Few of the pics of the Genting trip..

My Genting trip..

Though my Genting trip was last week, today I felt like I should update my blog coz I have been neglecting it for sum time now.. Haha.. And also coz of someone who asked me to update it... hahaha.. And that someone is *drum roll*... Jessica!! Lol.. Thanks for asking me to update it.. I should.. Haha..

Anywayz, I went to Genting from the 15-17 Nov.. I went with my gang (without the parents.. WOO!! Haha).. But we followed smt like a tour though we dun go to places in groups Those who went if anyone wants to know was Choi May, Katrina, Suey Erz, Myself, Justin, Li Onn, Vengka (his mum was the one organizing the trip), Andrew, Chun Seng, KC, Vivek.. Vengka's bro (who we call Didi or Vengka No.2.. XD) and his cousin joined our gang.. We all met at like 7 smt at this mamak stall near MGS and waited for the bus.. We all went nuts in the bus.. We were all killer excited.. The trip up to Genting was nauseating... The stupid bus driver drove so fast and swerved so much all of us got sick.. A couple of us threw up.. Lol.. Not gonna specify.. Once we reached there everyone was like ahhh... at last we reached.. Lol..

We took our bags and waited for instructions from Vengka's mum.. They told us wat to do and blah blah blah.. And within an hour or 2, we were already out at the theme park... Haha.. I think the 1st ride we went to was, believe it or not, was Space Shot.. Crazy rite?? Our 1st ride is already one of the scariest.. Hahah.. I can't even describe the feeling being up there or the trip up.. AHHHH!! The scariest part was going up seriously!!! You couldn't even scream!! And I was hyper-ventilating.. Couldn't breathe cause of the air pressure... When you come down ur not even sitting down anymore, your floating.. Can die wei!!! Hahah.. Super scary.. I came off the ride trembling.. TREMBLING and my upper lip was quite painful coz I was biting on it throughtout the whole ride.. Haha..

I think we went for the pirate train or smt like that.. That was seriously BORING!!! It used to be really scary, now its just lame and coz we had nothing better to do and we like acting crazy, we started screaming for no apparent reason.. XD.. And on the way out, Kat HAD TO scream as if the most scary thing scared her on the way out, saying that it was the most scary ride.. Lol.. Some time after that we went for the spinner.. It was quite scary for me coz I dun like heights and spinning round in circles really fast.. Hahaha.. I closed my eyes and once in awhile opened them felt dizzy and closed them again.. hahaha..

Can't remember what rides we went for after that.. We had lunch and blah blah blah and continued there till evening where we HAD to go get ready for the magic show.. The magic show was called Fly, and it was SUPER COOL!!!!!!!!!!! SUPERLY COOL!! You dun understand what I mean till your actually there urself.. There were really cool acrobatic moves and stuff.. I can't explain it..

2nd day was also filled with activites in the theme park.. The pirate ship though looks lame is really not lame.. Its quite scary.. Really.. Especially the part where u go really high.. Go try it out and sit rite at the back or 2nd last sit den u'll know what I mean.. Hahaha.. And the cork screw gets boring after the 2nd time on it.. Hahha.. Go-kart is super nice though u have to wait in line for bout 45 mins for more or less 5 mins round the track.. Hahaha.. But it was worth the wait.. And in the line we met this really weird guy.. hahah.. And he made friends with Chun Seng and wanted to be his best fren.. Aww.. Isn't that sweet.. Lol.. It would be if he wasn't so freaky!!! Really super duper freaky!!! Hahaha.. Its those type of moments where u had to be there to understand..

We went for the spinner and also the tea cup.. Bad choice.. NEVER AND I MEAN NEVER go for the tea cup THEN the spinner.. You'll feel really nauseated after that.. Oh ya, we went for the snow world thingy in the afternoon.. It was quite nice.. Hahaha.. Super cold and painful.. The ice had like stones and it hurt really badly when it hit you.. Mine hit my ear and was soo sore after that.. And Suey Erz 'had' to throw at that ear and it hurt like mad after that and the ice HAD to be so stubborn and get stuck in my ear.. Lol.. At night we went for the Flying Dragon.. It was so nice.. Wanted to go twice but they wanted to close adi.. Before that we went for the Mines thingy TWICE.. Hahaha.. And the way there, there was TWO puke puddles.. Like ewww.. Hahaha.. Anyways, we went for that ride TWICE and wanted to go again but the guy didn't let!! Non-sense wei.. All of us was like OH MAN!! Hahaha..

The next morning like 4 smt, we went for a walk they wanted so much.. Which almost resulted in freezing.. It was so super cold.. I was shivering like mad.. AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF, MY LIPS WERE CRACKING LIKE MAD TILL IT LOOKED LIKE I WAS WEARING LIPSTICK!!! Everyone thought why I was that mad to wear lipstick and I had to explain that it was actually my lips cracking and swelling up.. I fell asleep as soon as we got back.. So super sleepy.. hahaha.

Can't remember wat we did the last day.. Somewhere in the 3 days, we went bowling. And guess wat??? I beat the GUYS in my group.. I beat them bad.. hahaha.. I was like 99 yes NINTY-NINE!!! I even suprised myself.. hahaha.. The highest was also 60++.. Hahaha... So proud of myself for beating the guys.. And during bowling the funniest and I think most painful for my fren.. I went up to bowl and I was pulling back the bowling ball when I ter-hit my fren with ball coz she came too near when I pulled back.. I didn't even know she was behind me and I checked b4 I pulled back, but at the last second she came behind me and I knocked her knee really badly.. and she didn't sit down and scream in pain or anything like that.. After I hit her in the knee she ran away clutching her knee and laughing.. Hahaha.. I asked her later why suddenly she came behind me, she said that she thought it wasn't my turn and wanted to talk to me or smt like that.. hahaha.. Killer!!!

But the last day everyone was so heavy hearted to leave.. And b4 we boarded the bus (or maybe when we were in the bus) we kinda shouted 'BYE GENTING'.. Lol.. After reaching back Suey Erz and I had to rush to HQ coz of some stuff.. Hahah.. Crazy rite??

