name. They did give us some props to helps us out and everything turned out so funny!! Hahaha. I should've recorded it... =( .. By the time everything ended, I had to head home. So Melvin was kind enough to send me all the way home. He was meeting up with them again but cause I had to get back early, he sent me all the way home and went back again.

So yeap. That was pretty much what I did today

My muscles are already starting to ache! Uh oh! and I have to go grocery shopping tomorrow!! HELP!! =S

Anyways, I hope this compensates for the absence before. =)

zorg voor mensen.. :) ~~Dutch for take care people~~

Just when I think I'm letting go,

It all comes back to me again.

How euphoric you made me feel,

How much I felt for you.

I'm listening to

Voice on the Radio - Marie Digby

In the dead of the night, you seep into my thoughts.

2010-06-22T01:13:00.003+08:00

Slow, emo music seriously doesn't help in moving on. nyeh. who cares.

Anyways, I promised that I would blog about what that happened with me the last week so I'll just give you the highlights.

On Tuesday, I went for touch football with my fellow course mates and the Americans. Played on an empty stomach. Not a good idea. Anyways, I only played one game cause it was so hot and being so long in the sun made me giddy. Sat around talking to Evelyn, Natasha, Leng Hue, Ad and May. Laughed alot at Ad and May's fondness for grass.. Ginseng, wheatgrass, herbal soup.. hahahahahaha. Oh man. That was funny. So instead of playing, we had a really fun photoshoot of jumpshots. =)

Friday I went for the graduation ceremony for the Graduating Class of June 2010 of the Canadian Pre-U. It was an experience to see a whole bunch of my friends graduating. The speech by the valedictorian, Koay Keat Yang was inspirational and touching. As I was recording, the battery was going low and I didn't wanna finish up the battery cause I wanted to take pictures with my friends afterwards, so I could only take 9 minutes of his speech with my camera and the remaining with my phone, which the quality of video recording isn't too good, so yeah. =\

Saturday. My church has this event called Parents Night every year to kinda appreciate all the parents in church. So I went in the morning and came back at about 11.30pm. So yeah. Whole day out. Very tiring but fun. Everyone had fun especially the parents. Our theme was Ready, Set, Go or in other words, a sports theme. Most of the parents were sporting enough to come in different sports attire. Overall, it was a really fun time for everyone. =D

On Sunday, my family went to visit my brother cause he wasn't coming back for the weekend. And my dad likes to take these little trips so we did. We picked my brother up from his house, went for lunch at this place called something Sister Yong Tau Foo or something of that sort. It was packed!! But the food was awesome. Especially this thing called "Chicken Wrapped in Paper". I have no idea how its done but it was really delicious. Yuummm!! The other stuff were pretty good too except for the excess oil every dish had. eikk.. =S

So that was pretty much about what happened in my week. =)

Oh yeah. And my room is pretty cleaned up now. I have about 20-30% of my room left to clear!! =D. I just hope it can stay clean throughout the year. :P

prendre soin. :) ~~Its French for take care.~~

P/S: As you can see people, I've gotten lazy with editing my post. haha. I'll try doing it when I'm not lazy. XD

I'm listening to

We'll be a Dream - We the Kings and Demi Lovato

The Silence

2010-06-21T05:44:00.003+08:00

Would you leave things unsaid if it meant that you would still be friends

Would you say all that you want to but things get complicated?

Okay. I did write a post a couple of days ago and yeah it couldn't save and I didn't notice so when I pressed publish post half the post was gone and being the holiday me, I just couldn't bother with rewriting everything so instead I just left it as a draft and here I am now, writing a new one. =)

Sorry if I don't post as often as I should seeing as I'm on holidays but I just don't have the inspiration and mood to blog. Hey, having inspiration and mood to blog makes my post more me. Without it, it would just sound NOT me. XD

Anyways, I had a pretty eventful week. So, I won't complain. A lot of my friends are kinda sick of holidays where as I'm only starting mine. =D Soon, holidays will be over and I'll be back with my second semester. Not too looking forward to it. =X

I hope I'll be in the mood to post another one tomorrow about what happened in my week so yeah. Let's just hope okay! haha.

P/S : I'm running out of ideas on what to blog about, so if you have some let me know and I'll try to blog about it. No promises that I will though. =)

I'm listening to

Angels - Augustana

PROM PROM PROM!

2010-06-14T18:19:00.003+08:00

Fuhh!! Yesterday (I was lazy to post this yesterday so yesterday in sense is Sunday) was the CPU Prom and all I've gotta say about it is that it was FREAKING AWESOME!!! You have no idea how awesome!!

It got off to a slow kinda boring start but after the food, things started to pick up and got exciting. It just kept getting better and better from there on. Once the dance floor was opened, fuh. This is what CPU people are about. We know how to study hard and play hard. =D

Evelyn and I stayed over at Leng Hue's house the night before the prom and went to get our hair and make-up done at APT somewhere in puchong. We finished sorta early so we took our time getting ready. Evelyn's dad picked us up at 6 and we went to pick Natasha up and went to prom from there. Met up with the whole gang there. Oh yeah. And because I slept over in Leng Hue's house, I had packed everything to last me till after prom except the most important thing, my prom ticket. =_='! I felt so dumb at that moment! I totally forgot about my prom ticket till Evelyn asked me in Leng Hue's house. T_T moment! Anyways, my friend helped me out and totally saved my life. Thanks Magen!!! =)

The emcee of the night was good. A very comical guy and kept the crowd going. ;) . I especially liked him at the ending during the open floor. Move 1. The hairwash. 2. The migraine 3. The lost-in-the-woods. I really cracked up. I only managed to record the last move.

All in all, the night was a very awesome enjoyable night. A very awesome job, Prom Committee. ;D

After prom, we headed to Brussels in Jaya 1. Jian Yung drove us there in typical guy style, if you get what I mean. XD. When we arrived the kitchen was already closed and it was the last order. So potong. Felt like drinking something comforting so I drank Hot Chocolate, which wasn't too bad.

Went back to Evelyn's house at around 3am. By the time we hit the bed it was like 4.30am. Got up at 9.30am the next day. Definitely not enough sleep. I took the train back home, reached at 11.15am? and hit the bed again till 5.30pm. hahahaha.

Memories no matter how insignificant will one day seem like the most precious. =)

P/S : I'll add some colour later.

I'm sorry things turned out like this,

I never wanted this.

I always wanted you in my life.

But I guess at this moment, its not possible.

Just know that I'm sorry.

I hope you read it.

Cause it'll be last you'll hear of me,

Before you start your new life.

I'm listening to

It Is What It is - Lifehouse

It's Done!! =D

2010-06-10T12:45:00.003+08:00

Finals are finally done! Yay!!! =D

Holidays are here! No more waking up at 6 am! *extra happy smiley*

Okay I should have a checklist of what I want to get done by this holidays.
I might either re-edit this later with the list or I might put it on the column at the side so look out for it if you wanna know what I'm planning for my holidays. hahaha. and I think I would be doing the latter. XD

The next thing coming up is PROM!! woot woot!

