My Old Blog

I totally forgot bout my friendster blog till I was going through my friendster.. I never knew my blog last time was so nice.. (the posts).. Though most of it was forwarded mail I was glad I actually posted them cause those stories are really touching, for example the one below.. The post that I wrote on my own were really noob-ish but I guess that's how everyone see's themselves like 3-4 years ago rite??

How much a person can change in just a few years.. Hmmm.. Makes you think what you're gonna be like when your an adult and when you are actually adult you'll think back bout all your younger more youthful days.. Weird rite?? When ur young, you think bout when ur old and when ur old you think back to when ur young.. Shouldn't it be like when we're young, we should just enjoy bout just being young and when we're adult just enjoy things in life as an adult.. Life changes and some how you can't compare you life now and how it was when you were younger..


Too much random and redundant ranting.. Sorry guys!! Just suddenly felt like blogging bout something that came to mind and not giving a damn bout what people think bout the post..

Anyways going back to the point of the post which is my old blog.. For those of you who would like to read somemore really touching stories, (and my noob-ishness of my blogging skills a few years ago) you guys can go to http://elainateng.blog.friendster.com/. Yes no emo URL unlike this blog.. XP.

P/S : I need your feedback on why do you find my blog is emo (if you think it is) and whether I should change my blog's URL. Thanks.. =)

One day I decided to quit…I quit my job, my relationship, my Spirituality. I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me…

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?" "Yes", I replied. "When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo."

"In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo." He said.

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant…But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle." He said to me.

"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have act ually been growing roots?". "I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you." "Don’t compare yourself to others." He said.
"The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high."
"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and bring back this story.

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.

~ It is not the length of life, but the depth of life ~

Some Things To Ponder..

I screwed up my WHOLE Biology Paper 3!! Question 1 where the give u like everything and you only need to fill in the blanks was so totally shitty.. Instead of writing minutes den seconds I just wrote the seconds.. (There are 2 clocks one with 60 and 30 and ur reading must be based on that).. Yeah well, I read the clocks wrongly and thus wrongly writing down the answer.. SHIT!!

Question 2 of Paper 3 was like WHHHHHAAAAT??!??!?!??! Did we ever learn bout this experiment before.. It was about enzymes and rate of reaction of enzymes.. I thought that I understood the question and did (tembak-ed) the experiment correctly till AFTER the exams when my experiment wasn't anywhere close to my frens.. I was like SHIT!! FAIL LA!!

Biology paper 2 was hard as in like H-huh?!?! A-ahhhh... R-remember?? D- DIE!!!.. There was this whole part bout the thoraic verterbrae and labelling the part of the verterbrae.. That whole part was pretty much blank.. Well, I can only wait to see if I really did fail my bio.. -.-''

And there goes my hope of not failing any subject.. ='(

On a totally lighter note, I watched this movie called 'Hot Fuzz' .. Its a thriller, action, comedy, twisted movie... Its seriously soo cool.. The only sucky part bout the movie is it has a really heavy British accent so alot of the time I was like wert?? what did he say?? You guys should go watch it..

Anyways its like 1.55am.. I should be getting to bed by now.. Ngeh... Its friday who cares... Lol..

Exams...

Rant rant rant.. Vent vent vent.. Lol..

I could have blogged at a better time of the week or day but instead i have to choose now.. It's like 11.54pm, Thursday nite.. There's a bio paper 2moro (bio paper 2 and 3) but yet I'm still here in front of the comp ranting away..

I haven't studied my bio but I'm still not doing anything bout it.. I panicked, started to study, decided to go to sleep but detoured to the comp.. X.. So me.. I can't keep focused and I'm super stressed out bout my bio..

On a side note, I totally flunked my sejarah paper 1.. WTH!! It's suppose to be easy coz its multiple choice rite.. WRONG!! I answered like the total opposite of what the question wants.. Ergh!!! If I read the question hard enough I would have gotten the answer but no.. I relied on my INSTINCTS... -.-''

Blah blah blah.. I should be getting to bed now or I'm gonna be killer moody in the morning and so totally late for school, like I'm not always already..

My blog

Damn.. I'm seriously fed-up editing my blog, like seriously.. Argh!! Everytime I think I get sum part rite, another part gets spoilt and looks even more retarded then before I touched it..

Soooo for those who are saying why my blog is so simple and plain, here's what I'm gonna say to you.. If you dun like it then dun visit.. It's plain and simple.. =)

And on a totally random thing where I feel like writing what I did today :

1. I went to church for Bible Knowledge class and was practically falling asleep (the whole class was the same) coz sleeping late the night before..
2. Went for Powerfun (its a kids church service where I help out), helped out with worship and helped my sister teach the younger kids.. and OMG!!! They are freaking adorable!!! Their innocence is soooo cute and funny...
3. Had meeting for Tutti which was quite fun and HUMID!! (why couldn't today rain or something)
4. Visited Good Samaritan Home.. During visit saw them prac martial arts which was really cool.. All the kids, who are younger than me, could do pumping ON THEIR KNUCKLES.. Even the girls wei.. Killer rite?? It was a really funny time seeing them doing all sorts of non-sense in between.. Haha..
5. Had McD's for dinner..
6. And here I am blogging..

