Tuesday, May 26, 2009

I Wish :

  1. I dun have to study anymore, which will sorta come true since 2moro my exams are done
  2. I pass all my subjects..
  3. I can stop feeling panicky over small things
  4. I can be lazy and not do anything..
  5. I can get everything done in time for camp..
  6. I know the reason why people think my blog is emo though I try so hard for it not to be..
  7. I can find a red Baju Melayu
  8. it would rain and rain and rain...
  9. Malaysia would stop being so humid and hot..
  10. my plant would show signs of growth
  11. my parents stop nagging me bout my studies and stuff..
  12. I dun have to leave school..
  13. I dun need to think about my future..

So many I wish's.. Some might come true, some may not. But I guess that's how we become the people we are today because of the challenges we face and the determination of facing and beating those challenges that get in the way.. =)

Sunday, May 24, 2009

My Old Blog

I totally forgot bout my friendster blog till I was going through my friendster.. I never knew my blog last time was so nice.. (the posts).. Though most of it was forwarded mail I was glad I actually posted them cause those stories are really touching, for example the one below.. The post that I wrote on my own were really noob-ish but I guess that's how everyone see's themselves like 3-4 years ago rite??

How much a person can change in just a few years.. Hmmm.. Makes you think what you're gonna be like when your an adult and when you are actually adult you'll think back bout all your younger more youthful days.. Weird rite?? When ur young, you think bout when ur old and when ur old you think back to when ur young.. Shouldn't it be like when we're young, we should just enjoy bout just being young and when we're adult just enjoy things in life as an adult.. Life changes and some how you can't compare you life now and how it was when you were younger..


Too much random and redundant ranting.. Sorry guys!! Just suddenly felt like blogging bout something that came to mind and not giving a damn bout what people think bout the post..

Anyways going back to the point of the post which is my old blog.. For those of you who would like to read somemore really touching stories, (and my noob-ishness of my blogging skills a few years ago) you guys can go to http://elainateng.blog.friendster.com/. Yes no emo URL unlike this blog.. XP.

P/S : I need your feedback on why do you find my blog is emo (if you think it is) and whether I should change my blog's URL. Thanks.. =)
One day I decided to quit…I quit my job, my relationship, my Spirituality. I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me…

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?" "Yes", I replied. "When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo."

"In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo." He said.

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant…But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle." He said to me.

"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have act ually been growing roots?". "I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you." "Don’t compare yourself to others." He said.
"The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."


"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high."
"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and bring back this story.

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.

~ It is not the length of life, but the depth of life ~

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Some Things To Ponder..

I screwed up my WHOLE Biology Paper 3!! Question 1 where the give u like everything and you only need to fill in the blanks was so totally shitty.. Instead of writing minutes den seconds I just wrote the seconds.. (There are 2 clocks one with 60 and 30 and ur reading must be based on that).. Yeah well, I read the clocks wrongly and thus wrongly writing down the answer.. SHIT!!

Question 2 of Paper 3 was like WHHHHHAAAAT??!??!?!??! Did we ever learn bout this experiment before.. It was about enzymes and rate of reaction of enzymes.. I thought that I understood the question and did (tembak-ed) the experiment correctly till AFTER the exams when my experiment wasn't anywhere close to my frens.. I was like SHIT!! FAIL LA!!

Biology paper 2 was hard as in like H-huh?!?! A-ahhhh... R-remember?? D- DIE!!!.. There was this whole part bout the thoraic verterbrae and labelling the part of the verterbrae.. That whole part was pretty much blank.. Well, I can only wait to see if I really did fail my bio.. -.-''

And there goes my hope of not failing any subject.. ='(

On a totally lighter note, I watched this movie called 'Hot Fuzz' .. Its a thriller, action, comedy, twisted movie... Its seriously soo cool.. The only sucky part bout the movie is it has a really heavy British accent so alot of the time I was like wert?? what did he say?? You guys should go watch it..

Anyways its like 1.55am.. I should be getting to bed by now.. Ngeh... Its friday who cares... Lol..

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Exams...

Rant rant rant.. Vent vent vent.. Lol..

I could have blogged at a better time of the week or day but instead i have to choose now.. It's like 11.54pm, Thursday nite.. There's a bio paper 2moro (bio paper 2 and 3) but yet I'm still here in front of the comp ranting away..

I haven't studied my bio but I'm still not doing anything bout it.. I panicked, started to study, decided to go to sleep but detoured to the comp.. X.. So me.. I can't keep focused and I'm super stressed out bout my bio..

On a side note, I totally flunked my sejarah paper 1.. WTH!! It's suppose to be easy coz its multiple choice rite.. WRONG!! I answered like the total opposite of what the question wants.. Ergh!!! If I read the question hard enough I would have gotten the answer but no.. I relied on my INSTINCTS... -.-''

Blah blah blah.. I should be getting to bed now or I'm gonna be killer moody in the morning and so totally late for school, like I'm not always already..