Hmmm. Its bittersweet finishing the semester. I'm gonna miss so many of my friends. =(
But I guess life has to go on right? Can it just hold on for a little while so I can hang on to the memories just that one moment? Well, a girl can wish right? =)

I know a lot of you are asking why I still ~~in love?~~ hanging on, well I just can't answer you. No matter how much of a jerk he has been, I still find myself going back to him everytime. Maybe I just don't want to let go of the person I first fell in love with. Okay, everyone has said that he did change and I've noticed and I don't know. I guess when he leaves it would be easier? I'm hoping it will be.

Its the end now,
I don't know when
or whether I'll see you again,
But thanks for all the memories!
=)

I'm listening to
I Never Told You- Colbie Cailat

Monday Blues..

2010-06-07T15:43:00.003+08:00

Well, I'm blogging cause I'm stuck in college waiting for my sister to come pick me up.

Anyways, just finished my Data exam. Left one question blank, one answer most probably wrong, one whole section very uncertain. Arrgghhh. My exams seem to get worse and worse.

I'm having Individuals on Thursday and its definitely not a paper I'm looking forward to because I seem to always be struggling. Its like I'm barely able to keep my marks above 85%.

My goal of getting at least an 85% in everything seems to be getting harder to reach!! =(

Today at the end of the Data exam, this guy who was sitting near me was trying to finish up his subjective paper but the teacher was like pulling it away and so he went on to trying to shade in the answer for the objective section and the teacher and him were sorta having a small tug-of-war before the teacher pulled it away. He was like begging the teacher to let him shade it in, but he was like "I'm sorry, I really have to take it". And seriously, the whole scenario looked so sad and pitiful. awwww.

So I guess that's pretty much about it. =)

Chao people!!

Walking the empty halls,

Every turn I take,

Reminds me of us,

Of what we were,

And of what we've become.

The hurt, the loss, the pain.

I'm listening to

Halfway Gone - Lifehouse

No Matter What, The Memories Stay With Us.

2010-06-04T16:33:00.003+08:00

Unless you have dementia or memory loss. hahahah. Okay that was random.

Anyways, yesterday was the last day for some of the CPU-ians. =( Loads of friends graduating, even him, 2 weeks from now. ='(

I'm really gonna miss all of them; Adrianna Jane, Imran, Kana, Cecelia, Grace, and a whole loads of other people. Don't forget to come back to visit us okay guys and girls!! =)

Well, today finals started. Not off to a good start. I couldn't finish my essay in time. And that whole part was like 44 marks.. The part with the most marks and I screwed it up. Damnit la!! ARRGGHHHH!! EMO!!! ='[

On a totally random note, yearbooks were out today!! Yay! And I actually look good. =D I got my poem published too but I totally forgot to put a title so they named it Untitled. So potong! ishh.. whatever la it still got published.. =D

Why won't you talk to me?

Or pick up my calls?

You just left me in the dark,

Not knowing what I did wrong.

When everyone asks me why I can't let go,

Its cause I can't.

Dare I say it?

I may be in love.

Over and over you break my heart,

and yet, I still won't let go.

is something wrong with me?

or is it cause I'm not me?

~~Just please keep me in your life. I can't stand not being in it. I can't stand what we've become.~~ ~~I just want us to be what we were. Anything but this. Please!~~

I'm listening to

In This Song - Charice

I'm Taking It One Step At A Time.

2010-06-02T00:04:00.002+08:00

Thanks everyone for cheering me up and asking how I've been and all.

Today, I'm feeling better. It might be due to the lack of sleep or the fact that I just finished the last ISU of this semester but at least I'm feeling better right?

The day started okay. Peaked during Data and flat-lined during lunch all the way till I was back home where it peaked again.

Honestly, it hurt during lunch. I could feel myself hyper-ventilating and needing to get out of there. It comes and goes so I'm trying my best to keep it in check.

I wrote a Facebook message to him today, yes, I know not the most ideal way to send a message. I actually wanted to tell him face-to-face but well, there wasn't any chance so I guess, that was the best way.

Well, I just hope things go back to normal tomorrow or at least try to go back to normal cause that's just what I need right now. Normal.

And I proved to myself and everyone else that I CAN handle a relationship AND my studies cause guess what? Okay, I'm not gloating or anything but I got 96% for my Data test that was yesterday. Going through the heartbreak and absolutely no motivation to study, I still scored a 96%. Honestly, I was quite surprised myself. I really thought I did badly cause I felt so unprepared for it.

Next up, we'll see my phase 5. If I score badly in that it means, I can't handle it. Well, we'll see how it goes.

Sometimes we gotta take one step at a time, one day at a time.

I'm listening to

I Did It For You - Charice and Drew Ryan Scott

Can It Hurt Anymore? Apparently it can.

2010-05-31T15:08:00.002+08:00

There's no way of describing the pain of getting your heart broken. Not only did it get broken, it was smashed into microscopic pieces. So many times, it felt like I couldn't go on. Isn't that what you want?

You asked me why I got so emotionally involved when we agreed to go with the flow. This is MY flow. How do I not get emotionally involved. I'm not stone-hearted okay.

I need you to show me that you feel something. Anything.

I'm frustrated, tired, hurt, angry, heartbroken and whatever else you could feel. You just keep adding salt to my wounds. How do I heal when you keep doing that?

It was not my decision, it was yours. You're leaving, not me. You're not coming, and I'm there alone. And yet, I'm hurting more than you.

Just leave me alone...

Gives Me Hope

2010-05-29T03:02:00.004+08:00

I know I should be doing my phase 5 right now but I'm in no mood right now. You wouldn't be either if you in my position.

I've actually been seeing this website all over Facebook but never really bothered to read it till I saw it on Jess' blog and well now I'm addicted.

Some of the stories that are so touching and inspirational.

So much so that I felt like I should write some of my own. =)

I posted the first one on facebook but I'll just repost it here.

1. Being so hurt and heartbroken for the first time. My friends were there to pick me up, put back the pieces and cheer me up so I could keep going. My friends are what Gives Me Hope. =)

2. Feeling so lost, alone and hurt, I asked God to help me. He did. He sent me friends who showed me how much they care for me. He showed me His love and comfort through my friends. His care for me Gives Me Hope. =')

3. Whenever I was sad, I would to go to my dog and pet her. And every time I did, she came closer and pawed me, which in a way made me feel like she was saying, "Are you okay? I'm always here for you." And when I stopped, she would look at me with the most understanding eyes telling me that whatever it is, I would be okay. She gives me hope. ;)

4. I was trying so hard to hide my feelings when my sister called. Within 10 seconds of the call, she knew something wasn't right. She came to comfort me and listened to me though she knew in her heart and mind that I was going to go through those feelings. My comforting and understanding sister, gives me hope.

I now feel so grateful for all the things I have, for the people I've met and have and for the things they've done for me.

Life may be a huge obstacle but you forget that sometimes with the people cheering you on, you can face anything.

Life's Too Short To Be Anything.. But Happy.

2010-05-28T21:12:00.003+08:00

I found this really awesome picture on this website, Happy Things.

It sorta inspired me. Why waste time getting angry at something that is out of your control? Leave it be because all its gonna do is ruin your day. =)

So be happy when everyone else isn't. ;)

I'm listening to

the sound of my fan and the other random sounds in the background.

It Changed Everything.

2010-05-27T20:11:00.004+08:00

Honestly, today started out shitty. I got like a 76% on my major project. It may sound like a lot but it isn't. And the thing is it was a really major part of my project. I felt so disappointed in myself and I think my lecturer did too. Definitely not my standard of work.

