*Elevator music*

I have no idea why I made that my title but okay.

I finished my last ISU yesterday! oh yeah! =D Now to crunch for exams. damnit!

I'll be pretty much free in about 2 more weeks. =D weeeee.

Can't wait to be done with exams.

But the suckiest thing is that my marks this semester suck. Like I'm border-line 80. Gahhhh!

I'm thinking of whether to redo one of my assignments to kinda help boost my marks.

The second suckiest thing is, leaving everyone after finals. =(

Well, another suckiest thing was that I didn't get valedictorian. Yes, I am quite bummed out by it but it doesn't mean that I'm not happy for Wern.. =)

I'm probably gonna go back to sleep again after finishing this post. No idea why but I can't sleep through the night so I take naps. =D

P/S : Does anyone know how to get rid of/deactivate avast! antivirus from detecting adware cause its driving me nuts! I cannot do any work without it popping out. So damn annoying! Grrrr! Oh by the way, I am loving the whole, "put-your-favourite-cartoon-character-as-your-profile-picture-week" cause it brings back so many memories of sitting in front of the TV watching unendless hours of cartoons. The game on Jameson's iphone called “Tilt to Live” is unbelievably addictive. ish. it just makes me want to get an itouch or an iphone.

Just because I don't say it,

Doesn't mean I don't.

Cause when I say it,

I really mean what I say.

I'm listening to

I'm A Little Seal Girl - Macie Grey (As Told By Ginger)

Do I Even Need One? =)

You're so sweet

You say the cheesiest things but yet it makes me go awww.

You tell me I'm beautiful even if I'm wearing the most hideous things or looking horrible.

You're so caring that sometimes, I feel I don't care for myself as much you do. =P

You take care of me.

You believe in me even if I don't and when no one else does.

You put up with my mood swings. 

You respect my decisions even if you don't exactly agree with it.

You make me smile with the ridiculous things that you do.

You encourage me when I'm can't go on and to do things when I didn't have the strength to continue.

You reassure me that we'll make it.

You taught me to live in the moment and to leave things to the future.

You wiped away my tears when I cried over the littlest things.

 

Most of all, you love me for who I am. Quirks and all.

There are so many other reasons why I love you.

But do I even need a reason to love you? =)

All these reasons may change in time but one thing I know is that I will love you regardless.

I'm afraid of what may happen in the future but I'm gonna leave that for now and enjoy every moment I have with you :D

 

  

 

 

 

The future will be left in the future,

The past in the past,

And the present will be cherished.

Stop and smell the roses as you walk them by.

I'm listening to

Talking to the Moon - Bruno Mars

and I’m scared to death

I just don’t wanna study anymore. just so tired and exhausted.

I had an awesome time in Vietnam. Didn’t take as many pictures of people as I did of the buildings and all that.

We visited a variety of places.

Can’t exactly remember the name of the places but the pictures that I’ve posted on Facebook should speak for itself. =)

Feel free to check them out. ;)

Well, I’m done with my Law ISU, in the midst of my IB and Econs CCA (which is due on friday =D).

I really can’t wait till I’m done with my ISU’s and finals but that also means that I’ll be graduating and I’ll be leaving my friends and him, and the days that all my friends start flying off are drawing near. =(

Though I know he’ll still be here till at least July, I’m am scared to death as to what future holds for both of us and what will happen after he leaves. 

sorry but I’m just too tired to edit it but it does look beautiful on its own. =)

I’m listening to

If You Wanted A Song Written About You, All You Had to Do Was Ask – Mayday Parade

 

Never did I expect to feel like this,

You leave me smiling to myself,

At the things you do and say.

drowning in misery

I'm sorry I haven't been updating my blog.

I've been super uberly busy with assignments after assignments.

I'll try to update as soon as I can okay (which may not be till next month unfortunately). =(

Take care till then. =)

the things you say

I'm in the computer lab now to do my Law ISU, supposedly, but here I am blogging. XD

Don't worry I'll start on it soon. As soon as I blog about this before I forget.

