Feeling So Used..

Ya everyone says I'm a good fren... Y? Coz I alwayz give? So if one day I stop giving, I become a bad fren.. Is that it?? SERIOUSLY??? Even my best frens take advantage of me.. I've tried my best and my hardest and damn it I can't take it anymore.. I've tried to be patient... BUT COME ON!!! EVERYONE has their limits.. U've gotta know mine.. What do I get for helping u guys?? Getting left out from what u guys do (my gang)... If I do lend u my stuff, the least u can do is take care of it.. If u know that I'm very particular bout stuff, den why still do it?? Even sumone said, ur a gud listener that's why I like talking to u.. U must be kidding me rite?? One moment u do, one moment u dun.. And when I'm rite in front of u the most u say to me is "Hi, Elaina".. Am I that visible to u for that fraction of a second?? I've sat there for almost 5-10 mins not saying anything waiting for u to say smt anything, but u just ignored u... WTH??? Am I that irritating till I'm treated like dis... U dunno how it feels like being blown off, and pretending like its fine.. Do u noe that EVERY SINGLE MOMENT I'M WITH U GUYS (my gang) I JUST FEEL LIKE A BUG ON THE WALL??? SERIOUSLY?? Am I that umimportant to u guys that if I was there one second and the next I'm not, that I just went sum where else?? What if i was kidnapped or smt... Would u actually notice... I've seen how u guys just walk off and just leave me hanging there.... If I walked with u guys or not you wouldn't care.. Maybe u'll do for a second or two.. U'll say 'Where's Teng?' and sumone either doesn't answer or says dunno and it just a full stop.. U dun even bother where I am... Trying being in my shoes, where the whispering goes on around me... And even my own pet bro's dun trust me with their secrets?? What the use of being a best fren when nobody tells u anything?? I the best fren only when I do things for u guys aren't I?? If u dun need me u dun really care if I'm there or not rite?? Seriously... If I were to shift to sum other school would u even care? U might the 1st few days den u wouldn't even a damn anymore.. U KNOW WAT GUYS??!?!?!?! I really sumtimes look forward to my dad building that new hse and shifting there and as far away as possible from u guys... U DUNNO HOW MUCH HOW HURT I AM EVERY SINGLE TIME!!!!!! ARGH!!!! I can't take anymore!!!! I guess when I'm gone den u'll appreciate me won't u?? What if I'm gone 2moro will u appreciate me den? Think bout it.. What I've said in dis post is true isn't it? Really go and think bout it and think whether I was just crapping or its really how ur treating me.. And if that fren didnt tell u (u know who u are) would u have actually noticed?? Seriously would u have?? WOULD U HAVE GIVEN A DAMN?!?!??!