A lost and broken heart

This was my 1st poem that I ever made... Try to bear with the cacat-ness of it.. Haha..


As I shed silent tears for you,
I think of all the times I had with you,
All the fun and laughter we had,
I keep wondering whether you'll be back in my life.

Wishing and hoping you'll be back,
but wishing is wishing and
hoping will remain as hoping.
My hopes and wishes always crushed.
I think to myself what did I do wrong?

Was it me?
Was it you?
Will you ever be back?
I'm laying here looking at the stars,
Thinking that you are too.

I want you to come back,
Back into my life.
I want to have the feelings that I had with you.
I guess that maybe we were never meant to be, me and you.

Days go by, then weeks, then months and I never hear a single word from u.
Your drifting futher away from me.
And in case your were wondering you still linger in my mind.
Wondering whether your thinking about me too.

Was it fate that tore us apart?
Will fate bring us back together?
I keep wondering to myself
These questions in my head are begging for release.

Wanting to see you again, thought only for a day.
Everyday I look out the window thinking that
I might see you walking down the road.
I want to feel your warmth of my head against your chest.
And I want to see your sweet smile again though for a minute.

I feel like your already fading from my thoughts.
I don't want you to fade away.
You were my first true friend.
I'll wait forever if I have to just to see you again.

Just to once again be in your arms.
I care about you, but do you feel the same way about me?
I have cared for you all my life.
And I forever will.

Everything tat's on my mind..

Oh ya refering back to my last post.... I lead my group to victory.. No I didn't get 1st.. but at least I got 3rd which is not so bad considering I was the youngest leader there.. I couldn't have done it with my fantastic team-mates.. They really helped me alot.. Will write bout it in another post....

Newayz going back to the topic, have u every miss sum one and not miss sum one at the same time.. Its the feeling where u want to see them but at the same time u dun feel like seeing their face.. I've kinda experieced tat.. I wanted to see a guy quite badly and when I did, the feeling of excitement actually faded, and seeing him actually hurt.. And at times I was really set on talking to him and when I actually see him I dun even look at him.. I just feel really hurt looking at him and knowing our history.. I miss him but I dun really at the same time.. The feeling of uncertainty seems to be in every decision I have or am going to make...

And going to another topic... I feel really invinsible dis few days especially with her around.. Like I'm not even there.. When I actually speak up den ppl notice I'm there.. Feeling so invinsible.. Y la?!?!?! Yish-ness.. And I'm nobody compared to her.. She's smart, pretty and everyone loves hanging out with her... Haiz.. I dunno wat to do anymore.. I guess I'll stand out sum day..

I guess tat's all for now.. Nothing to rattle on about anymore..