There were these couple of guys in the computer lab when I came in and I overheard their conversation. This guy wanted to share a chair, which puzzles me a little cause the lab was EMPTY, with his friend and so he asked him to scoot. And continued by saying, "Hey, do you know that you can never do this with a girl unless your really really close to her or if she likes you?" and sorta repeated that a couple more times. One of them continued with saying like, "You could if you were the alpha male sorta guy and maybe they'll listen to you or something". Another one of his friends said, "Just say, move bitch, I wanna sit." I would like to see you say that to a girl, dude.

And thing about it was, the guy who started the conversation, was talking exceptionally loud about it and music after (which is totally unrelated). Anyways, I wanted to go up and tell him, why we don't share our chairs with guys is cause there are other bloody chairs that you can get up and go get yourself (if there are other chairs available). If there are none then the other reason would be, why would we want to touch butts with a guy we barely know? =_=! I definitely know that he would want to.

I should be getting to my research now. See ya guys. =)

I had the most awesome day yesterday. How we slow danced in the candle light, how you kissed me so gently, how you held me close. Everything about the day was incredible. Thank you for such a memorable day baby. :)

I'm afarid of the day,

I have to say goodbye,

To be missing you,

To feel the emptiness.

I'm listening to

Forever - Rascal Flatts

with thoughts swirlling around

I am pissed off. But there isn't much point on dwelling on it.

I feel so disconnected with my friends. I don't seem to know what's going on in their lives anymore. I mean I'm not complaining or anything but I just wanna find that equilibrium between friends and him so I can enjoy the best of both worlds. I sound so selfish right now. =\. I just don't want to regret anything especially with only a couple more months left.

I just realized that in a couple of weeks October is done. Damn. How time really flies. Plus, it would be a month next week. =)

Anyways, as usual, I'm super busy trying to make time and stay focused on what I should be doing. The heat is definitely not helping things. =( gah!

That's pretty much about it.

Take care guys! =)

P/S : I have no idea why but there's colour in my posts! =D I used a different computer and ta daa there's colour.

You wipe away my tears,
You hug me tight,
And make everything feel alright,
You just make me want to smile.

I'm listening to
Back To December - Taylor Swift

Credits to Adrianna Jane

The other side of the story

I've come to realize that my perception of someone changes when someone tells me something about some other person. Well, I know its not good and I try not to let it affect me but sometimes it falls through the cracks and it does.

Then, someone else tells me the other side of the story, and things start to make more sense. And yet again, my perception over someone changes.

I'm supposed to be doing my Economics now so I can enjoy the rest of my holidays without worrying about it but damn, I just get so frustrated when I can't find what I want. Nyeh.

Anyways, I had a very good Skype call with Adrianna today! Damn I miss her!! =( YOU'RE SO FAR AWAY AD!! T_T and yes I am very honoured that she let me see her without make-up and no contacts! =) Heeee. Thanks babe for the talk! I less then 3 you! =D

I had a pretty shitty week this week actually. But I ain't gonna blog about it cause its the past now and there is not much point. So yeah. I just gotta move on.

And yes, I know. My blog posts are exceptionally boring now that there's no colours. =( So I shall compensate with a picture! XD

Original picture by Andrew Tan Wei Aun.

Okay, I have no idea how this part of the post had colour. All I did was bold it and ta da there was blue. =S Freaky.

I feel you slipping through,

Always knowing that you would,

You used to be there when I opened my eyes,

But now you don't seem to.

I'm listening to

Breakthrough - Colbie Caillat

For All That I Couldn't Be.

Well, today was a let down.

Pretty much screwed up the debate.

Studied intensively for the Econs test later on.

Didn't have lunch cause the dude just forgot.

Got pissed and didn't wanna eat anymore.

Rushed through doing my citations for my law essay so I could get to IB on time.

Surprise surprise, we played jeopardy for the test review.

I couldn't answer most of it cause I haven't started studying.

Found out that the winning team got 2 bonus points for it.

Read some more stuff for Econs.

Sat for the test.

Felt like killing myself.

Cooked in the bus cause there was some problem with the air-con.

Found out that I lost the debate.

Wanted so badly to cry.

Then the guilt of crying instead of studying kicked in.

