nyeh.. XP

Yup well, found out that he actually likes someone.

Its good and bad at the same time

Good that now I don't have to be so uncertain to whether or not he likes me.

Bad that now I feel shitty and I have Bio Paper 3 2moro and I'm in no mood to stuyd. WTH rite?

Yeah so that's pretty much about what I wanted to blog about. :P

P/S : I'm not like super broken hearted or what but I'm still hurt. Whatever I write after this is not what I'm feeling but it just came to be so yeah. As I said, I'm not to say balling my eyes out and suicidal and all "OMG WHY DOESN'T HE LIKE ME?!!? T.T" kinda thing. So please dun be all like OMG you emo again ar. -.-' or something like that k.. =)

Knowing that he likes another girl, when you've just acknowledged the fact that you've fallen for him, is I think the most painful feeling someone could feel.

slowww..

my connection has become annoyingly slowwww...

can't even load facebook...

nyeh..

Since my blog can load. I'll blog about what happened on Friday, 250909. haha. Anyways, went swimming with the girls; Jess, Lyn and Tiffy.. I went to the train station at like 11 plus. Waited for an hour for the always late and crowded train. but it was my first time taking it alone. :P but i'm still proud of myself for actually getting myself on the right train and out on the right stop. hahaha.. Meet up with the girls at Subang parade for makan. We ate at Dessert's bar. I had the smoke salmon wrap and a orange smoothie. Not bad but a little on the pricey side. Ordered oreo parfait and grape cheese cake. After that we met Tiff's mum at Carefour and then went back to her house. Lepak-ed at her house while waiting for her mum to finish up her work and take us swimming. So while waiting we chilled out in her room and changed into our swimming clothes.

Fast forward to when we're there. We took some time to find the designated parking spots for apartment owners. As we were walking towards the lift, this guy came up to us and asked "Excuse me, are you sure you parked in the right spot?". Then Tiff's mom was like yea, then she showed him the card and all. Then, he was like "ohh.. Cause I never see anyone park there before" and walked off. We were like WTH?? Why must you care?? When we were at the lift, Tiff's mum was like I forgot what floor the apartment is, but it was too late to think cause the lift came so we went in and were like so what button to press? Then aunty ws like go out first, I call uncle. So we went out. But the door closed with aunty, Jess and Tiff inside. So they, excluding aunty, screamed cause the door closed on them. Then after auntry came out, they tried to come out again and it closed on them again and as usual they screamed again. And when the girls scream, its LOUD!! we heard it through closed ELEVATOR DOORS. hahaha. Anyways, the managed to get out without getting caught again plus the woman who was in the lift also helped them hold the open button, she was also laughing. hahaha. Went up and had some to find the apartment which also took some time. blah blah blah. Went down to the pool and started swimming, or rather playing around. Lyn and I tried to teach Jess and Tiff the right way to swim. Well, they didn't really get there but at least now they can swim a little la. Haha.

After swimming we had a cam-whoring session. You can go to my Facebook if you wanna see the pics. After that took turns bathing and got ready to leave to go back to Tiff's house. Ate pizza and sum mee hun for dinner. The girls wanted to see some people that we've talked about before so went on Facebook and they decided to go through my crush list and find them on FB. Haha. Continued to find really cute actors and singers and compare which is cuter. hahah. Anyways, proceeded to watch movie, well 2 movies to be exact. Watched Ghost Of Girlfriends Past , then Bring It On 5, Fight to the Finish. Gushed over the main actor Coby Longo. The girls kept laughing at me cause I was like ahhhh-ing so much whenever he came on. haha. After the movies, went up to talk ourselves to sleep, which wasn't much.

Went to bed at about 2 plus and fell asleep like maybe 30-45 mins later. Sometime during the night, Tiff who's so use to sleeping alone, stretched and ended up slapping me. Got interupted by Jess's early alarm. Then later on Jess' indirect wake up call with alot of plastic noise and Lyn's constant calling. Took me like 10 mintues to actually get up with a lot of pestering from Lyn and Jess. Had KFC for lunch which was kinda weird. haha.

Well, that was pretty much the swimming trip + slumber party.. =)

this is wayyy over due.. decided to post all my drafted posts today thus the sudden surge of posts..

random.

I'm in that mood again.
Listening to my fingers on the keyboard and
the fan going round and round, and the long forgotten songs of Ryan Cabrera, (okay maybe not that long forgotten) made me think.
What happened to all those artists who use to be superbly popular like him and Michelle Branch??
It just shows that new artist just replace them.
I mean life is also something like that don't you think? People come and go and some are just forgotten.
Artists at least have their music to be remembered by but what about those ordinary people?? What happens to them after their gone? Will they be remembered??

Anyways, didn't do this post because of that. It just came to me as I was typing. Nyeh. I think I should stop with the emo posts before I scare people away. XD.

On a totally positive note, at least for me, connection is TOTALLY AWESOME right now!! It takes about a minute to download a song of 6MB. So loving it!! I'm going on a downloading rampage. hahah. Taking total advantage of it before I go back to turtle speed connection. muahahaha. XD. I guess that's all I wanna blog about. haha. So bye people. ;)

by the way, thinking of changing my template soon so look out for it. =)

this is the only place I know expressing myself won't hurt. its the only place I step out of my fascade.

this is the only place I know I'm safe from you because I now realise that i'm addicted to you and, shit, it hurts. it hurts to know that if I want to keep you, I can't tell you. I've made myself too vunerable. A thing I hate myself for. I need to get away from you before I hurt myself even more.