Till now, I miss it like crazy!!! It was super fun and I really wanna go next year.. hahaha.. Hopefully I can.. =).. Btw, what you read below is a really stupid my bro wrote.. The fella Lack Of Attention (LOA) adi.. He's been like that recently its becoming freaky.. Hahaha.. I was blogging and he came in interupted and typed that and I dunno y but I just wanted to leave it there.. XD

this line is typed by a smart guy that is name jonathan. my brother he is. so veli hensem. +D

Low Maintence.. WOOO!! XD

You Are Low Maintenance

Otherwise known as "too good to be true" You're one laid back chica - and men love that! Just remember that no good guy likes a doormat. So if you find your self going along to get along... Stop yourself and put up a little bit of a fight.

Are You A High Maintenance Woman?

EWWWWW...

MY EYES BURN... I SAW DIS REALLY GROSS PIC OF A WOMAN'S BREAST WHICH IS LIKE INFESTED WITH HOLES.. EWWWWWWWWWWWW.... NIGHTMARES 2NITE.. The pic shows a womans breast with holes all around the nipple region and in those holes are worm larvae.. EWWWWWWWWWWWWW.. OMG!!! U CAN'T IMAGINE HOW BADLY I WANNA SCRAPE MY EYES OUT AND I DUN FEEL LIKE EVERY WEARING BRA'S EVERY AGAIN!!! EWWWW.... AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH.. TORTURE... I EVEN FELT THE PAIN MYSELF WHEN I LOOK AT IT... OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!! ANYONE WANNA SEE LET ME KNOW I'LL SEND U THE PIC!! AND TRUST ME U DUN WANT TO.. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. EEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWW....... OOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!! MY EYES!!!!!!!!!!

Introvert.. So me.. Haha..

You Are 30% Extrovert, 70% Introvert

You are quite reserved You aren't afraid of social situations... But you very much prefer to go it alone And why not? You're your own best friend!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

Sorry for the last 2 posts.. haha.. Was really bored and I started getting addicted to blogthings.. Haha..

I'm depressed?? Well, kinda..

Your Depression Level: 80%

You seem to have moderate depression. Your symptoms are bad enough that they're effecting your everyday life. You would benefit greatly from professional help.

Are You Depressed?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Men See You As Playful

Men want a challenge and you are the perfect playmate You know how to push men's buttons and attract a wide range of guys You enjoy living and loving - it's one of your most attractive qualities Men are often consumed with desire for you, and you love that!

How Do Men See You?

LIKE OMG!! Its so like me!!

You Are An ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. In love, you are quiet and sweet yet very passionate. You love easily. You have an underlying love for all living things, and it's easy for you to accept someone into your heart. At work, you do best in an unconventional position. You express yourself well and can work with almost anyone. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer. How you see yourself: Sympathetic, kind, and communicative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, insecure, and overly sensitive

What's Your Personality Type?

Well, this one is 3/4 like me.. Hahah..

You Are 68% Open

You're a pretty open person - and you don't mind sharing the good, bad, and sometimes ugly. And while sometimes you do catch yourself blabbing on, you usually exhibit restraint. You're openness is quite refreshing, and it encourages other people to be open with you!

How Open Are You?

You Are Pretty Happy Being Single

You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content. Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while. But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything!

Are You Happy Being Single?

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood. You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out. You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat. This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

LIKE OMG!!! I'm a WOMAN!??!! I'm not really ready yet!! Haha.. XD

You Were Born Under:

Full of spunk, you are the original party animal. You bring fun, activity, and stimulation to any event. Self-control is not one of your strong points; you have been known to over indulge. Cheerful and energetic, you can turn the most boring thing into something fun. You are most compatible with a Rat or Dragon.

What Year Were You Born Under?

Any guy born in the year of the rat or dragon?!?! Hehehe.. XP

I feel..

I feel self accomplishment.. *sighs* I feel so much better... Not getting angry bout sum thing.. Maintaing my composure.. haaa... Before I made this end year resolution, ya I know u normally make resolutions in the beginning of year but I thought..
Reason 1: wat the heck, I've got nothing to lose..
Reason 2: There's a really long and complicating story to that.. haha..
Reason 3: There's never too late to change..

In the end, instead of getting so worked up and angry bout this so called petty matter, I told myself that their not worth getting angry over.. And some person who called me to ask me bout it (you know who you are!!), kembang when I kinda took his advice.. Haha.. Can say la.. Haha..

Ya I THINK they thought I wouldn't know, but I have SPIES!! Lol.. Nah.. I have lots of sources.. Well, I'm not too mad at them.. If they dun wanna invite me I'm ok with it.. Haha.. As long as they dun lie, den I'm fine.. Hahah...


I'm having quite a bad headache now.. Had it for almost the whole day.. I worked the whole day yesterday.. My first day.. haha.. I was quite excited and blur.. Haha.. Suey Erz had to tell me wat to do and all.. Plus, all of them (including the children) there speak chinese which for those who dun know, chinese is a language which, although I AM a chinese, I can't speak nor understand.. haha.. But besides the language barier, everything was fun.. Haha.. I even got to tutor!! YAY!! Haha.. I tutored dis 6 year old boy, who is really smart for his age, Mathematics for Year 1.. Hahaha.. But most of the children there didn't really wanna be his friend.. That was the sad part and all the students there are standard 1 to bout standard 6.. So when the students go to school (before the 2nd session begins), he sits there alone playing chess all by himself.. ALONE!!! I wanna play with him, but I'm not good at it and we've got loads of things to do ( I was on my feet almost the whole day and my heels really hurt when I got home) and we had to eat our lunch b4 the next session came..

