looking.at.life.through.a.window

Somehow when you take a step back from life and just look at it, it seems pretty different.

Well, at least that’s how I felt. I’ve been quietly (sometimes not so quietly) observing everything that goes on in my life and trying to see what it would be like if I wasn’t there, no I don’t mean it in a way of whether I was born or not but more of if I was not there in that situation kind of thing. Get my drift? I hope you do.

These past few days have been a little bumpy. Classes are still as usual. Starting to cope better now. Still not much to say about it besides, its alright. I feel bad whenever someone asks me “How’s Uni?” and all I can answer is, “It’s okay." But there is really nothing else to say. It is okay. It has its good days and its bad just like anything else.

On a related note, I have done all my first tutorials for all subjects but Criminal Law which I am rather looking forward to. For those of you who don’t know what tutorial’s are, it is where we are given a set of questions related to the lecture to prepare and are to be discussed in tutorials. Because lectures are big, tutorials help students test their understanding on the topic and also, have more attention from the lecturer. Its more like a class review in small groups. Yup, just an insight for those of you who don’t know what tutorials are.

Oh! The most “tragic” thing happened to me last Thursday. We had this lecture that was cancelled and so, Jameson and I decided to go back to SS15 to have lunch with our friends thinking we have a long break (10.00-1.30). We came back at about 1.15pm and when I reached class, I was quite taken aback when I didn’t see anyone outside class which is highly unusual seeing as there are usually people hanging outside. So I checked my timetable and guess what? Class was at 12.00pm and not 1.30pm. It was such an FML moment. We had no idea how we so confidently thought that class was at 1.30pm and not at 12.oopm. In other words, we had accidently skipped class. We got so emo, we sat in the car for like 15 mins being emo and eating chocolate and then headed to Galvin’s house to hang out with him and to emo some more then play some PS3 games  

I guess I better stop now. My post became so long. =_=! Sorry!!

P/S: I’ve realized I talk a lot now. So if I talk to much, please do stop me. Hmmm. That might not work either cause I tend to interrupt people and continue talking. Err. Hmmm, I guess just tell me I’m talking too much. :) Thanks. And I’m trying some fonts thus the different fonts for almost each paragraph. :)

Take care people.

 

I’m listening to

Landslide – Dixie Chicks

I’m afraid of what might be,

Afraid of the unknown,

Afraid of disappointing and of disappointment.

There is nothing to do but take a day at a time.

when.you.suddenly.run.out.of.words.

I’m trying to find a better way of titling my posts. Right now it seems pretty formal. I guess I’ll be reverting back and forth between different styles till I find one that I like and am comfortable with.

Don’t you hate how you have so much to say and when you’re given the chance, you’re suddenly at a lost for words? That’s what I’m feeling right now. As I was showering a while ago, I had so much I wanted to blog about but now that I’m blogging, nothing seems to be coming out. I suddenly don’t have anything to blog about or say.

Something totally random. I hate the new facebook profile. I can’t see what my last status update was unless I scroll down all the way and look for it neither can I do that for my friends. Besides that, I don’t really care about the rest. I just need some readjustment but I’ll be fine.

P/S : In my opinion, finishing a good book is like losing a friend. Sometimes I get so caught up in the story, it feels like I’m missing something once I’m done with the book. I got these 2 books for about RM12-15 each and I have to say its just as interesting as the books I pay up to RM40 for. My gums (not chewing gum but it does make me want to chew gum though) between my teeth somewhere at the back of my mouth is throbbing in pain. Great. Thanks.

I’m listening to

Tomorrow We Will Fly – Sam Hart (blinktwice4y)

Trying so hard to be alright,

When its only tears that fill your eyes.

Trying to close your heart,

To all the hurt inside.

Moving On To Another Chapter..

Yes I know I haven’t updated my blog in a long while. I’ve been enjoying my holidays as much as I could by doing absolutely nothing. How awesome is that? :D I probably won’t have an opportunity like that again, not for a very long time at least.

For those of you who don’t know, I’ve started University already. I’m pursuing a degree in Law. So I will be graduating in 3 years time with a Bachelor in Law hopefully with first class honours. At the worse, second upper.

Probably from now on, my posts would be a little bit more formal and a little bit more serious. I have to start my training from now onwards. I will occasionally relax and be myself when I feel like it. :)

I’ll only be starting classes next week so I can’t tell you much about how Uni is. The only things that I can tell you is the campus is huge, and expensive. Just lunch alone could set you back RM8-10 inclusive of a drink. I have to admit that I am feeling quite guilty that I have enrolled myself in one of the most (or most) expensive Law school’s in Malaysia. So I am trying to cut back wherever I can. Sorry if I’m being calculative and cheap people. I will try to not be so annoying and anal about it.

I guess that’s pretty much about what I’ve been up to recently. Well, not only that but the others are pretty minor. 

