In the dead of the night, you seep into my thoughts.

Slow, emo music seriously doesn't help in moving on. nyeh. who cares.

Anyways, I promised that I would blog about what that happened with me the last week so I'll just give you the highlights.

On Tuesday, I went for touch football with my fellow course mates and the Americans. Played on an empty stomach. Not a good idea. Anyways, I only played one game cause it was so hot and being so long in the sun made me giddy. Sat around talking to Evelyn, Natasha, Leng Hue, Ad and May. Laughed alot at Ad and May's fondness for grass.. Ginseng, wheatgrass, herbal soup.. hahahahahaha. Oh man. That was funny. So instead of playing, we had a really fun photoshoot of jumpshots. =)

Friday I went for the graduation ceremony for the Graduating Class of June 2010 of the Canadian Pre-U. It was an experience to see a whole bunch of my friends graduating. The speech by the valedictorian, Koay Keat Yang was inspirational and touching. As I was recording, the battery was going low and I didn't wanna finish up the battery cause I wanted to take pictures with my friends afterwards, so I could only take 9 minutes of his speech with my camera and the remaining with my phone, which the quality of video recording isn't too good, so yeah. =\

Saturday. My church has this event called Parents Night every year to kinda appreciate all the parents in church. So I went in the morning and came back at about 11.30pm. So yeah. Whole day out. Very tiring but fun. Everyone had fun especially the parents. Our theme was Ready, Set, Go or in other words, a sports theme. Most of the parents were sporting enough to come in different sports attire. Overall, it was a really fun time for everyone. =D

On Sunday, my family went to visit my brother cause he wasn't coming back for the weekend. And my dad likes to take these little trips so we did. We picked my brother up from his house, went for lunch at this place called something Sister Yong Tau Foo or something of that sort. It was packed!! But the food was awesome. Especially this thing called "Chicken Wrapped in Paper". I have no idea how its done but it was really delicious. Yuummm!! The other stuff were pretty good too except for the excess oil every dish had. eikk.. =S

So that was pretty much about what happened in my week. =)

Oh yeah. And my room is pretty cleaned up now. I have about 20-30% of my room left to clear!! =D. I just hope it can stay clean throughout the year. :P

prendre soin. :) Its French for take care.

P/S: As you can see people, I've gotten lazy with editing my post. haha. I'll try doing it when I'm not lazy. XD

I'm listening to

We'll be a Dream - We the Kings and Demi Lovato

The Silence

Would you leave things unsaid if it meant that you would still be friends

or

Would you say all that you want to but things get complicated?

Okay. I did write a post a couple of days ago and yeah it couldn't save and I didn't notice so when I pressed publish post half the post was gone and being the holiday me, I just couldn't bother with rewriting everything so instead I just left it as a draft and here I am now, writing a new one. =)

Sorry if I don't post as often as I should seeing as I'm on holidays but I just don't have the inspiration and mood to blog. Hey, having inspiration and mood to blog makes my post more me. Without it, it would just sound NOT me. XD

Anyways, I had a pretty eventful week. So, I won't complain. A lot of my friends are kinda sick of holidays where as I'm only starting mine. =D Soon, holidays will be over and I'll be back with my second semester. Not too looking forward to it. =X

I hope I'll be in the mood to post another one tomorrow about what happened in my week so yeah. Let's just hope okay! haha.

P/S : I'm running out of ideas on what to blog about, so if you have some let me know and I'll try to blog about it. No promises that I will though. =)

I'm listening to

Angels - Augustana

PROM PROM PROM!

Fuhh!! Yesterday (I was lazy to post this yesterday so yesterday in sense is Sunday) was the CPU Prom and all I've gotta say about it is that it was FREAKING AWESOME!!! You have no idea how awesome!!

It got off to a slow kinda boring start but after the food, things started to pick up and got exciting. It just kept getting better and better from there on. Once the dance floor was opened, fuh. This is what CPU people are about. We know how to study hard and play hard. =D

Evelyn and I stayed over at Leng Hue's house the night before the prom and went to get our hair and make-up done at APT somewhere in puchong. We finished sorta early so we took our time getting ready. Evelyn's dad picked us up at 6 and we went to pick Natasha up and went to prom from there. Met up with the whole gang there. Oh yeah. And because I slept over in Leng Hue's house, I had packed everything to last me till after prom except the most important thing, my prom ticket. =_='! I felt so dumb at that moment! I totally forgot about my prom ticket till Evelyn asked me in Leng Hue's house. T_T moment! Anyways, my friend helped me out and totally saved my life. Thanks Magen!!! =)

The emcee of the night was good. A very comical guy and kept the crowd going. ;) . I especially liked him at the ending during the open floor. Move 1. The hairwash. 2. The migraine 3. The lost-in-the-woods. I really cracked up. I only managed to record the last move.

All in all, the night was a very awesome enjoyable night. A very awesome job, Prom Committee. ;D

After prom, we headed to Brussels in Jaya 1. Jian Yung drove us there in typical guy style, if you get what I mean. XD. When we arrived the kitchen was already closed and it was the last order. So potong. Felt like drinking something comforting so I drank Hot Chocolate, which wasn't too bad.

Went back to Evelyn's house at around 3am. By the time we hit the bed it was like 4.30am. Got up at 9.30am the next day. Definitely not enough sleep. I took the train back home, reached at 11.15am? and hit the bed again till 5.30pm. hahahaha.