There was this student who bought french fries but when Nigel (the boy) asked for it he just pulled it away and walked away with his other friends.. In the end, Nigel almost cried and he merajuk.. We had a few small pieces and wanted to give him but didn't want the other students to see.. BUT IT WAS SOOOO DIFFICULT!! In the end, the got so tired of waiting he stormed off.. We coaxed him back towards the counter and gave him biscuits instead.. Haha.. At the end of it, he was happy again.. hahaha.. But he said something that really made me feel sad.. We (my frens and I) told him that 2moro (which is thursday) got no IQ Kid (the place I work at).. He was like 'why?? But I want to come!' We told him 'Cause 2moro is a public holiday, you can spend time at home with mummy.' He said 'But I want to come here and learn!! I dun want to stay at home.' We were like 'Nevermind on friday can come again..'..

Suey Erz and I took the bus home bout 7pm smt.. It was dark and we couldn't find the bus which went to Port Klang.. In the end, we found one right at the end after waiting for bout half an hour.. We were the 1st ones in.. The bus was full when we were bout to leave the station, so all the seats were taken.. There was these 2 elderly men looking for seats but being the Malaysian people we are, no one stood up.. Me and Suey Erz decided to be good citizens and let them sit.. One man said 'Terima kasih banyak-banyak'.. And me and Suey Erz who HAD to be nice, stood up all the way back to port klang THROUGH the Little India TRAFFIC JAM!!

So rite now, I feel slightly irritated cause of the headache, self accomplishment, tired and kinda sleepy.. Haha..

:O Sounds like me.. Haha..

Elaina, your Emotional IQ is 119.

This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Tickle's Emotional IQ test. But your Emotional IQ score is much more than just a number: it's an indicator of success.

Research has shown that people with high emotional intelligence scores — not necessarily those with the highest IQ scores — tend to be the most valued and productive employees and have the longest and happiest romantic relationships.

So, where are you most emotionally smart? Your test results show that your strongest suit is perception — your ability to pick up on what others are feeling.

Because of this, you are unusually good at reading people's verbal and non-verbal cues. You're especially aware of the subtleties of people's actions, and can feel out the vibe of a situation better than many. That gives you and edge many wish they had. People with high perception skills like yours, however, tend to rely on them to the exclusion of others. As a result, they sometimes have underdeveloped abilities in other realms of critical emotional intelligence like managing emotions, empathy, and being expressive.

To truly excel in life and know how to relate to different people, you need to balance out the different kinds of emotional intelligence.

Research indicates that if people who are strong in perception can work to increase their overall emotional IQ score, they can prepare themselves to handle any interpersonal exchange with amazing skill — especially by learning to be empathetic and by being able to express what it is they are feeling or trying to say.

And the good news is that people who try to improve their emotional IQ have far greater success than people who try to improve their IQ.

I was bored and had nothing to do.. XD

Which Harry Potter Character Are You?

My Result: Ginny Weasley

You rarely need Polyjuice potion because you're usually happy just being you! While you might not make the biggest splash or cause drama, you slowly and steadily win over lots of people who think you're pretty darn wonderful. While you can be a little shy and self-conscious at times (especially around a crush), you're probably considered to be a BFF by more than just one person.


Luckily, your talents aren't just the magic kind. You're also kind and smart and just great to be around. Looks like you'll have a very charmed life indeed!

Take this test >

Bloody hell!! STUPID PREFECTS!!

Grr.. Damn angry.. Its so so extremely dumb.. The prefectorial board are deducting marks just coz we skip school.. DUMB RITE?!?!?! For the form 3's its really ridicilous.. We just finished PMR and ur asking us to come to school to waste time.. WTF rite?? There's no point in coming to school for the form 3's.. All we're going to do is sit the stupid hall and do nothing the whole day.. Its like spending the whole day doing nothing..

And my bloody mp3 is not working.. It was over worked.. Now I can't turn it on.. My frens used my mp3 till battery kering. NOW I can't bloody turn it on.. GRR!!! ARH!!!!!

Justin just told me today that the prefectorial board is deducting marks for skipping school... So damn childish wei... Even MY MUM.. EMPASIZING MUM, ENCOURAGES me to skip school.. And dis brainless idiotic prefects are making us come to school to do nothing.. What do they think, that we form 3 prefects finish PMR so we got no life is it??? SERIOUSLY?!?! WHAT'S THE BLOODY POINT IN COMING TO SCHOOL NOWADAYS??? We're spending our whole day in the damn bloody hot hall doing nothing.. YISH!! BENGANG BETUL!!! NEXT TIME AFTER THEIR STPM WE ASK THEM COME TO SCHOOL TO DO THEIR DUTY LA!! SEE WHETHER THEY WANNA DO!!! YISH!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! This year's board bloody stupid!! I prefer last year's board.. So much more understanding plus not so particular and doesn't make stupid and dumb rules.. The lower 6's can't even help us stack the chairs on mondays.. BLOODY HELL!! JUST COZ UR OLDER THAN US DOESN'T MEAN WE FORM 3 PREFECTS HAVE TO DO EVERY BLOODY THING... AND we if dun help out u say we're useless indirectly, and make it look like we're the bad guys and ur the goody goody trying to be all 'nice and understanding', saying things like 'next time try not to do it ok juniors' in ur bloody stupid voice as if we're small children!!! OH COME ON!! GET OVER YOURSELF!!! and u except all the students to be angels and obey us?? Bloody hell, its like we're wrapped around so tightly we can't even do wat we like... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! U BLOODY PEOPLE DRIVING NUTS I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING SUM SENSE INTO U!!! YISSHHHHHHH!!!

Sunway..