Well, that was pretty much my day.. 2moro I have to face the longest day of my week.. Damn..

Random thought of the post: I seriously hate the hot season, it makes me feel like sun-burnt and hot all the time.. grr.... >=(

Gotta get my act together..

Oh man, really need to rant!! Monthly exams will be done 2moro (YAY!) but it'll be the 2 hardest subjects togther!! (Sejarah and Add Maths).. X|.. Die.. Lol.. Adding to the fear of failing almost all my science subjects and the very high probability of failing add maths, though I haven't sat for the test yet, my life seems to be all over the place.. I'm :

Having trouble sleeping (waking up at like every hour from 3am) is not a good sign..
Getting fat.. *really need to get into the routine of exercising EVERYDAY..
Feeling really lethargic from all the tuitions everyday..
And worst of all, feeling super disappointed in myself for dunno what reason..

I feel like I'm unable to get done the simplest job and will let the ppl who rely on me down... Hmmm... I need to get my self confidence back!! WHERE HAVE YOU GONE WHEN I REALLY NEED YOU!?!??! X|..

Anywayz, I gotta go back to studyin now.. Argghh.. Lame-ness... XD.. Now i'm just crapping.. hopefully, I'll update my blog soon again.. lol..

A much needed update & Melaka trip part 1

Lol.. My blog is officially dead.. No mood la wanna type everything.. XD.. Everything's coming to an end.. 1 day till its 2009.. DAMN!! Time goes by fast.. SPM is nearer!! Haih.. Well, the year 2008 has been really eventful, exciting, paling emo, and the most challenging..

Well I actually wrote this a week ago, but didn't have the time to complete it and post.. bleh, who cares??? Let me try to sum up the year 2008.. Challenging, stressful, crazy, hectic, bombastic, fun, funny, painful and everything a person can feel.. I've been through it all with 14 other wonderful people... They are my Majlis Exco Belia 2008..

I guess there are sum of my frens who are reading this and going PBSM again ar?.. All I gotta say is, its part of my life so deal with it!! I've learnt so much from this year..

Some of what I've learnt, is so valuable to me.. I have learnt to be more patient, understanding and I've learnt alot about other cultures like why they have to do certain things and why certain celebrations are celebrated.. It has really been an eye opener.. And we're all from different races but treat each other equally.. To us, there's no such thing as guy or girl (though there are still boundaries), no malay, indian, chinese.. We all are one..

For our very last activity together, we decided to go for a holiday.. It was suppose to be pulau tioman but the monsoon season stopped all plans.. So we went to melaka instead.. We took a bus there coz our van was already booked.. It might sound kinda lame, but the public bus ride was fun!! Weee.. XD.. We brought backpacks instead of luggage bags coz we had to walk alot but girls being girls, brought really heavy backpacks and made use of the guys.. Sorry guys but you are meant for that plus you get to flex ur muscles.:P.. Man, we spent money there like children of rich parents... Hahah.. We stayed in a bungalow in A'Famosa Resort.. We had OUR VERY OWN POOL!! How can anyone not like your own pool?!?!?!?

BUT!!! The first suckiest thing bout the place was the bloody door couldn't open coz the battery in the lock was dead so we had to make some calls and like 10 mins later, the maintainence people came and changed it.. The other suckiest things were, they said that there was a hot tub(too good to be true) but it seemed to have vanished when we came, there was only like one plug point and one phone, the heater and hair dryer for the girls bathroom decided to stop functioning, and there was one more thing but I forgot.. XD..

After finding our rooms and dumping our bags there and changing into our shorts, we all were soon splashing about in the pool... Somethings went down in the pool that I think I can't and shouldn't say but lets just say you were an outsider, who would be like OOOOOOOMMMMMGGGGGGG!!!!!!!! But we treat each other like bro's and sis's so there was no bad intentions.. Hahaha.. But that event caused me a blue black on my hip.. The story is, my fren was outside the pool like to do sum trick into the water and I was in the water.. So as I was trying to escape from him hitting, he kicked me in the hip so hard it bruised me.. Hahaha.. It was definately painful but it wasn't too bad.. We swam for bout 4 hours I think before we got out and took turns to bathe.. And at nite we went to cowboy town where everything was bloody expensive.. Just the entry was like RM40 for the 4D cinema and sum red-indian show.. The entry didn't include the rides you wanted to sit in there.. There was this bungee-jumping type like ride only ur kinda flug into the air with the harnest and stuff.. After that we went on to the 4D cinema but we went in half-way so we didn't know what was the story about but it was really scary.. It was about a haunted office and it seriously was scary.. After the movie, we went to the red-indian movie which was the highlight of the day.. We made so much noise, the emcee and the actors and stuff knew us at the end of the night.. We started wavying at them, they gave us the look like, "oh, your the crazy, screaming group we passed" and gave us really wide smiles.. It was super chun la.. Its indescribeable..