Things didn't get better from there. I got story after story of some conflict between my friends and I just don't like conflict happening between anyone especially my close friends. And now trust has become an issue between some of them. something that doesn't make things any better.

Stayed back for touch football (american football) with the CPU-ians. I actually didn't know I was playing. I only found out that morning and guess what? I didn't bring shorts so I played in my jeans. yes, I did look like a retard but after awhile I just didn't care. I wanted to have fun. Before I started the game, I was very angry cause he ditched me. Literally. I was waiting for his call of whether he's going and he didn't call nor show up. So I gave up and my friends told me to cool down and just enjoy the game.

The game, well, it was really difficult for everyone to sorta get what to do. Andrew seemed like the only one who knew what to do, so I guess its pretty frustrating for him cause 15 people were doing what they thought was the way to play the game. While we ~~trying~~ to play, a group of Americans came up and asked talked to Andrew. They had some meeting to attend and said they'll join us after and they did. A whole BIG group of them. All in all, there were about 30-40 people. We split into 4 groups and took turns playing.

Most of them were guys and so it was hard to remember their name. I remembered my teammates though. Oh man, I just realized I didn't take a group picture with them. =( Anyways, their names were Eric, Adam, Kate and errr... errr.. crap.. I forgot his name. Oppss.. SORRY!! =S. Bryan, Mark, Keat Yang, who are from CPU and I can't remember who else. Anyways, I think we played a pretty awesome game. GO TEAM AWESOME! =D.

While resting, I got to know the two other American girls, who were Courtney and Hannah. These people were awesome! I wished I took more pictures though. =( We sat around and talked. They're from North Carolina on their summer break. They said they'll be here for a couple of weeks so the guys exchanged phone numbers while the girls exchanged emails. We definitely should play another game with them after our finals. After they went back, we just hung around for awhile and Evelyn, Natasha and I started carrying each other from behind and like playing a fool. Man, that was sooo fun.

And I just realized that finals are NEXT WEEK!!! =S!!!!!! I've not even started studying.. eiiiikkkkkk!!! I'm so dead. But whatever. Nothing's gonna ruin my day now. I'm still high from the adrenaline and pure awesome fun from the game. =D

From left : Natasha, Kate, Courtney, Hannah, Evelyn and I. =)

P/S : I just realized I haven't been putting the I'm listening to thing at the bottom of my post for the last few posts. So sorry!! =)

I'm listening to

Airplanes by B.o.B. feat Hayley Williams from Paramore

If I Wanted, Would You Leave Me Alone.

2010-05-24T21:02:00.002+08:00

This week has been a very stressful week. Wait. Stressful can't even cut it. Its been a I-think-I-would-drop-dead week. Being sick does not make anything better.

Cause finals are coming, lecturers are rushing to finish everything in time.

I'm so glad English is done with cause I handed in my research log today. Sorry Mr. James, I know its 2 weeks overdue.

The most stressful part of Data should be done with by tomorrow. And thank you Mr. Chai for postponing the test to next week!!! You have seriously just saved my life.

Individuals on the other hand. Yeah not so good. I have to get started on it ASAP, in order for me to show him my rough draft of Phase 5 so I can amend it and like score higher. Grrrr. And I also have a "quest" tomorrow. A "quest" is a combination of a quiz and a test which still carries a weight-age of 3!!! T-H-R-E-E!!! ARRRGHHH!!! Someone kill me now.

I've gotta do some stuff now. I'll come back to re-edit this post sometime when I'm freer. Sorry people! =S.

Take cares!!

The Way We Roll

2010-05-21T21:22:00.003+08:00

For Victor's birthday, the awesome foursome plus the other one (Fish), took him to BBQ Plaza in Sunway Pyramid. We initially wanted to go to Lakeside Campus there to chill, since everyone's saying that its a cool place to hang out and take pictures, a other reason why we avid cam-whorers wanted to go, but it was raining so hard that we decided to go to Sunway instead. We didn't take a lot of pictures but those that we took are in Facebook. I'm too lazy to upload it here. XD.

Oh yeah, before that, the awesome foursome bought him a Secret Recipe Oreo Cheese slice of cake but only celebrated after class cause by the time Nat and I had come back from getting the cake the presentations already started.

That's pretty much about what we did for his birthday!

I really hope you enjoyed it Victor! =)

P/S : I'm down with a very bad sore throat. How bad you may ask? Its so bad that I can't even shallow without feeling painful and I sorta lost my voice. It seems to be better now that I had some warm soup for lunch. Still as painful and swollen but more bearable. XD. I'll add more colour to the post later on. I'm just too lazy now. =P

___________________________________________________________________

I'll just make this a two in one post.

Anyways, as you can see from my P/S from above. I'm obviously having a sore throat. I went to have a nap when I came home cause everyone's saying like ohh, you're sick you must rest more. and so I did. and guess what? I felt even worse after the nap then I was before.

I woke up with a body ache and fever. Just as I woke up my mum came home so she took me to the doctor and even the doctor was surprised to see how bad my sore throat is/was. He was like, "Oh so bad until your voice also change ar?" and after checking my throat, he was still surprised at how swollen it was. XD

So he asked me to "forget about eating fried or spicy food" and gave me some meds.

From my P/S note above, I said that it was hard for me to shallow right. Its just weird but the doctor gave me some meds that are big. Like what the heck?!?! Shallowing my saliva hurts what more shallowing these pills. =_='.

Anyways, like Jess said. Its not the doctor that makes the meds. But couldn't he prescribe something not so big? XD

So yeah. That's pretty much about it.

P/S : awwww. He takes such good care of me and cares about me so much that it makes me feel all fuzzy on the inside. =) He proves to me over and over again why I love being with him. ;)

Happy Birthday Victor! =)

2010-05-21T14:24:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to my bestie, Victor Tan Shea Khai! I know his birthday was yesterday but I was lazy to blog yesterday. XD

So anyways, this guy has finally turned 18 and legal! This dude is so awesome I tell you. He's always there for me listening to me rant and crap, and doing it oh so patiently. =D He's just an awesome dude that just got his braces off and is now stuck with retainers! hahahaha!

Both of us, well, we insult and make fun of each other so much that we seem to be immune to each other's insults. hahaha. Oh and if it wasn't cause of him, I wouldn't have met HIM and you "betrayed him" to tell me. heheheheh. weeee. =D.

Thanks for everything Victor! =)

All the best dude. I hope you going to NZ next year doesn't change anything. ;)

For You My People! =)

2010-05-19T09:39:00.002+08:00

Okay la. I know I've been posting some really emo posts and stuff so I'll post something happy today cause some awesome people cheered me up before I went to bed last night. =)

For those of you who don't already know, I'll like to tell you that I have such awesome, supportive friends! Not to mention great listeners.

If you took everything away from me but my friends and my family, I'll still be happy. =D

They totally made me laugh my heart and lungs out yesterday. Though we see each other everyday, Skyping with them is AWESOME!!! A-W-E-S-O-M-E! I tell you.

And I would have let my blog slowly die till I have the mood to revive it again, if it wasn't for Sio Leng Hue who makes me update my blog. ;) So people who like reading my blog, you should thank her! =)

P/S : I've been having the most unhealthy breakfast's ever for the past couple of days. Corntoz, nips, twisties, bika, and other snacks does not, I repeat DOES NOT help ~~in getting ready for prom~~. =_=!