Yesterday we went to sunway.. We went for branch after that ice skating.. Ice skating was really fun.. And I met a fren I had met when I went for skating the 1st time.. He's name is Ben.. I saw him when we were putting on our skates.. Haha.. But he didn't recognize me till like later on.. That was also coz I called him.. When I called him he thought who was calling him, then when I called again and I smiled asked him 'you don't remember me meh?' He was like er.. who r u?.. All my frens burst out laughing.. I walked away kinda embarresed.. He asked one of my frens wat's my name, den my fren said Elaina.. Then it struck Ben that it was me.. Haha.. After that he was like super friendly. He kinda thought me how to skate properly.. Normally I'll skate really close to the sides coz I'm afraid to fall, so if i'm at the side at least when I fall I have something to grab.. Haha.. Then he told me, let go of the side and skate futher away from it.. So i kinda did it and he was following me for awhile.. When I wanted to grab the side, he would push my hand away and say, don't hold on to the side.. It was quite fun skating with him.. Haha.. After skating we went to New Zealand Natural for ice cream.. I tried the fruit flo, which was quite ok.. It was like RM13.50 for quite a big cone.. Haha.. I kinda had trouble finishing it so I gave my frens some.. Haha.. After that we went for bowling.. It was ok, but no one was actually paying attention to the game except for like me and my fren Suey Erz.. And when I got a strike Suey Erz was the only watching.. Sad rite? Out of 11 of us only one person noticed.. Everyone else were busy doing their own stuff talkin bout dunno wat.. After that we went to 1901 to eat our dinner.. After finishing dinner we hanged around for abit and went home.. We took a taxi to the KTM station den took the train back from there.. I met up with my sis on the train.. After that, me and my sis went for dinner with my parents in the nearby restaurant.. The food was not bad.. We also ate some satay.. The satay kambing was nice.. Well to sum it all up, the whole day was ok..

My Saturday last week..

Wanted to blog for so long but was lazy to come on9.. Haha.. Last saturday, B-team of PBSM, had this raya 4X4.. It was SUPER FUN!! See the emphazise.. It was really fun.. That whole day was sooo fun.. We went to 3 houses, some of us went to 4 houses but I didn't get to go for the 4th house coz it was getting late and I had to go somewhere.. We ate lots of types of malay tradisional food. The host of 1st house we went to is Haizatul.. Her mum served us ayam rendang, sambal sotong, pulut, and kuah kacang.. The ayam rendang was super nice I ate like 5 pieces of it.. Hehe.. After her house we went down one floor to the next house.. (They live like a floor from each other, they live in a flat.) The host's name is Farizan.. She had a little bro who was so adorable.. Her mum served, asam laksa, and soto and something like jelly (they call it dadih).. Everyone in our group wanted to carry her little bro.. But somehow they alwayz cried after awhile EXCEPT when my fren carried him.. (my fren's a guy, his name is Syabil).. Somehow whenever the baby cries when we pass it to Syabil, he stops crying.. haha.. Some of the girls were quite jealous.. haha.. But it was soo cute... We were ejeking Syabil.. Haha.. After Farizan's house, we went to wait for the bus.. We waited for an hour or so.. AN HOUR!! See how poor Malaysian transport is.. Haha... So we were kinda off scheledule adi.. So we had to kinda rush.. We took the bus to the main terminal, near little india and den walked to the KTM station.. From there we took a train to Jalan Kastam where Badrol (the host)'s house was.. Just getting to his house was quite hard.. Haha.. We had to cross the train tracks and some muddy patches and stuff.. Haha.. It was quite fun.. We ate mee hun pedas in his house.. The food was soo nice I took 2 bowls.. It tasted even nicer and even more shock when u put the chillies.. Haha.. After his house we went back to the teluk gadong station where some of us followed Syabil back to his house to eat and some of us went back.. I had to go coz there was this Children's Day Celebration in church.. My sister picked me up from the station and took me to church.. I was wearing tradisional clothes at that time, so as you can imagine I kinda looked akward.. Haha.. Children's Day was quite ok la... The water games were quite pathetic.. I got a little wet only.. Sad rite.. And they asked us to bring extra clothes.. haha.. After children's day I had to go out for dinner.. Dinner was quite ok la.. Haha. Overall the day was fun.. =D

This Is A Call

This song is really nice.. Jessica introduced me to dis song.. At first I didn't really get it.. Then I REALLY listened to the lyrics.. Haha.. When u listen to the song, listen to the lyrics.. REALLY LISTEN TO THE LYRICS.. Hope you like it.. =)

Bored..

Today was such an uneventful day besides the trip here.. Nothing much to do.. Spent most of the day on the comp.. Well, at least I got to use my cousin's company macbook pro, which was kinda cool.. The keyboard is really nice to type on.. Haha.. Nothing much happened.. I found this program called photo booth in the laptop and we (my cousin, me, and my sis) started playing with it.. We used the effects and made all sorts of faces and laughed at ourselves when we saw how we looked like.. Haha.. We looked really funny.. The laptop is kinda cool.. I forgot to bring a book to read.. -.-... If any of my frens were to see me reading they'll be like COME ON PMR OVER ADI.. STILL WANNA READ!!! Its not like i'm reading form 4 book or smt.. I'm reading STORIES.. -.-.. Sometimes I just dun get my friends.. Just coz u dun like reading doesn't mean I don't.. I think I've been very patient with them, but they take me for granted. I sometimes get the feeling.. Haih.. What is girl to do.. haha..

Oh ya, someho dis reminded me of dinner.. We went to this restaurant next to a temple.. I can't remember the name.. The food was not bad.. The waiter and waitress were really young.. One was the shop's owner's daughther and the other was her maid.. The waiter was the shop owner's son.. I was thinking to myself, at this age (they looked bout 12 the most) they can help handle a business, what more when their older.. The shop owner's daugther was actually quite pretty.. haha.. The food was quite nice.. It was not bad.. Haha.. When the food came, i guess its natural to me to serve the person next to me food.. So during dinner, my bro and sis were sitting beside me.. I served my sis first den my bro.. Then I went on to the next dish, I served myself and my sis coz the dish was right in front of my bro and I had to use both my hands to get the dish.. I couldn't use both of my hands coz it was quite tight.. What'd you expect with 15 people sitting in ONE table.. Just as I finished serving my sis, my bro was like "can you take that dish for me?' That dis was right in front of him, all the gotta do was stretch his LONG arms.. BUT NO!! HE HAD TO ASK ME WHO WAS AT AN AWKWARD POSITION USING ONLY ONE HAD TO DISH HIS FOOD FOR HIM.. So at 1st I didn't mind, then he was like so demanding saying "Ayo, somemore la" and "I dun want that one, I want that"... It got on my nerves, so I snapped.. I didn't get enough sleep plus I was kinda hungry, and you who slept on the way here, and slept sum more when we arrived and having longer arms den me, and having it right in front of you, making me serve you like a maid or a servant.. ARGH!! In mind I was like what am I your maid?!?! Go do it urself which in the end came out my mouth.. XP.. Den my cousin who was sitting next to my sis, "Eh, why so moody??!?!" I was like "NOT ENOUGH SLEEP LA!".. Den my sis came in and said "She's hungry lah"..

