Bored..

Today was such an uneventful day besides the trip here.. Nothing much to do.. Spent most of the day on the comp.. Well, at least I got to use my cousin's company macbook pro, which was kinda cool.. The keyboard is really nice to type on.. Haha.. Nothing much happened.. I found this program called photo booth in the laptop and we (my cousin, me, and my sis) started playing with it.. We used the effects and made all sorts of faces and laughed at ourselves when we saw how we looked like.. Haha.. We looked really funny.. The laptop is kinda cool.. I forgot to bring a book to read.. -.-... If any of my frens were to see me reading they'll be like COME ON PMR OVER ADI.. STILL WANNA READ!!! Its not like i'm reading form 4 book or smt.. I'm reading STORIES.. -.-.. Sometimes I just dun get my friends.. Just coz u dun like reading doesn't mean I don't.. I think I've been very patient with them, but they take me for granted. I sometimes get the feeling.. Haih.. What is girl to do.. haha..

Oh ya, someho dis reminded me of dinner.. We went to this restaurant next to a temple.. I can't remember the name.. The food was not bad.. The waiter and waitress were really young.. One was the shop's owner's daughther and the other was her maid.. The waiter was the shop owner's son.. I was thinking to myself, at this age (they looked bout 12 the most) they can help handle a business, what more when their older.. The shop owner's daugther was actually quite pretty.. haha.. The food was quite nice.. It was not bad.. Haha.. When the food came, i guess its natural to me to serve the person next to me food.. So during dinner, my bro and sis were sitting beside me.. I served my sis first den my bro.. Then I went on to the next dish, I served myself and my sis coz the dish was right in front of my bro and I had to use both my hands to get the dish.. I couldn't use both of my hands coz it was quite tight.. What'd you expect with 15 people sitting in ONE table.. Just as I finished serving my sis, my bro was like "can you take that dish for me?' That dis was right in front of him, all the gotta do was stretch his LONG arms.. BUT NO!! HE HAD TO ASK ME WHO WAS AT AN AWKWARD POSITION USING ONLY ONE HAD TO DISH HIS FOOD FOR HIM.. So at 1st I didn't mind, then he was like so demanding saying "Ayo, somemore la" and "I dun want that one, I want that"... It got on my nerves, so I snapped.. I didn't get enough sleep plus I was kinda hungry, and you who slept on the way here, and slept sum more when we arrived and having longer arms den me, and having it right in front of you, making me serve you like a maid or a servant.. ARGH!! In mind I was like what am I your maid?!?! Go do it urself which in the end came out my mouth.. XP.. Den my cousin who was sitting next to my sis, "Eh, why so moody??!?!" I was like "NOT ENOUGH SLEEP LA!".. Den my sis came in and said "She's hungry lah"..

My whole family knows that when I'm hungry I get moody.. Haha.. Now you can see the effect food has on me.. Haha.. After that my sis was like talking bout how I can serve people b4 I serve myself.. She was talking to my cousin at that time and I was ease dropping.. Hehe.. Anywayz, she was saying that since I was quite young I've done that.. While I was listening to her saying that I was kembang-ing like gila.. Hahahaha.. Then she was like "I can't never do that. I don't know she can do. If I'm hungry I'll take food for myself 1st. Haha.". I bloated up like a puffer fish. I was trying hard not to show it.. Haha.. Well, I guess that was the only thing that happened during dinner besides lots of talking and eating.. Haha..

Oh ya, for those of you who haven't seen me recently. I've painted all my nails black.. Fingernails and toe nails.. Yes all of them are black.. It completes the whole 'I'm Emo' vibe.. haha.. But whenever I look at my nails they remind me of those horror movies where the eyes of some person in the movie turns ALL black.. Get what I mean?? Haha.. Too bad if you don't.. XP

My trip back to my hometown

I went back to my hometown coz of the raya hols and we haven't been there since chinese new year, which is kinda long.. Hahah.. Anywayz, we left the house after coming back from church. Oh ya reminding me of church today was the 1st time I backed up sang ALONE.. it was scary since dis is only the 2nd time I backed up sang.. The 1st time was with this really good singer in my church who so happened to be the pastors daughter.. Haha.. Newayz, when I first found out that I was back up singing alone, I was kinda thinking I won't sing but I was already at the prac and decided to practise for fun.. The worship leader was my sis so it was not too bad la coz I had could ask her bout the songs if I didn't know them.. It was cool also coz I could practice at home with my sis.. Going back to the story, in the end I decided to sing and just give it a try and give it all to God.. So before we started we have sound checks and prayer.. And when we were praying I was like asking God in my heart to help me and to keep me calm.. And it worked, I was much calmer after praying.. It well not too bad.. Haha.. I kinda had fun.. Haha.. Kinda want to do it again.. XD