What If's

2010-05-12T09:42:00.003+08:00

Tell me what to feel, cause I'm lost.

I'm happy cause, I finally know, you're coming to prom and you're my best friend.

I'm confused cause, you're leaving way too soon, your status' are making me feel so insecure and I'm afraid to get hurt.

All I need from you is that reassurance that if I give you my heart, that you won't break it.

I want to talk to you about all my doubts so that if I do get my heart broken, I have time to heal before my finals though I may never get over it.

Losing you is a double blow because you're my best friend and above it all, that comes first.

So tell me, what should I do? or what should I feel?

*Edit : They say falling in love is always a risk. Wish me luck people cause I'm going for it. This afternoon's talk with him made me fall in love with him again and again. He turned out to be so much more than I expected. And I never knew that he had feelings for me for so long. =)

Its Just Lagging

2010-05-09T00:47:00.002+08:00

My computer is lagging so badly right now. I need to reformat it soon. =S

I had an awesome day today. I spent some time with my brother at the Digital Mall where I went a little crazy and bought some pretty cool stuff. =D . Hmmm. I just realized that I haven't spent time with my bro in a long while. Awww. I miss laughing my lungs out. =P.

Anyways, my trip to the Digital Mall in PJ ended up with me buying a laptop skin, a laptop cover/bag-like-thing, an external hard drive (that looks hideous but so worth the money) and completely and almost utterly broke.

Now, I know how my friend could spend almost RM1500 on electronics in one go. XD

I should be asleep or doing my ISU essay, research log or Phase 4 but screw it. My mind's not here so I can't even concentrate. Whatever la.

The hardest thing in the world,

Is knowing that the person you love,

Is in love with another person.

But what hurts even more,

is that other person is your friend.

Listening to :

Boyce Avenue - Every breath

Right In Front of You.

2010-05-05T14:30:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling extra sleepy today. It might have to do with the fact that its a Wednesday today. =P

And I just realized something. Shoot. I forgot what it was. =_='. Oh wait. Now I remember. I just realized that I haven't gone back at 4 from college for quite a few days now. XD

I'm supposed to be doing my English ISU essay now cause I might be going out on Sunday and my presentation is on Friday. ish. And I have a Hamlet test tomorrow but I'm still blogging.

And if you wanted to know, the Hamlet video that we've been doing for the past few days turned out awesomely. The bloopers was FUNNY!! I blushed quite badly during that video. So much so that after English, one of my friends was like, "Whoa. Why are you so red?". XD. hahaha.

I have my Data group project to figure out. I was 'smart' enough to change the game. =_='. Why do I kill myself like this? Dumbness.

Oh. Talking about dumbness. I've been feeling very dumb recently. I can't remember specific events but I remember feeling like a dumb blonde after.

Anyways, that's all for now. Take care dudes and dudettes. =)

The answer is right there,

If you look hard and stare.

All you've gotta do is open your eyes,

You'll see past its disguise.

Listening to :

Boyce Avenue - Dare to believe

Crash Into Me

2010-05-04T22:18:00.002+08:00

My friends are so awesome to hang out with. I could hang out with them the whole day doing nothing but just chilling. Sometimes I wish I could freeze that moment and stay in it till I'm ready to move on.

8 months from now, we'll all be going everywhere around the world, literally. No matter how much I want to say things will be the same, its not going to be true. I know I'm being all pessimistic and stuff so I'm sorry la. Thinking about this kinda things are making me sad so its making me write sad posts. XD. It might also have to do the fact that I'm listening to slow songs. hahaha. =P

Since I haven't done much interactive posts, I'm gonna try it this time. Tell me people, how are you? and how has life been treating you? You don't have to elaborate your answers if you don't wanna. =)

So just drop me your answer in my cbox and I'll know whether to keep doing that or to just do what I always do. ;)

Anyways, that's all for now.

Oh wait, guess what people?!?!?!? I passed my driving test yesterday!! someone go wooooo!!!

woooooo!!! =D.

I just have to wait for my P license to come and I can be an official driver. don't hold your breath of seeing me drive or me driving you around cause I doubt my parents will ever trust my driving skills till at least the next 6-8 months. XD

P/S : If you haven't noticed, I'm addicted to Boyce Avenue now. THEY ARE AWESOME I TELL YOU! =D.

You were the last person,

I thought I would ever fall for.

I can't stand the things you do sometimes,

But its cause of that,

that I fall even harder.

Listening to :

Boyce Avenue- On my way.

The stars will remain

2010-05-01T15:18:00.012+08:00

Sorry I haven't been updating my blog recently, I've been superly uberly busy. Assignments after assignments after assignments. Yeah, you know how ~~college~~ life is.

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Time really flies. I can't believe that its already May and I only have like 2 more months before the semester ends and my 2nd sem and 3rd sem friends are graduating in June and off to uni! ='(

NOOO!!! Now that all the 1st sem student have started to get use to college life, its actually quite hard to know who's in what sem which is a good thing. There isn't like this class system where the 2nd or 3rd sem students thinking they're greater than us or anything like that. Everyone's so integrated. That's one reason I love my course. =D

Anyways, I was thinking about some stuff a couple of days back and I realized that I have an awesome group of friends in college. Therefore, I will dedicate this post to them. If you're not mentioned don't be jealous, I still love you just as much. =)

And I'm not like putting you guys in any order so don't get angry k! =)

First up on the list is Sio Leng Hue. MY GOSH HOW TO DESCRIBE THIS GIRL!! XD Hmmm. Well,

She's such a positive person, that you feel guilty being down around her. haha.
She's such a cute girl!
An awesome photographer and photo editer.
Her blurness is sometimes funny. =P
She's a great listening ear.

There's so much more about her that I could say, but I should stop there. Later, the others might get jealous. Nah, just joking. ;)

Next up on the list is, Natasha Falina.

A tall sexay girl. =)
Very random sometimes.
The simple things she says are sometimes so funny that you just can't stop laughing
A straight-forward person. Its a good thing because honesty is sometimes quite refreshing. =)
An all out music fanatic. ;)

Next is, Evelyn Quek Hui Jiun.

A sweet sweet girl. She's so sweet, she just might give you diabetes. XD
Values friendship a whole lot.
A pretty, good-sense of style gal.
And she's smart too. 8-)
An avid cam-whorer, that I sometimes like to barge in on. =P

Not forgetting Adrianna Jane.

She's laughs at how I sometimes smile at her, which makes me feel like laughing too.
Simple but yet stylish kinda girl. =)
Sociable
The most patient person I've known thus far.
Fun

Now on to the guys.

First up is, Victor Tan Shea Khai,

*Victor's the one on the right, with the braces and specs. =P

He puts up with my crazy, moody, random self. XD
He's honest
He gets ulcers AFTER he removes his braces. weird fella. =P
Enjoys taking Leng Hue's camera to take really non-sense pictures
A great listening ear and friend in general
Oh, and he's a lefty and my lunch buddy. hahaha.