Memories no matter how insignificant will one day seem like the most precious. =)

P/S : I'll add some colour later.

I'm sorry things turned out like this,

I never wanted this.

I always wanted you in my life.

But I guess at this moment, its not possible.

Just know that I'm sorry.

I hope you read it.

Cause it'll be last you'll hear of me,

Before you start your new life.

I'm listening to

It Is What It is - Lifehouse

It's Done!! =D

Finals are finally done! Yay!!! =D

Holidays are here! No more waking up at 6 am! *extra happy smiley*

Okay I should have a checklist of what I want to get done by this holidays.
I might either re-edit this later with the list or I might put it on the column at the side so look out for it if you wanna know what I'm planning for my holidays. hahaha. and I think I would be doing the latter. XD

The next thing coming up is PROM!! woot woot!

Hmmm. Its bittersweet finishing the semester. I'm gonna miss so many of my friends. =(
But I guess life has to go on right? Can it just hold on for a little while so I can hang on to the memories just that one moment? Well, a girl can wish right? =)

I know a lot of you are asking why I still in love? hanging on, well I just can't answer you. No matter how much of a jerk he has been, I still find myself going back to him everytime. Maybe I just don't want to let go of the person I first fell in love with. Okay, everyone has said that he did change and I've noticed and I don't know. I guess when he leaves it would be easier? I'm hoping it will be.

Its the end now,
I don't know when
or whether I'll see you again,
But thanks for all the memories!
=)

I'm listening to
I Never Told You- Colbie Cailat

Monday Blues..

Well, I'm blogging cause I'm stuck in college waiting for my sister to come pick me up.

Anyways, just finished my Data exam. Left one question blank, one answer most probably wrong, one whole section very uncertain. Arrgghhh. My exams seem to get worse and worse.

I'm having Individuals on Thursday and its definitely not a paper I'm looking forward to because I seem to always be struggling. Its like I'm barely able to keep my marks above 85%.

My goal of getting at least an 85% in everything seems to be getting harder to reach!! =(

Today at the end of the Data exam, this guy who was sitting near me was trying to finish up his subjective paper but the teacher was like pulling it away and so he went on to trying to shade in the answer for the objective section and the teacher and him were sorta having a small tug-of-war before the teacher pulled it away. He was like begging the teacher to let him shade it in, but he was like "I'm sorry, I really have to take it". And seriously, the whole scenario looked so sad and pitiful. awwww.

So I guess that's pretty much about it. =)

Chao people!!

Walking the empty halls,

Every turn I take,

Reminds me of us,

Of what we were,

And of what we've become.

The hurt, the loss, the pain.

I'm listening to

Halfway Gone - Lifehouse

No Matter What, The Memories Stay With Us.

Unless you have dementia or memory loss. hahahah. Okay that was random.

Anyways, yesterday was the last day for some of the CPU-ians. =( Loads of friends graduating, even him, 2 weeks from now. ='(

I'm really gonna miss all of them; Adrianna Jane, Imran, Kana, Cecelia, Grace, and a whole loads of other people. Don't forget to come back to visit us okay guys and girls!! =)

Well, today finals started. Not off to a good start. I couldn't finish my essay in time. And that whole part was like 44 marks.. The part with the most marks and I screwed it up. Damnit la!! ARRGGHHHH!! EMO!!! ='[

On a totally random note, yearbooks were out today!! Yay! And I actually look good. =D I got my poem published too but I totally forgot to put a title so they named it Untitled. So potong! ishh.. whatever la it still got published.. =D

Why won't you talk to me?

Or pick up my calls?

You just left me in the dark,

Not knowing what I did wrong.

When everyone asks me why I can't let go,

Its cause I can't.

Dare I say it?

I may be in love.

Over and over you break my heart,

and yet, I still won't let go.

is something wrong with me?

or is it cause I'm not me?

Just please keep me in your life. I can't stand not being in it. I can't stand what we've become. I just want us to be what we were. Anything but this. Please!

I'm listening to

In This Song - Charice

I'm Taking It One Step At A Time.

Thanks everyone for cheering me up and asking how I've been and all.

Today, I'm feeling better. It might be due to the lack of sleep or the fact that I just finished the last ISU of this semester but at least I'm feeling better right?

The day started okay. Peaked during Data and flat-lined during lunch all the way till I was back home where it peaked again.

Honestly, it hurt during lunch. I could feel myself hyper-ventilating and needing to get out of there. It comes and goes so I'm trying my best to keep it in check.

I wrote a Facebook message to him today, yes, I know not the most ideal way to send a message. I actually wanted to tell him face-to-face but well, there wasn't any chance so I guess, that was the best way.

Well, I just hope things go back to normal tomorrow or at least try to go back to normal cause that's just what I need right now. Normal.

And I proved to myself and everyone else that I CAN handle a relationship AND my studies cause guess what? Okay, I'm not gloating or anything but I got 96% for my Data test that was yesterday. Going through the heartbreak and absolutely no motivation to study, I still scored a 96%. Honestly, I was quite surprised myself. I really thought I did badly cause I felt so unprepared for it.

Next up, we'll see my phase 5. If I score badly in that it means, I can't handle it. Well, we'll see how it goes.

Sometimes we gotta take one step at a time, one day at a time.

I'm listening to

I Did It For You - Charice and Drew Ryan Scott