Oh and Leng Hue’s leaving tomorrow!! *sad face* I’ll be seeing her off at the airport tomorrow with probably tears in my eyes. awww. D:

P/S : My friend posted this on her wall and now I’m addicted to this website. It has one of the most hilarious stuff I’ve ever seen. This being the one I laughed loudest and hardest at : http://theoatmeal.com/comics/handshakes

Take care people! See ya soon, I hope. :)

I’m listening to

Why – Secondhand Serenade

I know I’ve fallen in love with you,

The timing of it may not be right,

But yet, I’m ready to hurt,

Just so I may have a moment with you. :)

would you have rather..

Would you have rather loved and lost or not have loved at all?

I would choose whichever would hurt the less. Looking at the two choices, it would look like the latter would be the choice I should have chosen, instead I chose the former.

I'm not being a pessimist but rather a realist by saying I know that we would be parting ways some time in the future, when precisely, I don't know.

Going back, I don't know why, even with knowing that it would probably never last more than a year and a half, that I still got into it. I knew that he would be leaving, I knew that I won't, I knew so many things and yet, I got myself into it. I've also just realized that its history repeating itself.

Why? I have absolutely no idea. Why do we do things we know will end up bad? Why do we do things we know that will end up hurting us? There are so many possibilities. But to me, the main reason why was because I held on to the hope.

The hope that it MAY work out, the hope that it'd be different, the hope that everything will be alright.

Don't we always do that in live though? We always hope for things cause that's the only we can do in a future so uncertain.

P/S: As you can see, I've taken off my chatbox well cause it kinda expired due to its inactiveness. So yup. I will put it back up sometime in the future I guess but meanwhile you can just comment on my posts. Thanks.

*Elevator music*

I have no idea why I made that my title but okay.

I finished my last ISU yesterday! oh yeah! =D Now to crunch for exams. damnit!

I'll be pretty much free in about 2 more weeks. =D weeeee.

Can't wait to be done with exams.

But the suckiest thing is that my marks this semester suck. Like I'm border-line 80. Gahhhh!

I'm thinking of whether to redo one of my assignments to kinda help boost my marks.

The second suckiest thing is, leaving everyone after finals. =(

Well, another suckiest thing was that I didn't get valedictorian. Yes, I am quite bummed out by it but it doesn't mean that I'm not happy for Wern.. =)

I'm probably gonna go back to sleep again after finishing this post. No idea why but I can't sleep through the night so I take naps. =D

P/S : Does anyone know how to get rid of/deactivate avast! antivirus from detecting adware cause its driving me nuts! I cannot do any work without it popping out. So damn annoying! Grrrr! Oh by the way, I am loving the whole, "put-your-favourite-cartoon-character-as-your-profile-picture-week" cause it brings back so many memories of sitting in front of the TV watching unendless hours of cartoons. The game on Jameson's iphone called “Tilt to Live” is unbelievably addictive. ish. it just makes me want to get an itouch or an iphone.

Just because I don't say it,

Doesn't mean I don't.

Cause when I say it,

I really mean what I say.

I'm listening to

I'm A Little Seal Girl - Macie Grey (As Told By Ginger)

Do I Even Need One? =)

You're so sweet

You say the cheesiest things but yet it makes me go awww.

You tell me I'm beautiful even if I'm wearing the most hideous things or looking horrible.

You're so caring that sometimes, I feel I don't care for myself as much you do. =P

You take care of me.

You believe in me even if I don't and when no one else does.

You put up with my mood swings. 

You respect my decisions even if you don't exactly agree with it.

You make me smile with the ridiculous things that you do.

You encourage me when I'm can't go on and to do things when I didn't have the strength to continue.

You reassure me that we'll make it.

You taught me to live in the moment and to leave things to the future.

You wiped away my tears when I cried over the littlest things.

 

Most of all, you love me for who I am. Quirks and all.

There are so many other reasons why I love you.

But do I even need a reason to love you? =)

All these reasons may change in time but one thing I know is that I will love you regardless.

I'm afraid of what may happen in the future but I'm gonna leave that for now and enjoy every moment I have with you :D

 

  

 

 

 

The future will be left in the future,

The past in the past,

And the present will be cherished.

Stop and smell the roses as you walk them by.

I'm listening to

Talking to the Moon - Bruno Mars

and I’m scared to death

I just don’t wanna study anymore. just so tired and exhausted.

I had an awesome time in Vietnam. Didn’t take as many pictures of people as I did of the buildings and all that.

We visited a variety of places.

Can’t exactly remember the name of the places but the pictures that I’ve posted on Facebook should speak for itself. =)

Feel free to check them out. ;)

Well, I’m done with my Law ISU, in the midst of my IB and Econs CCA (which is due on friday =D).

I really can’t wait till I’m done with my ISU’s and finals but that also means that I’ll be graduating and I’ll be leaving my friends and him, and the days that all my friends start flying off are drawing near. =(

Though I know he’ll still be here till at least July, I’m am scared to death as to what future holds for both of us and what will happen after he leaves. 

sorry but I’m just too tired to edit it but it does look beautiful on its own. =)

I’m listening to

If You Wanted A Song Written About You, All You Had to Do Was Ask – Mayday Parade

 

Never did I expect to feel like this,

You leave me smiling to myself,

At the things you do and say.