Gotta study for IB test on Wednesday and complete a 5 min video based on an interview that was never done.

Must finish either one by tonight.

Life can't get any better. Yup.

Well, that's pretty much about it.

and yes, Blogger is still being a bitch by not allowing me to add colour. nyeh. whatever la.

It hears the silent whispers,

of a troubled soul,

The silent sounds,

of a heart afraid to move.

I'm listening to

Droplets - Colbie Caillat & Jason Reeves

falling back to reality

I better update my blog while I still have the time.

I have 2 tests this week, 2 essays due, one video presentation, and a debate that I really really don't wanna do.

I am utterly pissed at the fact that I had to do the debate. I mean if the whole class had to do it, then I'm okay but it wasn't. Only a couple of us had to do it. and yes out of the whole class of 15 I had to be the one getting chosen. =_=!

Grrrrr!

But anyways, I had dinner with the awesome foursome, minus Nat =( at Italianneese yesterday. Well, Jameson and his girlfriend Pennie, Nisa, Bob and Brandon came along too. XD It was still as awesome though. The food was not as nice though. My roasted chicken was extremely dry. It was hard to even swallow it without any sauce. The wedges on the other hand was awesome. =D

I didn't really mind it all cause I had some awesome time with some awesome friends. Well, I guess that's pretty much about it. =)

See ya guys! ;)

P/S : I don't really have time to add colour to the post. So sorry! =(

You leave my head spinning,

Even with the little things you do,

You do so much for me,

that I just feel so fuzzy. =)

I'm afraid that I'm not good enough for you. =S

I'm listening to

Begin Again - Colbie Caillat

You break down the walls I've built

Its Friday! Finally!

I don't know why but I can't seem to stay awake in class nowadays! OH NO!! NOT GOOD!! x_x

I have to figure out a way to stay awake soon or my grades are gonna go down the drain. Nyeh.

Well, just to update you guys about how life has been.

Life's been pretty awesome recently. I've been completing my assignments on time! =D and some other things that have made it awesome too. ;)

I'm afraid of the week ahead. I foresee a heavy load of assignments! Gah!!! I have to go to KL sometime next week before Tuesday for an interview with PT Foundation for my Law class, make a video for the same assignment, and a presentation. On top of that, I have my International Business ISU's Part 1 and 2 due on Wednesday! (Hmmm. I'll probably try to get that done by the weekend so I don't have too much to do) And hopefully no Econs test YET! If there is, I'm pretty much screwed.

I do hope I survive the week. If I don't, you guys won't be hearing from me for some time. XD

Well, that's pretty much about it for this post. Gah, I hope I didn't post too long. Sorry if I did. =)

take care people!

P/S : I'm super excited about helping out in tomorrow's Ice Hockey Tournament! Ahhh!! so kewl! =D And I'm still trying to get my blog to have colour so excuse how some parts of my post has colour and others doesn't.

You love me for who I am,

And you make me love myself,

Something I always struggled with,

But now I feel like I can face anything,

With you there by my side. =)

I never want to lose you.

I'm listening to

Science and Faith - The Script

I've finally found out how to add colour to my posts again but OMG! Its so damn tedious! I have to go through the codes, find the part of the text I wanna change and MANUALLY change it! Sorry guys, till I find out what's happened, you just have to put up with boring colourless posts except the last part. =\

as the sounds of crickets fill the air.

I love how silent some nights can be

and the only sound is my fingers hitting the keyboard,

a little harder than they should be.

and no its not cause I'm angry,

its cause I'm just so used to it already. I blame typing games! =P

Anyways, going back to the topic.

I usually don't like quiet nights,

Cause they kinda freak me out, ya know,

like in all those horror movies where all the horrible things happen at night,

oh crap. I think I'm just destroying the mood by scaring myself.

Okay, I shall stop thinking about it.

I'm on the verge of finishing my essay,

All I gotta write is the conclusion and,

I'M DONE!