Last but not least, "Fish" Wong Minzhi

His name isn't Fish, but its still fun calling him that. =P
Goes all high when he has too much sugar but never seems to crash.
Is wayyy too thin. XD
Fun to hang out with, and make fun off. =P
A fun person to talk to cause he'll not only listen but tell you his stories too. =)
My other lunch buddy. =D

And thus people, these are the awesome people I surround myself with every weekday. Adrianna and Fish are graduating this June. =( So I'm pretty bummed out bout that. Awwww. I'm really gonna miss them. Just when I've made really awesome friends, I'm gonna lose them soon. =(

I hope I'll stay friends with them though. =). So I'm gonna wish them all the best with Uni!

Break a leg people. Not literally cause I know that Fish is capable of doing that unintentionally. XD.

I heart YOU PEOPLE! =)

P/S : I'm gonna be busy these couple of weeks so I might not be able to update my blog as much as I would like, so wait for me yeah. =) My driving exam's on Monday! eeeikkk.. =S. The musical, A Night On Broadway, performed and organized by the Pre-University lecturers and students was AWESOME!!! There were one or two songs I didn't personally like but that was overshadowed by the ones that I DID like. *applause* Great job to all those who were involved. =D

Listening to:

Boyce Avenue- Find Me

Hairspray - You Can't Stop the Beat

Lazy lazy lazy

2010-04-25T21:56:00.002+08:00

I need to start doing my work.

I have 2 major assignments to hand in this week and 1 test

And I'm still doing nothing. X_X

I guess I'm just not use to having so few holidays.

Because of my driving lessons, my weekends are filled.

Today, I went to register for my driving exam, not knowing that I was actually suppose to do my QTI, which is a test before the exam. Key word, suppose So lame wei!! I went there, waited for 2 hours, put my thumb print into the computer, went to sit down, waited 30 mins just to thumb print out.

I didn't even sit for the test.

And I actually mentally prepared for it. XD

Kinda worried now cause I was hoping to use the test as a guide.

I just hope that I don't fail my exam next week.

Wish me luck people. =S

I need to do my work!!

But I just don't have the mood. =(

There's a first for everything.

2010-04-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

I think this is the first time I'm preparing so early for a prom. Even when I was an organizer for RC Prom Night in 2008, I don't think I've started thinking about what I want to wear, how my hair's gonna be and all those things.

Prom is like a little less than 2 months away and I'm already thinking about it. XD.

FLOP FLOP! XD. Sorry I was being very random there.

So anyways, going back to the topic, since its almost 2 months away. I'm trying to get into shape for prom. key word, TRYING. XD. Natasha lent me her Seventeen magazine on like prom dresses and tips on how to get into shape and prep for prom. I'm finding it very informative. hahaha. =D.

And Evelyn, Leng Hue and I are planning to go dress shopping together sometime soon I guess. So, I'm half looking forward cause I'll get my friends' opinions and it would be fun.=D. and half NOT looking forward to it cause I hate when I fnd really nice dresses but can't fit into them which makes me feel ~~insecure~~. So yeah.

I guess that's what I pretty much wanted to blog about.

Haven't really had the mood or stuff to blog about so forgive me if I don't update it as often as I normally do.

P/S : never ask questions for which you're not prepared for the answer. I can't never seem to go to bed before 11.30 no matter how tired I am. And I'm getting more forgetful these day. I opened Google, changed the tab to facebook then went back to Google and totally forgot what I wanted to search for. =_='. Those are very frustrating moments.

Insecurity

2010-04-20T09:34:00.006+08:00

Crap la!!! I'm feeling so super fat right now. I can't sit down without feeling the fats spill out. isshhh!! Today must go home and do some sit-ups. XD.

And my parents weren't making anything better. =_='. I was sitting in the living room using the laptop yesterday and my dad was like "Ayoo.. Look at her arm. Its so big." LIKE HELLO!!!! I'm right there you know. I can hear what you're saying.

I just don't get my parents sometimes (my dad in particular). When I wear tight clothes (his definition of girly clothes), he says I look bulky (in other words, fat) then when I wear loose clothes (his definition of guys clothes), he says I look like so sloppy and guyish. =_='. There's never pleasing him is there. Haih. Whatever laa..

I should really start consistenly exercising la. Yes I know its my fault that I'm feeling fat. but you can't blame me for not wanting to do anything after a long tiring day can you?? No, no you cant. =P

Yeah I guess I just wanted to blog about that. XD

Oh yeah, people. Sorry if I seem moody these past few days. I haven't been getting enough sleep. So here is an equation to describ me. Insufficient sleep + Hungry = easily irritable and/or moody. So just put up with me okay people. =)

And I've changed my blog skin, as you can see, so gimme your comments on it yea. =D

P/S : Guys are so obssessed about having girls who are hot, sexy, etc. doesn't make things better for people who feel like me. Do guys EVER just see beyond that anymore? =( .

1000 viewss. =D

2010-04-19T22:21:00.002+08:00

Leng Hue & I
Originally uploaded by elaina24

Yay! I've reached 1000 views!! =D!

Thank you people for all your views.. =) Honestly, I'm relieved cause at least I know that people are actually reading my blog. XD

Thank you so much for reading my blog and giving me your comments people!! I've appreciated all your comments!! =)

Take care you awesome people.. <3

Pssst: Thank you Leng Hue for sharing with me how you edit your so awesome pictures! =). LOVE YOU GIRL!! :D

I ran out of ideas

2010-04-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

You picked at it,
Had your fun with it,
And just left it there,
To pick up the pieces.

Then you come back,
and try to start it all over again.
This time, its not gonna happen.

As the title suggests, I have run out of ideas of what to blog about and that I'm having fun with the strikethrough. It makes is so fun like I wrote that as an idea and decided to scrape it. XD.

So nothing worth blogging about happened so far this week.

Oh, we did plan a surprise birthday celebration for Adrianna Jane on her birthday yesterday. Funniest moment of that day was while getting ready to surprise her, Leng Hue suddenly said "Hey, did anyone see her today?". Hui Jiun, Natasha, Leng Hue and I looked at each other with the same "oh crap!!" expression. And thank God for phones la. We asked Nat to buat some excuse to know whether she's coming to class or not. And the surprise turned out awesome! Adrianna was really, genuinely surprised till she was practically speechless. =). Awww. <3!!

Yeah that was pretty much about the most interesting thing that happen in my week.

Oh. I did go play pool with the guys on Monday and came to the conclusion that pool is NOT my thing. There were a couple of times where my ball jumped unintentionally and once where the ball actually flew off the table. XD. I couldn't even break the balls. Kept missing the cue ball. Embarrassing sial. =P

Yup, that's pretty much my week.

P/S : Helping a friend who really needs help is self-satisfactory people. Go help people in need. =)

Just Let Me Know

2010-04-10T22:56:00.003+08:00

I don't get it.

It wasn't a big deal.

I should be the one hurt, not you.

I'm just so ~~irritated~~ by how you're acting. At different points of our friendship you talked to me everyday and our conversations seemed almost endless. Now, its been like 2 weeks since it happened and you're not even saying hi. Shouldn't I be the cold one instead of you since I was the one who should feel hurt?

When I try to initiate conversation, you don't seem like you want to carry on the conversation. It might be just the way you are. But I don't get how sometimes we have so much to talk about and at times we having nothing. Its like we're drifting away and back to each other so often I can't tell what to feel. So just make up your mind of whether you want to stay in it or not and let me know cause I hate the feeling of not knowing whether you'll stick around.