Ok.. Going back to the part bout me going back to my hometown, we ate lunch in this place called, yew kee or something like that.. After lunch we left for the almost 2 hour long drive to Sekinchan (for those of you who don't know where Sekinchan is, its bout few km from kuala selangor) I thought the drive would be uneventful like it always is.. So I decided to talk and listen to sum music.. It was raining lightly so I couldn't see the things by the side of the road which made it even more boring.. I wanted to sleep but then I couldn't find a right position (when I sleep I have to find a particular position b4 I can fall asleep), and I was sitting in the middle, so it was even harder for me to fall asleep.. We were somewhere in kapar I guess when there was accident.. We actually saw it happening.. Luckily the fella didn't get hurt.. How the accident happened was, this motorcycle hit the bumper of the car trying to avoid the car which turned into the turning but was still sticking out.. The motorcycle was going quite fast I think so it couldn't break on time so it hit the car.. (it was kinda hard to see, sitting in the middle and all) The motorcycle hit the car quite hard I guess coz I heard a loud thump.. The motocyclist kinda lost control of his motorcycle and fell. Lucky my dad from the left lane went to the right.. If he didn't I think my dad would have also hit the guy.. Anywayz falling added with the slippery road made him slide.. When I turned behind to look he and his motorcycle was in the middle of the road.. And so happened the traffic light turn green so there was traffic coming.. He quickly got up and ran to the side of the road leaving his motorcycle in the middle of the road.. When he fell, this other motorcyclist was coming, lucky that motorcyclist avoided him.. I dunno what happened next coz I turned my head (it was getting painful.. XP).. My whole family was talking about except my bro who was fast asleep when it happened.. We were all like so shocked and were talking bout it quite loudly, my bro who was sleeping suddenly got up and went like shhhh and went back to sleep..

After that we went on with our journey and we saw dis like cops on a tower sort of thing to catch those to speed which kinda weird coz they build this tower specially for them to stand/sit in and the tower even has this sign saying 'Menara Pemerhati Polis'.. The point of having speed traps are so u can catch those riders in the act.. Well, I guess the goverment has some explanation behind it.. We went on as usual and when we were nearing this mosque, we saw a 4 wheel drive (i think) in the drain.. Haha.. We were wondering how it fell in and a few metres down we saw this white van with a dent in the back of it.. Which I'm guessing the 4 wheel drive avoided something that hit the white van or something like that..

Well, nothing pretty much happened after that.. It was kinda boring after that plus I fell asleep in the end.. Too sleepy to care... When we reached my uncle's house, my neck hurt alot.. That's what you get when u sleep on ur bro's shoulder. Ouch!! My other uncle brought his german shepherd.. My cousin's rotweiler who is 6 years old was playing with the few months old german shepherd.. It was really cute.. Hahha..

I'm a very detailed person when it comes to describing rite?? ahaha..

Got me thinking...

I just finished watching high school musical 2 like half an hour ago, and it got me thinking bout stuffs.. Everyone seems to be changing and movin on in life, but I feel like I'm the still same me who's walking but never seem to be moving.. Sometimes I feel so left behind, then they come back and remember me and then coz I'm moving too slow move on without me.. Everyone around me seems to be getting together... It didn't bother me quite as much as it does now coz now even my best fren has someone.. Some how not being with someone is kinda nice but some how it feels like something's missing.. And I can't seem to find the right guy right now, and my PMR is around the corner.. I should focus on that and worry bout getting a boyfriend after PMR.. I guess everyone feels like they're gonna get left out every once in their lives.. But I have felt like that too many times in life that sometimes I wanted to give up.. Everywhere I turn I see my frens in love with someone and I just feel like I'm getting forgetten.. Well, I guess that's life rite?? Kinda looking forward to the hols.. Wanna get a job.. Hopefully will actually get a job with my friends this year.. hmmm....

AHHH!!

Have u ever felt that u know somethings coming and when it happens it hits you hard. Something like when u know your fish is gonna die but when it dies your like really broken up about it.. That was a metaphorically speaking.. I found out smt bout my frens that I knew was coming only when it did it kinda hit me hard.. I have no idea why, but its been kinda haunting me every since I found out that it was true... AHHH!!.. It's driving me nuts.. I even dreamt about it during my afternoon nap (yes I sleep every afternoon).. I'm happy for them of course but I never expected it... AHHHH!!! Its hard to explain the feeling.. But I was really dissapointed with both of them coz I'm quite close to them especially one of them (even asking her whether she trusts me enough to tell me things) didn't prefer telling me.. I found out from someone else before I found out from them and it was because one of my frens asked her... I MEAN COME ON!!!! I know u dun want to tell me, but I'm ur best fren and you know I support you a hundred percent eventhough we may not see eye to eye on it, but to actually keep it from me coz you were afraid of how I would react... It kinda shows how much you trust and know me.. I feel kinda insulted, but I can't really blame you coz I know everyone is entitled to their privacy... But if I were to do that to you - not telling you that something major in my life happened- wouldn't you feel like dissapointed too?? I mean we're best frens!! You've gotta trust me.... Next time, just be honest with me k?? I'll be behind u a hundred percent no matter wat.. Best Frenz For Life.. ;)

Feeling So Used..