But instead of finishing it and sleeping,

I'm here blogging. Heeee! =D

That's all for now. ;)

See ya guys! =)

P/S : Blogger is being a prick. I can't seem to add colour to my posts anymore. T_T and Jessica seems to be experiencing the same thing so its not just my blog. Grrr! It makes my posts look so much more boring without colour! =(

My head's spinning,

The thoughts are like whirlwinds,

I want to take that leap,

But I need to how hard I'm gonna hit the ground.

Will you choose a friend over your lover?

Because I can sense that we're not getting along.

I feel that something's wrong.

So tell me what matters to you?

I know I should be sleeping,

To just finish it and be done with,

My eyes just wanna close,

And think about it tomorrow.

I'm listening to

Mine - Taylor Swift

I managed to add colour to this part cause I edited the HTML code. I tried doing that one of the parts, and I almost deleted the whole post.. Yeah. So, sorry no other colours! T_T

Oh the misery!

Yes, the misery of being sick! Gah!

I'm in absolutely no mood to do my 2 essays! T__T

Nyeh. I should just complete it and get it over with so I would have my weekends free. =D

There isn't much to update about actually so I guess this is pretty much about it.

Oh yeah. I've revived my picture blog so click the link at the side of my page or here if you're lazy to look for it at the side. Do drop me a comment okay! Thank you! =D

Its starting to settle down now,

The thoughts swirling around,

My mind can't think straight,

This sickness is going to my head.

I'm listening to

All Time Low - Dear Maria, Count Me In

blue skies

How I wish I could float in the clouds in the big blue skies with no care in the world.

That would be awesome.

I would really want to blog about my trip to Sunway Lagoon with some awesome people but the post would be super long and I've told myself that I would not write such long posts anymore. =)

I would also like to blog about Tiff's birthday lunch thing where I had such awesome ninja skills. =P

I would also like to blog about how awesome Andrew Tan and Adrianna Jane are as a farewell post kinda thing but it would be again a long post.

I would one day summarize everything though. =)

I would like to do so many things and I would like so many things to be a certain way but I guess we cant always get what we want. =/

I guess that's all for now. I'm trying to keep it short and simple so yeap. =)

I wouldn't know what to say,

If you ever told me,

Its all jumbled up now,

I don't know what to do.

I'm listening to

What If - Jason Derulo

The Stress/ The Pimples!

I have a quiz tomorrow. Thank God there are no subjective questions.

My IB video is giving me hell. Oh at least the computers.

My Econs homework is waiting for me to get it done.

And all I want to do is roll on the floor screaming in frustration and probably just fall asleep after that.

If only! Gah..

as you watch it flow through you

Yay! Moral is DONE with! I'm so glad I don't have to sit there and waste my life away.

Come to think of it, I can't understand why we have moral. I mean I can understand if you make us apply it and all but what's the point of teaching us theories of Moral? Why is there even theories of Moral? Gahhhh! Whatever. Its done with! =D

Law class was cancelled today so I had time to come and blog. =)

Anyways, I guess that's pretty much about it.

Ohhh! I'm going to the Ramadhan bazaar with my friends today!! YAY!! Ramadhan food and friends! Can life get any sweeter? ;D

P/S : I've started using my picture blog again cause I found out how to reblog stuff instead of saving it and re-uploading it. I'll update my You Know Not Who I Am blog soon (as soon as I get the time to do it. =P)

My thoughs keep drifting back to you,

To the regrets I've always had.

But its okay now,

It doesn't hurt as much,

Instead it makes me smile,

To remember that you were here with me. :)

I'm listening to

Wedding Dress - Tae Yang

I feel you slipping away.

Yes I know I owe you people a post! heee! =)

Sorry for the emo posts, I've been feeling pretty under the weather recently.

Don't worry about me. Its just the built up of things so yeah.

I'm all better now! =D

I have been so socially busy recently.

I just want to stay home and be a pig.

I have no idea why but recently I've been very tired even though I get enough sleep.

I also constantly feel hungry.

What The Fishsticks?

something is definitely wrong with me.

oh yeah to top it all off, I have pimples ALL over my face!! GRRRRR!!! >=(

Well, that's pretty much about it. =D

Bye people! ;)

You work in my life,

Without me knowing,

You were there for me,

Even when I turned away.

Oh how much Your love surrounds me.