The situation is so fragile, I feel like I'm walking on melting ice. Its like everytime we get close, I have to make sure I don't do anything to drive you away. Quite frankly I'm fed up of trying.

And I Thought It was Over.

2010-04-08T14:54:00.002+08:00

I thought the whole SPM thing was over but I guess it isn't. I'm having OSSLT tomorrow. What is OSSLT you might ask? Its an abbreviation for Ontario Secondary School Literary Test. Apparently its a grade 9 level and being in college means I'm grade 12. So it should be a piece of cake so why should I worry? Yeah, well here's the thing, if you don't pass, you can't graduate. ~~shitty~~ sucky right? So being the girl I am, I'm panicking. erggghhh. I hate this stupid feeling. Screw it man. ish.

On a totally different topic, I had the most guy-ish conversation EVER!!! I went to eat lunch with Fish (Min Zhi), Chip (Victor) and Said (Syed). We went to eat at MED near college and I have no idea how, but we went to the topic of gaming. Receiving the knowledge from my brother since I was small, I was able to actively participate in the conversation. XD. Ignore how formal I sound now. Practicing for OSSLT. =P. So anyways, we continued talking about guy stuff pretty much throughout lunch. Not making me feel like a guy enough, they were like "eh damn nice to talk to you la. If we talk to girls, they'll be like HUH?!?! but when we talk to you, you actually know what you're talking about" and "eh, one day we should take you go gaming la. You and us 3 guys."

Well that's the good part and the bad part of being like this.

Good, its easy to get along with guys and I like seeing their suprised reaction when I actually join in and know what they're talking about. Bad, cause I'm a GIRL! and its making things very hard for me to find a boyfriend when they see you as another of their guy friends. =_='. Well, at least I don't feel left out in conversations. XD.

P/S : I'm feeling so sleepy. I promised myself I won't take an afternoon nap so I'll be superly tired so I sleep and be "refreshed" for the OSSLT exam 2moro. But I don't think I can make it. X_X. I'm so screwed.

The Awesome Malacca Trip.

2010-04-05T09:11:00.004+08:00

I had one of the most awesomely freaking awesome times in Malacca last weekend with my CPU classmates and course mates. SOO FREAKING AWESOME MAN!!

The ~~bitch~~ almost spoilt my day before it even began. =_='. Anyways, when we checked into our apartment, the apartment was cleaned yet and like it was really disgusting. So we dumped our bags on the sofa, changed and went for lunch. After lunch we walked to A Famosa.

Oh yeah, just for you info, we stayed in the Makhota Hotel which is really far from town. It was some where near the beach so yeah Google Map it if you really wanna know. XD.

As soon as we walked out, it started drizzling. =_=. We pushed on and walked all the way to Mahkota Parade in the rain, and walked through Makhota Parade and stopped at the fountain that has a story as you go around it. Took some pictures there and continued to A Famosa where the rain started to drizzle a little harder.

Took some pictures at the Fort then went up and took some more there. And there the ~~bitch~~ ALMOST spoilt my mood AGAIN! After that came down and took some pictures again and realized a little too late that the everyone was taking a group picture. =( .

After that we walked to the Tortura 2 exhibition. The exhibition is about the torture instruments used in the medieval times. There were some quite gruesome things man. erghh. But very informative. We even asked each other, if we could and had to choose to the instruments that we're gonna be tortured with, which would we choose. =P.

After that Hui Jiun, Leng Hue, Natasha and I took the trishaw to Christ Church Melaka so we could walk to Jonker Street and when we reached there, the whole group was there and thus more pictures were taken. =P.

We followed them to the Menara Taming Seri after we made a pit stop a stall to wait for Adrianna to buy new slippers (what happened was she was crossing the road then suddenly her slipper snapped, so she walked barefooted until we found a shop selling slippers). By the time we went to the Menara thingy, the rest already sat for it and came down. So the 6 of us went on our own. It was an awesome view from the top. Honestly, it was slightly scary at first (due to my traumatic experience from the Space Shot in Genting. =S) The rest waited for us till we were done and some of them decided to go back to the hotel or to Makhota Parade.

We awesome foursome decided to kill our legs by walking back to Jonker Street. or something like that. We backtracked so much I forgot which time was when. XD

On the way there, we stopped by "The Ship" where we took some more pictures. Hehehe. Walked around the ship, making jokes, taking pictures then went on to the pier and took some more pictures there and walked to Jonker Street after.

Jonker Street was suppperly crowded. But I managed to get some awesome stuff. =D. We ate our dinner at the Famosa Chicken Rice Ball Restaurant. Walked some more till about 10.30? and by that time our legs were literally screaming for mercy. Whenever possible, we sat on anything we could sit on. So as I've said before, our hotel is really far from town and we couldn't even bare contemplating whether to walk back to our hotels so what did we do? we took the trishaw. =P. Not bad for RM10 per person.

He (the trishaw man) took us all the way from Jonker Street to our hotel, in style. As we were going back to the hotel, there were fireworks (for some event that was happening). A very awesome view. It wasn't those usual fireworks, these were really BIG ones.

When we reach the hotel, and were walking back to our apartment (which was like at right at the end of the hotel) Hui Jiun & Nat were the first to go all bezerk and hyper. They were running and jumping in the hallways and laughing away. The next to join them was Leng Hue before I got sucked into it too. XD. After our baths, we just hung around the apartment talking on our handphones to various people while Leng Hue fell alseep on the sofa. XD. I promised her I won't post the picture. But trust me its funny. =P.

I had to return my friend's PSP to him so we all went down to the lobby and hung around there until we all agreed that we were hungry and wanted a Maggi Cup. So we went to a club near our hotel where they had some food and bought it there. Saw some really drunk people doing really funny stuff. Anyways, took our Maggi back to the lobby to eat and sat there just hanging around with Syed and Farid. After that we went to sleep.

Started our day with breakfast and went back to the apartment to hang around and pack. After packing, we took some chairs and hung out at the balcony. It was just awesome. Awesome doesn't even cover it. The view was breathtaking, the warm breeze and the awesome people I enjoyed it with made it so indescribable.

We hung out there till it was time to go and that was pretty much the trip.

All in all, a very awesome trip!!! =D

We would definitely wanna go there again and are planning to go some where during the June holidays. Can't wait for that trip.

okay. I have to go already. Have to study for a Data quiz I have after this. =S. I actually dunno why I'm still blogging when I have to study. XD.

*EDIT : The quiz was relatively hard. X_X. I hope I don't score badly.*

Anyways, take care people!! C ya around. =)

I know! =(

2010-04-01T09:57:00.002+08:00

My conscience ain't doing me any good. =(. So while I was sitting down to eat my breakfast, I saw this relatively old uncle (about 50's maybe?) carrying like almost 8 bags of lab coats for our college out of the car and onto the walkway. I wanted to help him but I was eating already, so tak akan just leave my food and help him, so I decided to help him after I finished. So I just watched him transfer everything out of the car onto the sidewalk. He had to make like 4-5 trips. While I was eating, he transferred the other bags near the stairs. I really meant to help the uncle after I threw away my plastic and stuff, but by the time I was getting there, he was already going up the stairs with 2 heavy bags of lab coats. And when I left, he was on the second floor stairs.