My whole family knows that when I'm hungry I get moody.. Haha.. Now you can see the effect food has on me.. Haha.. After that my sis was like talking bout how I can serve people b4 I serve myself.. She was talking to my cousin at that time and I was ease dropping.. Hehe.. Anywayz, she was saying that since I was quite young I've done that.. While I was listening to her saying that I was kembang-ing like gila.. Hahahaha.. Then she was like "I can't never do that. I don't know she can do. If I'm hungry I'll take food for myself 1st. Haha.". I bloated up like a puffer fish. I was trying hard not to show it.. Haha.. Well, I guess that was the only thing that happened during dinner besides lots of talking and eating.. Haha..

Oh ya, for those of you who haven't seen me recently. I've painted all my nails black.. Fingernails and toe nails.. Yes all of them are black.. It completes the whole 'I'm Emo' vibe.. haha.. But whenever I look at my nails they remind me of those horror movies where the eyes of some person in the movie turns ALL black.. Get what I mean?? Haha.. Too bad if you don't.. XP

My trip back to my hometown

I went back to my hometown coz of the raya hols and we haven't been there since chinese new year, which is kinda long.. Hahah.. Anywayz, we left the house after coming back from church. Oh ya reminding me of church today was the 1st time I backed up sang ALONE.. it was scary since dis is only the 2nd time I backed up sang.. The 1st time was with this really good singer in my church who so happened to be the pastors daughter.. Haha.. Newayz, when I first found out that I was back up singing alone, I was kinda thinking I won't sing but I was already at the prac and decided to practise for fun.. The worship leader was my sis so it was not too bad la coz I had could ask her bout the songs if I didn't know them.. It was cool also coz I could practice at home with my sis.. Going back to the story, in the end I decided to sing and just give it a try and give it all to God.. So before we started we have sound checks and prayer.. And when we were praying I was like asking God in my heart to help me and to keep me calm.. And it worked, I was much calmer after praying.. It well not too bad.. Haha.. I kinda had fun.. Haha.. Kinda want to do it again.. XD

Ok.. Going back to the part bout me going back to my hometown, we ate lunch in this place called, yew kee or something like that.. After lunch we left for the almost 2 hour long drive to Sekinchan (for those of you who don't know where Sekinchan is, its bout few km from kuala selangor) I thought the drive would be uneventful like it always is.. So I decided to talk and listen to sum music.. It was raining lightly so I couldn't see the things by the side of the road which made it even more boring.. I wanted to sleep but then I couldn't find a right position (when I sleep I have to find a particular position b4 I can fall asleep), and I was sitting in the middle, so it was even harder for me to fall asleep.. We were somewhere in kapar I guess when there was accident.. We actually saw it happening.. Luckily the fella didn't get hurt.. How the accident happened was, this motorcycle hit the bumper of the car trying to avoid the car which turned into the turning but was still sticking out.. The motorcycle was going quite fast I think so it couldn't break on time so it hit the car.. (it was kinda hard to see, sitting in the middle and all) The motorcycle hit the car quite hard I guess coz I heard a loud thump.. The motocyclist kinda lost control of his motorcycle and fell. Lucky my dad from the left lane went to the right.. If he didn't I think my dad would have also hit the guy.. Anywayz falling added with the slippery road made him slide.. When I turned behind to look he and his motorcycle was in the middle of the road.. And so happened the traffic light turn green so there was traffic coming.. He quickly got up and ran to the side of the road leaving his motorcycle in the middle of the road.. When he fell, this other motorcyclist was coming, lucky that motorcyclist avoided him.. I dunno what happened next coz I turned my head (it was getting painful.. XP).. My whole family was talking about except my bro who was fast asleep when it happened.. We were all like so shocked and were talking bout it quite loudly, my bro who was sleeping suddenly got up and went like shhhh and went back to sleep..

After that we went on with our journey and we saw dis like cops on a tower sort of thing to catch those to speed which kinda weird coz they build this tower specially for them to stand/sit in and the tower even has this sign saying 'Menara Pemerhati Polis'.. The point of having speed traps are so u can catch those riders in the act.. Well, I guess the goverment has some explanation behind it.. We went on as usual and when we were nearing this mosque, we saw a 4 wheel drive (i think) in the drain.. Haha.. We were wondering how it fell in and a few metres down we saw this white van with a dent in the back of it.. Which I'm guessing the 4 wheel drive avoided something that hit the white van or something like that..

Well, nothing pretty much happened after that.. It was kinda boring after that plus I fell asleep in the end.. Too sleepy to care... When we reached my uncle's house, my neck hurt alot.. That's what you get when u sleep on ur bro's shoulder. Ouch!! My other uncle brought his german shepherd.. My cousin's rotweiler who is 6 years old was playing with the few months old german shepherd.. It was really cute.. Hahha..

I'm a very detailed person when it comes to describing rite?? ahaha..

Got me thinking...