Ya everyone says I'm a good fren... Y? Coz I alwayz give? So if one day I stop giving, I become a bad fren.. Is that it?? SERIOUSLY??? Even my best frens take advantage of me.. I've tried my best and my hardest and damn it I can't take it anymore.. I've tried to be patient... BUT COME ON!!! EVERYONE has their limits.. U've gotta know mine.. What do I get for helping u guys?? Getting left out from what u guys do (my gang)... If I do lend u my stuff, the least u can do is take care of it.. If u know that I'm very particular bout stuff, den why still do it?? Even sumone said, ur a gud listener that's why I like talking to u.. U must be kidding me rite?? One moment u do, one moment u dun.. And when I'm rite in front of u the most u say to me is "Hi, Elaina".. Am I that visible to u for that fraction of a second?? I've sat there for almost 5-10 mins not saying anything waiting for u to say smt anything, but u just ignored u... WTH??? Am I that irritating till I'm treated like dis... U dunno how it feels like being blown off, and pretending like its fine.. Do u noe that EVERY SINGLE MOMENT I'M WITH U GUYS (my gang) I JUST FEEL LIKE A BUG ON THE WALL??? SERIOUSLY?? Am I that umimportant to u guys that if I was there one second and the next I'm not, that I just went sum where else?? What if i was kidnapped or smt... Would u actually notice... I've seen how u guys just walk off and just leave me hanging there.... If I walked with u guys or not you wouldn't care.. Maybe u'll do for a second or two.. U'll say 'Where's Teng?' and sumone either doesn't answer or says dunno and it just a full stop.. U dun even bother where I am... Trying being in my shoes, where the whispering goes on around me... And even my own pet bro's dun trust me with their secrets?? What the use of being a best fren when nobody tells u anything?? I the best fren only when I do things for u guys aren't I?? If u dun need me u dun really care if I'm there or not rite?? Seriously... If I were to shift to sum other school would u even care? U might the 1st few days den u wouldn't even a damn anymore.. U KNOW WAT GUYS??!?!?!?! I really sumtimes look forward to my dad building that new hse and shifting there and as far away as possible from u guys... U DUNNO HOW MUCH HOW HURT I AM EVERY SINGLE TIME!!!!!! ARGH!!!! I can't take anymore!!!! I guess when I'm gone den u'll appreciate me won't u?? What if I'm gone 2moro will u appreciate me den? Think bout it.. What I've said in dis post is true isn't it? Really go and think bout it and think whether I was just crapping or its really how ur treating me.. And if that fren didnt tell u (u know who u are) would u have actually noticed?? Seriously would u have?? WOULD U HAVE GIVEN A DAMN?!?!??!

Drama..

This is totally not me to even audition for the drama what more get into a drama.. Haha.. Well, coz of Kat, I did.. Haha.. And coz of her I got in it.. The story, she got in but I didn't, but she told teacher that I was capable and so teacher asked me to come for practise's and so I was chosen.. Haha.. Now prac is on the way and its so fun.. Haha.. I play quite a small role but still important.. All roles are important no matter how small.. I play 2 roles actually.. Haha.. This is 1st time I've actually been in a drama besides church.. Hahaha... Competition is on the 2nd of April.. haha.. Teacher wants us to at least reach the finals.. Trying my best to act the best.. Hmm... Haha.. That's all I guess..

Drama..

This is totally not me to even audition for the drama what more get into a drama.. Haha.. Well, coz of Kat, I did.. Haha.. And coz of her I got in it.. The story, she got in but I didn't, but she told teacher that I was capable and so teacher asked me to come for practise's and so I was chosen.. Haha.. Now prac is on the way and its so fun.. Haha.. I play quite a small role but still important.. All roles are important no matter how small.. I play 2 roles actually.. Haha.. This is 1st time I've actually been in a drama besides church.. Hahaha... Competition is on the 2nd of April.. haha.. Teacher wants us to at least reach the finals.. Trying my best to act the best.. Hmm... Haha.. That's all I guess..



`~LaInA bAnAnA~` =)?