Okay, I know I was supposed to help an old uncle but but I was scared to ask. I know that's not an excuse but those who know me, I don't exactly like asking strangers whether they need help. I know I should change that. The next time I see an uncle like that (excluding certain situations) I will help me.

I'm feeling superly guilty now. I'm SORRY OLD-UNCLE-CARRYING-HEAVY-LOADS-OF-LAB-COATS.

hmmmm. I wonder why my college is so cruel to not send the uncle help when he's already so old and already doing the lab coats for them. Fine, I admit I'm partly guilty in that also but I'll help next time. =)

OMGG!!!!

2010-03-31T09:34:00.004+08:00

I might sound like some nerd now but OMG!!!!!!!!!!! I got like 68 for my Individuals presentation. NOT GOOD!! NOT GOOD AT ALL!!!

When I first got it I was like O_O! I'm so screwed. If you remember me blogging about how well I thought it went, yeah well apparently it didn't go very well. Ish.

My partner was definitely pissed.

I had like a 96 on parent-teacher day which was before the presentations begun and in my mid-term marks, I got like 84!! a 12 mark drop!!!!

To tell you the truth, I was suprised at first but when I started reading his (my lecturer) comments, it kinda made sense. Now actually I don't mind. Suprisingly its not affecting me as much as I thought it would. Hmmm. Maybe its also cause I'm sick and possibly the college freaking cold air-con that's driving me to forget the marks. This might be good. Don't wanna let things like that bring me down. Learn from it and be better next time; like my mum always says.

Hahaha.

Anyways, yeah just wanted to blog about that. I might edit this later on when I have nothing to do. XD

P/S : I just remembered that I have a major test tomorrow. Its like weighted three means it carries alot of marks. X_X. Its like 3 thick chapters long. And when you're sick, you definitely don't have the mood to study and most "wonderful" news of all, my "mak cik" (not my aunt and its definitely not a person) came today. Even less mood to study. =(

Online Shopping!!

2010-03-30T12:37:00.003+08:00

Okay so for those of you who like online shopping, here's a website for you.

http://www.ultimatedrobe.blogspot.com/

It belongs to my brother's girlfriend so I'll guarantee you that its legit. =). Let me know if you're interested or you can go straight to her if you like.

The dresses there look really nice and I would buy them if only they came in my size. XD.

So have fun!! =D

2010-03-29T22:12:00.002+08:00

~~How do you put a title to these kinda things?~~

You know how some friends only look for you at their convenience? I've had enough with it. In this past week, I've had 3 friends who out of the blue messaged me and just like that, they disappeared. I take my friendships seriously. And there was once my friend and family asked me why I was still friends with a friend eventhough she treats me like shit. I can only say one thing; I value my friendship with someone. No matter how badly they treat me, up until a point. Aren't I allowed to run out of patience?

I just want everyone to stop thinking that you can talk to me when you WANT to and ignore me when you feel like it. I have feelings too you know!! When I message you or try to talk to you, you don't even reply.

I'm done trying. If you want me in your life, let me know.

First Day at The New Builiding.

2010-03-29T13:09:00.002+08:00

It is not very awesome. The ceiling looks like its carrying something so heavy that is puffs out and curves. hmmmm. How do I better describe that? The abestos sheets on the ceiling look like puffy waves. The computer lab is quite tiny. There are roughly 32 computers available for students to use. The classrooms aren't very big. Most of us have a class on each floor, meaning we have to climb the stairs/go down the stairs for each period. There is no cafeteria, (I have no idea where the library is) and thus no place to hang out. While my friends are having class, I don't know what to do. =S. And I really hope the bus driver remembers to stop here to pick some of us up or kantoi only, run like sakai trying to catch the bus. =S

But on the upside, we have our own building. Lifts. A vending machine. Windows (we didn't have windows in the old building). And toilets that are called relief points. hahahaha. I still find that interesting.

Yeah, so that's pretty much how everything is here in the ex-TBS building. Its called the Canadian Pre-University building now but let's just stick to TBS.

P/S : My clothes smell like Subway (I ate breakfast in Subway with Leng Hue today) and the smell is stuck to my jacket. =_='. And as I was typing this, it smelt like someone farted. =S

An Awesome Couple of Days.

2010-03-26T23:18:00.003+08:00

So I'll give you a breakdown of what interesting things happened to me this week.

Wednesday - I went out with Evelyn Quek Hui Jiun, Sio Leng Hue, Adrianna Jane, and Victor Tan. Unfortunately, Natasha Falina was sick with the rashes. =S. So the day started of with all of us being late except Victor. XD. Haha. I met up with him to go get presents for Leng Hue and Evelyn, I mean Hui Jiun. We got a stuff toy dog for Leng Hue, a phone keychain and necklace for Hui Jiun. After running almost everywhere to get their presents, we went to get cupcakes from Cup Cake Chic as birthday cakes. Victor and I lied to Leng Hue and Hui Jiun that we both were going to be late, and they actually believed us. Haha. After I finished speaking to Leng Hue, not to long after that Hui Jiun called Victor. I was on the verge of laughter and both Victor and I felt like convicts running from the police. =P. So we got everything done, met up at McD's then went to Pizza Hut for makan. We surprised both of them with the presents and cup cakes (well, technically only Leng Hue was surprised cause Hui Jiun already suspected and according to her, she can't be surprised. haha. We'll see!! XD) After that, we had a little photo session and proceeded to the Skating Rink where we met Adrianna Jane. =). Awesome skating session!! Everyone skated like a pro making me feel like some noob who doesn't wanna stray to far from the side. =_='. So anyways, after that we went back to the counters there and kinda hung around at the sofa's and well, camwhored some more. hehehehe. Leng Hue and her new DSLR camera snapping away our little session. ;) (Awesome shots by the way. =D). That was pretty much the day.

Thursday - Hung out with Kat and Justin in Berjaya Times Square. Where epic moment of the week had taken place.

Kat : Errr. Where is Times Square?
Lady : You are in Times Square.
Kat : Oh. And where's the Times Square thing *fingers going round and round in the air*
Me and Lady : Theme park.
Kat : Ahh yes!
Lady : Oh. Its on the fifth floor near McDs.
Kat : Okay. Thank you.

So yeah. We went to the Cosmo Theme Park and being crazy enough to follow Kat, she led us to one of the scariest rides. The one that does the whole rocking boat thing and does the whole 360 turn (if you get what I mean. I don't know what you call those kinda rides). Then next was the thingy that goes round and round really fast. It was sorta scary at first then it ended up being really fun. Went on to bumper cars, arcade games, and this thingy that looks like some kiddy ride but turns out to be you going round and round so fast you're literally pushed to one side. (I pity Kat and Justin. Kat was being crushed by Justin and Justin was practically hanging on to the side railing for Kat's dear life. hahah. It was a funny sight to see.) Yeah well, that ride kinda spoilt it all for us. We came of the ride dizzy and neck aches. We couldn't ride the roller coaster or I think we would have all puked. So we went back to the bumper cars where we bumped Kat so much that she was practically like a test-dummy. XD. During that ride, Justin somehow hit the steering wheel when someone had bumped him, and couldn't feel his lips after so we just hung around the empty food court and talked till we were like lets go eat la. We went to Wendy's to eat. Hung out there for a while then went for bowling. I scored a strike on my first bowl. Wooohoo! Go me! But still lost to Kat cause during the last game, I got zero! ='( . But it was still a fun game. We headed back to the Monorail station and I was suppose to meet my sister and both of them wanted to go to Bukit Bintang to walk around so they took the monorail to Bukit Bintang whereas I took to Raja Chulan (A name that, besides Imbi, fascinates Kat. hahah) So there we split up. Met up with my sister and her boyfriend. Blah blah blah. Back at the apartment, my sister's boyfriend brought his X-box so I played it till it was time for bed.