I just finished watching high school musical 2 like half an hour ago, and it got me thinking bout stuffs.. Everyone seems to be changing and movin on in life, but I feel like I'm the still same me who's walking but never seem to be moving.. Sometimes I feel so left behind, then they come back and remember me and then coz I'm moving too slow move on without me.. Everyone around me seems to be getting together... It didn't bother me quite as much as it does now coz now even my best fren has someone.. Some how not being with someone is kinda nice but some how it feels like something's missing.. And I can't seem to find the right guy right now, and my PMR is around the corner.. I should focus on that and worry bout getting a boyfriend after PMR.. I guess everyone feels like they're gonna get left out every once in their lives.. But I have felt like that too many times in life that sometimes I wanted to give up.. Everywhere I turn I see my frens in love with someone and I just feel like I'm getting forgetten.. Well, I guess that's life rite?? Kinda looking forward to the hols.. Wanna get a job.. Hopefully will actually get a job with my friends this year.. hmmm....

AHHH!!

Have u ever felt that u know somethings coming and when it happens it hits you hard. Something like when u know your fish is gonna die but when it dies your like really broken up about it.. That was a metaphorically speaking.. I found out smt bout my frens that I knew was coming only when it did it kinda hit me hard.. I have no idea why, but its been kinda haunting me every since I found out that it was true... AHHH!!.. It's driving me nuts.. I even dreamt about it during my afternoon nap (yes I sleep every afternoon).. I'm happy for them of course but I never expected it... AHHHH!!! Its hard to explain the feeling.. But I was really dissapointed with both of them coz I'm quite close to them especially one of them (even asking her whether she trusts me enough to tell me things) didn't prefer telling me.. I found out from someone else before I found out from them and it was because one of my frens asked her... I MEAN COME ON!!!! I know u dun want to tell me, but I'm ur best fren and you know I support you a hundred percent eventhough we may not see eye to eye on it, but to actually keep it from me coz you were afraid of how I would react... It kinda shows how much you trust and know me.. I feel kinda insulted, but I can't really blame you coz I know everyone is entitled to their privacy... But if I were to do that to you - not telling you that something major in my life happened- wouldn't you feel like dissapointed too?? I mean we're best frens!! You've gotta trust me.... Next time, just be honest with me k?? I'll be behind u a hundred percent no matter wat.. Best Frenz For Life.. ;)

Feeling So Used..

Ya everyone says I'm a good fren... Y? Coz I alwayz give? So if one day I stop giving, I become a bad fren.. Is that it?? SERIOUSLY??? Even my best frens take advantage of me.. I've tried my best and my hardest and damn it I can't take it anymore.. I've tried to be patient... BUT COME ON!!! EVERYONE has their limits.. U've gotta know mine.. What do I get for helping u guys?? Getting left out from what u guys do (my gang)... If I do lend u my stuff, the least u can do is take care of it.. If u know that I'm very particular bout stuff, den why still do it?? Even sumone said, ur a gud listener that's why I like talking to u.. U must be kidding me rite?? One moment u do, one moment u dun.. And when I'm rite in front of u the most u say to me is "Hi, Elaina".. Am I that visible to u for that fraction of a second?? I've sat there for almost 5-10 mins not saying anything waiting for u to say smt anything, but u just ignored u... WTH??? Am I that irritating till I'm treated like dis... U dunno how it feels like being blown off, and pretending like its fine.. Do u noe that EVERY SINGLE MOMENT I'M WITH U GUYS (my gang) I JUST FEEL LIKE A BUG ON THE WALL??? SERIOUSLY?? Am I that umimportant to u guys that if I was there one second and the next I'm not, that I just went sum where else?? What if i was kidnapped or smt... Would u actually notice... I've seen how u guys just walk off and just leave me hanging there.... If I walked with u guys or not you wouldn't care.. Maybe u'll do for a second or two.. U'll say 'Where's Teng?' and sumone either doesn't answer or says dunno and it just a full stop.. U dun even bother where I am... Trying being in my shoes, where the whispering goes on around me... And even my own pet bro's dun trust me with their secrets?? What the use of being a best fren when nobody tells u anything?? I the best fren only when I do things for u guys aren't I?? If u dun need me u dun really care if I'm there or not rite?? Seriously... If I were to shift to sum other school would u even care? U might the 1st few days den u wouldn't even a damn anymore.. U KNOW WAT GUYS??!?!?!?! I really sumtimes look forward to my dad building that new hse and shifting there and as far away as possible from u guys... U DUNNO HOW MUCH HOW HURT I AM EVERY SINGLE TIME!!!!!! ARGH!!!! I can't take anymore!!!! I guess when I'm gone den u'll appreciate me won't u?? What if I'm gone 2moro will u appreciate me den? Think bout it.. What I've said in dis post is true isn't it? Really go and think bout it and think whether I was just crapping or its really how ur treating me.. And if that fren didnt tell u (u know who u are) would u have actually noticed?? Seriously would u have?? WOULD U HAVE GIVEN A DAMN?!?!??!

Drama..

This is totally not me to even audition for the drama what more get into a drama.. Haha.. Well, coz of Kat, I did.. Haha.. And coz of her I got in it.. The story, she got in but I didn't, but she told teacher that I was capable and so teacher asked me to come for practise's and so I was chosen.. Haha.. Now prac is on the way and its so fun.. Haha.. I play quite a small role but still important.. All roles are important no matter how small.. I play 2 roles actually.. Haha.. This is 1st time I've actually been in a drama besides church.. Hahaha... Competition is on the 2nd of April.. haha.. Teacher wants us to at least reach the finals.. Trying my best to act the best.. Hmm... Haha.. That's all I guess..

Drama..

This is totally not me to even audition for the drama what more get into a drama.. Haha.. Well, coz of Kat, I did.. Haha.. And coz of her I got in it.. The story, she got in but I didn't, but she told teacher that I was capable and so teacher asked me to come for practise's and so I was chosen.. Haha.. Now prac is on the way and its so fun.. Haha.. I play quite a small role but still important.. All roles are important no matter how small.. I play 2 roles actually.. Haha.. This is 1st time I've actually been in a drama besides church.. Hahaha... Competition is on the 2nd of April.. haha.. Teacher wants us to at least reach the finals.. Trying my best to act the best.. Hmm... Haha.. That's all I guess..



`~LaInA bAnAnA~` =)?

Expectations..