As I was blogging, my turtle speed connection came back.. and so, there goes my downloading rampage and my ryan cabrera songs. Nyeh.

No. No. No. Not again.

Just not now.

I don't wanna deal with it right now.

Why can't you just get out of my head?

crappity crappy crap.

Just don't wanna go on a emotional roller coaster again.

I want to go back to sleep so I don't think of you but when I do, I dream of you.

sounds cheesy but nyeh..

yes, I'm in that mood again..

=O

I can't believe that I've been studying for 28 days straight.. I've never ever done this in my whole life.. OMG!!! =O.. yeah well, going from not studying to studying everyday kinda takes a toll on me. I'm going a little insane and already am a whole lot stressed. the only thing keeping me sane is talking to my frens. So far papers I screwed up is Physics and Bio. I KNOW that I'm gonna screw up my Add Maths.. T.T.. Let's just wait and see.. Anyways, need to get back to revising Maths.. Will update after my trials.. ;) .. Take care peps.. and I'm sorry if I offended anyone (except those involved.. XD). I didn't mean to offend you guys who are innocent. I was just venting my frustration on those idiots who were involved and initated the thing. Bye guys!!

The Malaysian Government is screwed up..

Before you read this, please read the "warning" below :

All the "you" and "malay" that I've used in this post is referring to those involved and have nothing to do with those NOT involved. I know that not all Malay's are like that. =) . And to prove that I have plenty of close Malay frens k!! And if I accidently insulted anyone (besides those involved), I'm sorry!!!

Recently, the Malay resident protested in Shah Alam about the relocation of a Hindu temple to a different section in Shah Alam.. (Not to say they were relocating the whole Indian population into that area). They could've have just done a protest or some shit but nooooo they had to go protest with a cow head. Come on la! Who gives you the right to protest with an animal that the Hindu's consider sacred?!?!? To add salt to the wounds, they did this after Friday prayers and most of the protesters were still in their songkok's and attire. WHAT THE F**K IS THEIR PROBLEM!?!??! They're protraying that after you pray in a mosque and be all religious you're suppose to insult other religions. Its such a bad image to not only Islam but to your own kind. From what I learn in Sejarah, Islam is suppose to be about peace and respect but what they've done DOESN'T portray that AT ALL. Instead you're going against all that you're religion has thought you. Reading about Nabi Muhammad, I respect him for his wit and knowledge in handling situations and how he teaches about the good. You've gone and ashamed not only yourself but your religion because of it. What have you been learning then in agama class while we non-malays rot away in Moral learning shit?? I'll quote something that I HAVE to MEMORIZE in moral. Nilai kebebasan bersuara. Kebebasan berucap dan mengeluarakan fikiran DENGAN BATASAN TERTENTU bagi menjaga keharmonian dan ketenteraman. You guys should be ashamed of yourselves for disgracing your own race and religion.


And the worse part is, the cops arrested the INDIANS for having a candlelight vigil (NOT a violent protest like the Malays did) and handing out flyers demanding justice. Where is the sense in that? Malay's can protest in such a way but Indians can't even have a candlelight vigil. The Indians didn't even insult the Malays or did anything violent but they got arrested. The Malay's CARRIED a cow head and disrespected it but did not receive any action. No one got arrested even after videos of it surfaced. Malaysiakini was also asked to take videos related to this of their site, most probably in fear of everyone knowing the truth. A very stupid, idiotic, brainless Menteri said "This is all a misunderstanding". F**k you la!! The videos are all out there for the world to see and yet you're saying that its a misunderstanding. The dude who was shouting (and most probably the cause of it), Ibrahim Sabri should be slapped and jailed but instead he's walking free because he's a Malay. In the video he was like "Boleh dikatakan lebih daripada 90% penduduk di Seksyen 23 beragama Islam. Dude, get your facts right before you embarass yourself. The PROVEN fact it there are more Indians in that area than there are Islams. ASSHOLE!!!

He went on to say " Kami MOHON, kami MOHON bahawa ianya dipindahkan ke seksyen 22". Oh, is that the way we should mohon?? No wonder all our views don't count. We've been doing it wrong. Next time we want to go "mohon" for something we should create a protest. That would be soooo efective and it brings the country "more" peace. This guy either didn't go to school or is brainless (or he's just really confident that he won't get into trouble, which in the end was proven). Another resident, Mahyuddin Manaf went on to blame the leaders of this country for teaching them to be rude (he was indirectly refering to the non-malay leaders).

Okay the main this whole thing happened was because the Hindu temple was being relocated to Seksyen 23 ( I think ) which is a "Malay" community and the Malay residents there aren't too pleased. Why aren't they too pleased? Because according to reports, they feel that it would interupt with their Malay cultures and way of living (the friday prayer and whatever else). In other words, they feel threatened that a different religion is gonna be put into the same area. Are they really that insecure about their religion's standing till they have to resort to all this shit????? We already can't question the Malay's right or Islam rights, so why create more leverage for the non-malay's to further question it?

Its a real dissapointment especially when the newly elected Prime Minister is trying to incoperate the vision "OneMalaysia". It is more dissapointing that the MAIN religion of this country is the one creating the problems. Life as a Malaysian has been proven to be unfair especially if you're a non-Malay. Now you know why a lot of non-Malays migrate to other countries.