Friday- Got up at like 10+ . Brushed my teeth, did some work and played Xbox till it was time to meet my sister and dad for lunch. I got kinda lost a one point but kinda found my way back to the route my sister drew for me. Got lost in KLCC itself then my sister found me, helped her and her colleague to carry a box to the other side of KLCC then waited for her there to meet up with my dad. After meeting up, we went to eat Duck King or DucKing. (I'm not sure how you're suppose to spell it) Anyways, the duck there is not bad. Very pricy but quality wise, not bad. Decided to lepak in KLCC's Kino while waiting for my dad to finish work and follow him back, so walked there with my sister and yeah pretty much spent almost 2 hours there. I read about 50 pages of the Time Travellers Wife before my back was screaming for mercy. (There wasn't a proper place to sit, so I sat on the floor leaning against a shelve) Thinking back about the day, I kinda miss my sister. ='( . Yes, I know she comes back every weekend but still. Followed my dad back home. blah blah blah. Went out to change my specs (well the frame is still the same only the lenses are different so you can't see much difference). Dinner after and here I am.

So that was pretty much my awesome couple of days.

eeekkkkk. Some insect just flew right at me while I was typing the last sentence. I think its like some gold beetle or something. I tried throwing pens at it but it didn't move. ergghhh. grossness.

P/S : My awesome couple of days was spoilt but a very NOT awesome driving lesson. How am I gonna pass my test at the rate I'm going? =_=

Anywhere but here.

2010-03-22T05:13:00.003+08:00

Wants to be anywhere but here,
Feel anything but this.

Just too tired to react,
to something that tore me from the inside out.

He just doesn't know it,
How much it hurt me.

I might mean more to him than it,
But it is it that I want to be.

Will this ever end,
The hurting and unknowing?

Something To Laugh About.

2010-03-22T00:39:00.003+08:00

I found this on a website called Happy Things Tumblelog. Click here. They have some other really cool stuff there too.

I actually found the blog on Jessica's blog. She has some awesome sites to visit for all you blog lovers. =)

The Not-So-Awesome First Lesson.

2010-03-20T17:10:00.002+08:00

I came back from my first driving lesson like 2 hours ago but I went out soon after I came home so I didn't have enough time to blog.

Anyways, my driving lesson today was actually quite horrible. I mati engine like 8 times. =_='. Most of the time it was during the side parking thingy and maybe cause I was afraid to do a mistake while the fella's beside me. Tension sial. hahah.

So today, all I did was learn how to let go of the clutch while accelerating and breaking and all those type of things, 3 point turn (which I have to say, I pulled off smoothly. It was the only one I could do without really thinking of the steps), and side parking (which was sooo horrible. soo many steps for my nervous mind to take.XD) After awhile, the instructor was like, "okay la, you buat sendiri". So I did and supringsly I did so much better without him in the car. I didn't mati engine AT ALL!! =D. So when it was my last run, he signalled me to stop where he was standing and I did. As soon as he came into the car, I mati engine. XD. Weird right? So anyways after that we exchanged seats and he took me back. During one of my runs, my leg was practically screaming for mercy.

I can say at the end of your driving lessons, you never ever want to drive a manual car, you'll have muscles and your coordination (eye, leg, hand and brain) will be better.

Yup, so that was what I pretty much did the whole day. Fun but tiring. Oh and today while I was eating with my parents, we saw this really little kitten. Its eyes were still closed so I'm gonna guess its about a week old. Awww. It kept meowing for its mum and after awhile it went to sleep and woke up and the cycle repeated. So heartbreaking. In the end, one of the shop keeper's daughter came out and gave it some milk but being so young, it didn't know how to lick so yeah. The kitten was practically bathing the milk. XD.

So that's pretty much about it. Have fun guys. =)

P/S : I just got a call from the driving school saying that class 2moro is canceled. Bittersweet moment. My legs need a rest but I'm in the flow of driving. XD

Its The Weekend.

2010-03-19T19:11:00.002+08:00

Yay! Finally!

And I'm starting of my weekend with a headache. Arrrgggh!! I guess its my body's way of telling me to get sufficient sleep. Yes, I know I should stop sleeping at 2 but assignments just won't let me do that.

I hate this feeling of lack of sleep and nausea. Grrr.

Anyways. Exciting news people!! I'm going to start my driving lesson tomorrow!! =D. Yes, I know its quite late, but I've been so busy with college and settling in that I didn't have time to go arrange for the lessons. And Kat just made me nervous by saying that she failed cause she didn't pau. But I guess her mistake (she went into the wrong lane in a roundabout) can only be ignored by pau-ing. So yeah. I'll see how it goes. =)

Well, I guess that's all from me.

Take care peps! :)

HOLIDAYS ARE FINALLY HERE!!!! =D

Thoughts & Pots

:')

The Day She Went Away.

Giving myself a second chance.

When you have no where else.

realization

its been long. :)

looking.at.life.through.a.window

when.you.suddenly.run.out.of.words.

Moving On To Another Chapter..

would you have rather..

*Elevator music*

Do I Even Need One? =)

and I’m scared to death

drowning in misery

the things you say

with thoughts swirlling around

The other side of the story

For All That I Couldn't Be.

falling back to reality

You break down the walls I've built

as the sounds of crickets fill the air.

Oh the misery!

blue skies

The Stress/ The Pimples!

as you watch it flow through you

I feel you slipping away.

un-ti-tled

After So Long..

Hello Goodbye

For Andrewtan

a day to catch up..

just for today.. please..

and now its going to eat at my soul

its in the middle of the night..

my soon to be distant memory..

It Keeps You Awake, Against Your Will.

A Time Back When

I'm Back From The Island Part 2. =D

I'm Back From The Island =D

Penang in less than 24 hours!! =D

Since I Have Nothing To Do.

While Its Still Fresh

In the dead of the night, you seep into my thoughts.

The Silence

PROM PROM PROM!

It's Done!! =D

Monday Blues..

No Matter What, The Memories Stay With Us.

I'm Taking It One Step At A Time.

Can It Hurt Anymore? Apparently it can.

Gives Me Hope

Life's Too Short To Be Anything.. But Happy.

It Changed Everything.

If I Wanted, Would You Leave Me Alone.

The Way We Roll

Happy Birthday Victor! =)

For You My People! =)

What If's

Its Just Lagging

Right In Front of You.

Crash Into Me

The stars will remain

Lazy lazy lazy

There's a first for everything.

Insecurity

1000 viewss. =D

I ran out of ideas

Just Let Me Know

And I Thought It was Over.

The Awesome Malacca Trip.

I know! =(

OMGG!!!!

Online Shopping!!

First Day at The New Builiding.

An Awesome Couple of Days.

Anywhere but here.

Something To Laugh About.

The Not-So-Awesome First Lesson.

Its The Weekend.

Elevator music