Everyone expects me to be sumthing I'm not.. I can't be perfect.. Everything demands every part of me that I'm not.. I change for the sake of everything.. I feel like I'm trapped in my a shell.. I can't get out but I have to live with it.. So many damn things.. A gal I shall not name, fought with me for sum petty shit.. Oh come on la.. Like she's so perfect.. She has a so called 'boyfriend' and yet flirts.. Coz of her, my fren is avoiding him (she was really close frens with her 'boyfren').. My fren's reason, I dun want her to hate me and I dun want him to get in trouble with her again. I find it so unfair to him.. Coz of the gal i shall not name, she doesn't want to talk to him.. and the worse part bout it.. They were best frens since they were small and after bout 7 years they got to in contact again and started to talk to each other again den now dis.. Haiz.. And I'm finding all my seniors all to be so demanding.. COME ON LA!! No matter how hard we try we're still not gud enough.. And they said not to gossip behind their backs, when I tell them wat i thought bout them, they bombed me back.. Damn la!! Stupid rite? Haiz. But wat can I do, their my seniors..

Besides that, I found out that 2 of my close frens talked behind me back.. At least one of them came and told me the truth and asked for forgiveness, but I guess the other one doesn't really care.. But to tell u the truth, I'm not excatly suprised by dis.. I adi expected to be betrayed not by them but by sumone la.. And one of my close fren, I guess he's too busy with his gf or sum other stuff, but I'm actually avoiding him and kinda pissed off at him..I dun even think he noticed it.. I guess I'm tat unimportant that its not really bothering him.. PERFECT AIN'T IT? I'm almost invinsible to him in school.. Well whether he actually notices me or not I still feel tat way around him in school.. So invinsible, so unimportant..

ARGH!!!! I'll write bout the other stuff 2moro.. No mood.. I really feel like I'm breaking into a million pieces..

Signing off,
`-LaInA BaNaNa-` = n grrrrrr

Stuff tats bugging me..

1st thing
My dad went back into the hospital again on thursday I think (i have things with when it happened).. He had dengue.. Weirdness.. I thought I would get it b4 he did coz more mosquitos bit me.. I guess coz he's immune system is not as strong as mine la since he just had a heart attack at the beginning of the month.. He is going to be discharged 2moro afternoon.. So that's gud..

2nd thing
The next thing that's bugging me is the stupid monthly test.. Damn scared I can't answer alot of the questions.. Damn la!! I have to spend the end of my holidays studying.. STUPID SIAL!!! And I really dun get circles!!! ARGH!! The stupid formula's and crap dun wanna go into my brain!!! And sejarah is like only half going in!!! DAMN LA!! And I haven't even touched other subjects..

3rd thing
I keep getting scolding from everyone... Yish-ness betul!!!! Damn freaking geram!! I never do anything I kena scolding, I do also kena!!! YISH!!!! Like everything I do also is sumhow wrong... Nothing I do is right... ARGH!!!!

4th thing
I dunno whether to trust HIM anymore.. I trust my best fren Kat more than him, I actually trust Kat more than my other frens... But could he have changed for the better and is actually truthfully being nice?? Damn la!!! So confused... I'm afraid he's just a player, not to say that I'm actually saying that he is... I'm just saying that i'm AFRAID that he is... So hard to trust guys nowadays... I really hate players and guys who plays with gals feelings for their entertainment.. And when they actually fall for them they just say oh, i dun like u, sorry or sum other crap... I got played twice and it sucked... Seriously it sux to the max to be played and actually believed that they were telling the truth...

5th thing

I have to do the prefects assignment AGAIN but now its even worse... I have to get MORE signatures... Now I have to get every seniors signature!!!! ARGH!!! More stuffs to finish up.. I hate it la... I dun get y soo leong wants to do it again... Haiz... Come on la!! We have lots of stuff to do adi la, dun la go and add sum more stuff.. Haiz.. DAMN!!! Too many things to finish up!!! ARGH!!! If we dun finish up dis assignment den we can kiss gudbye to the prefectorial board... But sum how I dun really care bout the assignment suprisingly... Haiz.. Got so much crap to buy and pay... Damn geram!!!

I guess that's all for now...

Signing off,
`-LaInA bAnAnA-` :S n grrrr.....

Afraid..

Today I found out that sumone (that I shall name HIM for the time being) kinda likes me -hints hints- .. Haha.. Kinda happy but kinda confused at the same time.. Both of us agreed that we dun want to start a relationship js yet coz of me having PMR and he having SPM this year.. I kinda like HIM and all but I'm just really scared to actually let myself fall for HIM. When I fall for sumone I fall hard... And I deal really badly with rejection.. I guess no one deals well with rejection rite? Haha.. But I'm those type where it takes a really long time to get over.. Haha... Ok I sound really fragile.. haha.. Well, I'm not really THAT FRAGILE!! But I prefer that when he tells me he actually means it and not he's saying it just so he doesn't hurt my feelings.. I feel more hurt when that happens.. Tell me straight if u dun like me.. Dun beat around the bush and tell me lies.. It just hurts even deeper after the truth is out..

I'm trying say that I'm just really afraid that he's just another guy who wants to take advantage of me.. Sum times it sooo hard to find and actually trust truthful guys.. After what happened the a certain sumone I kinda lost all trust in almost all guys... I just dun wanna be used again.. I felt so used, hurt and stupid after him!!! I'm just so afraid that it'll happen again.. Its not to say tat I dun trust HIM, its just I feel so vunerable now, so weak. I dunno how a gal like me can deserve a guy like HIM... I really wonder how.. And why would he fall for me?? There's nothing special bout me.. There are plenty of gals who are much better than me.. I feel touched but yet confused.. I really want to noe that he's REALLY feeling tat way and not just telling me that he feels that way when he doesn't, so just he doesn't hurt my feelings.. I really want HIM to reassure me that he's actually telling me the truth.. Haiz... And I'm afraid our feelings change really fast.. HAIZ!!! I guess that's just way love is.. We just gotta have faith and see what happens..

That's all for now...

Signing off,
`-LaInA bAnAnA-` =S

Trying to change...

I really HAVE to change.. I myself find myself to be irritating.. I think everyone does even my best frens.. Haiz.. I dunno lar.. I guess I'm irritating coz I try to stand out and be funny but my jokes can kinda be offending and irritating.. Haiz.. Seriously trying to change but its so hard.. Things I need to change are:

1. Stop talking behind ppl's back
2. Stop kinda being a hyporcrite.
3. Try to be more friendly to ppl I know.
4. Be more hardworking.
5. Dun rely on others when not possible
6. Learn to chill and relax in my work. I dun have to b perfect
7. Watch less tv and on9 less.
8. Stop assuming stuffs..
9. Really THINK b4 commenting bout ANYTHING!!!

I guess that's pretty much bout it.. B4 the end of dis year I'll let u noe how many I've achieved.. I'm really certain that its gonna be really hard for me to change... But if i never try I guess I'll never know rite?? Haha.. Oh ya and I found out that I'm AB positive.. I never knew what blood group I was in till recently.. Cool.. I'm a universal recipient.. Hehe... I seriously dunno how that is relevant to the topic.. Hahaha.. Well that's all for now.. Ciaoz.. Take care

Signing off,

`-LaInA bAnAnA tEnG-` =)

Crapping..

Another boring post by me.. Had nothing to do so thought I'd blog.. Suddenly into blogging coz of a fellow sumone.. -coughs- ;) Haha.. Doubt that anyone actually reads my blog but dun really care.. Haha.. As long as I've got a place to blabble and crap all I want without anyone judging me. Been kinda bored since I've arrived. Haha. Did nothing much except on9, watch tv, talk, sleep, eat and more talking and eating. Kinda bored. No one I like chatting with are on9.

I never knew being a prefect can be seriously very stressful. I did an assignment recently. The asssignment was to get all the commitee members signature. The aim of it was to get to noe ur seniors and learn patience. Sum of the seniors were kinda nice. They gave us not to hard to do tasks. But sum of the seniors gave us almost next to impossible tasks. We had to do the assignment twice. Lucky the ketua pengawas was nice and he said (after the 2nd time the assignment was due) that he doesn't want us to do the assignment again and he doesn't wanna take up to much of our time. Now the penolong ketua pengawas is asking us to do the assignment only with more ppl dis time. Almost 80 prefects signatures have to be gotten or you'll be kicked off the board. Which is kinda unfair for the gal prefects coz we js got our long skirts made on top of a 5.50 name tag that all prefects must have. I agree with him that sum of us are not meant to be prefects.

Last year I noe I didn't take my job seriously but dis year I'm trying to change. The stupid teacher kinda found out/knew we (my gang) use to miuse the bilik disiplin and lepak there plus we bring our phones and use them inside. But now I seldom even leave the class. I'm afraid I'll get fired coz of my history. Haiz. Kinda stressing. Test is on monday plus we have the assignment. Which is totally not fair. ARGH!!!!! I have to spend the hols studying. Damn!!!! I dunno y I'm taking/ everyone's taking it so seriously dis year.. Mayb coz of PMR la.. But its just a T-E-S-T!!! Damn la!!!! Early in the year adi got so much things to deal with.. Haiz.. I guess tat's all la.. Ciaoz..

Signing off,

`-LaIna BaNaNa TeNg-`

A lost and broken heart

This was my 1st poem that I ever made... Try to bear with the cacat-ness of it.. Haha..


As I shed silent tears for you,
I think of all the times I had with you,
All the fun and laughter we had,
I keep wondering whether you'll be back in my life.

Wishing and hoping you'll be back,
but wishing is wishing and
hoping will remain as hoping.
My hopes and wishes always crushed.
I think to myself what did I do wrong?

Was it me?
Was it you?
Will you ever be back?
I'm laying here looking at the stars,
Thinking that you are too.

I want you to come back,
Back into my life.
I want to have the feelings that I had with you.
I guess that maybe we were never meant to be, me and you.

Days go by, then weeks, then months and I never hear a single word from u.
Your drifting futher away from me.
And in case your were wondering you still linger in my mind.
Wondering whether your thinking about me too.

Was it fate that tore us apart?
Will fate bring us back together?
I keep wondering to myself
These questions in my head are begging for release.

Wanting to see you again, thought only for a day.
Everyday I look out the window thinking that
I might see you walking down the road.
I want to feel your warmth of my head against your chest.
And I want to see your sweet smile again though for a minute.

I feel like your already fading from my thoughts.
I don't want you to fade away.
You were my first true friend.
I'll wait forever if I have to just to see you again.

Just to once again be in your arms.
I care about you, but do you feel the same way about me?
I have cared for you all my life.
And I forever will.

Everything tat's on my mind..

Oh ya refering back to my last post.... I lead my group to victory.. No I didn't get 1st.. but at least I got 3rd which is not so bad considering I was the youngest leader there.. I couldn't have done it with my fantastic team-mates.. They really helped me alot.. Will write bout it in another post....

Newayz going back to the topic, have u every miss sum one and not miss sum one at the same time.. Its the feeling where u want to see them but at the same time u dun feel like seeing their face.. I've kinda experieced tat.. I wanted to see a guy quite badly and when I did, the feeling of excitement actually faded, and seeing him actually hurt.. And at times I was really set on talking to him and when I actually see him I dun even look at him.. I just feel really hurt looking at him and knowing our history.. I miss him but I dun really at the same time.. The feeling of uncertainty seems to be in every decision I have or am going to make...

And going to another topic... I feel really invinsible dis few days especially with her around.. Like I'm not even there.. When I actually speak up den ppl notice I'm there.. Feeling so invinsible.. Y la?!?!?! Yish-ness.. And I'm nobody compared to her.. She's smart, pretty and everyone loves hanging out with her... Haiz.. I dunno wat to do anymore.. I guess I'll stand out sum day..

I guess tat's all for now.. Nothing to rattle on about anymore..