I'm listening to,

The Truth - Kris Allen

Credits to Tiffy!

Yes, that stick figure is me.

un-ti-tled

just tell me how you want me to be, how to act, how to feel, how to look, what to say and I'll finally be good enough.


Its funny how having so many imperfections about yourself pointed out, you lose so much confidence in yourself and all you feel like doing is to give up trying to be who you really want to be or who you really are.

I'm sorry for taking it personally. I'm sorry for feeling insulted. I'm sorry for reacting. I'm sorry.

Just leave me alone now.


As Mr. Suschkov would say "Such is life"

I just don't feel like celebrating it this year. I just don't want to pretend to be in mood when I'm not.

I don't matter,

You have him/her.

I don't feel that way,

You treat me that way.

I'm listening to

Conspiracy - Paramore

After So Long..

Hello readers! yes, I know I have readers eventough I haven't updated my blog in about 2 weeks. I feel so honoured and liked. Thank you people! =)

As I've said in the last post, I've been swamped with assignments. I'm blogging now cause I don't think I have any work due tomorrow so I can breathe for a little bit and I'm waiting for the jam outside college to clear up before I head home.

The highlight of my week I think is the trip I had with my Moral project groupmates to PAWS. We got sorta lost getting there cause the map they gave wasn't exactly correct so we had to make a couple of U-turns, stops and phone calls to the office. PAWS wasn't exactly what we thought it would be. It looks pretty sad from the outside actually. It just looks like a shed at the corner of the highway and the only place you could park is in the little motorcycle lane so for those of you who plan to go, don't drive a Camry like Zer Hann did! hahahaha. =P

Anyways, me, Jenn, Naf and Philip cleaned the puppies section! IT WAS AWESOME! Okay beside the heat and smell it was fun. honestly. as we were cleaning the floors, we played with the puppies. After the washing we got to walk them! this was the funnest part if you get a hyper pup. I walked 2 puppies; the first one was a little hesistant at first but soon was playing with the other puppies but my second one was so timid that it didn't want to move and all it did was lie down and stare at us with such fear. awww. I named my first pup Scruffy and my second pup Scruffy the second (Scruffy II)

After the walk we had to wash the puppies and dry them and put them back in their cages. Washing them wasn't really hard cause they were small and both my puppies co-operated with me. I have no idea what happened to my second pup though. When I started trying it, it started vomitting and shiverring. I hope Scruffy II is doing okay. =(

If I hadn't had to get back for my IB test, I would have totally stayed longer.

Oh yeah talking about my IB test. I totally screwed it up! Its like I knew it but I didn't change the answers!!! WHY?!?! Grrrrrr!!! So annoying when that happens.

I just got back my Econs test results and whoa, I did not expect that (in a good way). I never expected to score so high! =D

I'm not doing too well in law though. I'm averaging at about only the 70's. =(

Yup so that's pretty much about what's going on with my life. Oh! Andrew is leaving to Singapore tomorrow and I won't be seeing him for a very very long time! =( COME BACK SOON OKAY ANDREWS!!! ='(

P/S : I'm just too lazy to add colours and all that so yeah. XD hahaha. sorry people! I know, I know. I'm getting lazy.

I feel like the more I think about you,

the more I feel myself falling for you again,

how is that possible,

when you're not even here.

why do I feel like how I felt when you first told me?

and why am I longing go back

into those memories

that I will always treasure.

I'm listening to

Just The Way You Are- Bruno Mars

Hello Goodbye

Hi people.

I know I haven't been updating my blog.

I apologize. I've been swamped with assignments and hadn't had the time to blog. I will do it when I have the time okay! I promise! =)

Bye for now.. I hope..

Its a roller coaster ride,

There are days that are good,

And there are days that aren't so good,

I'm tired. exhausted.

I'm listening to

Misguided ghosts - Paramore

For Andrewtan

I know this is super late cause this actually happened last Friday.

What was the occasion? We had a farewell party for Andrew Tan Wei Aun aka the Tanster aka Andrewtan.

What happened? We kidnapped him, literally, stuffed him into Grace's car drove around for a little bit before ending up at the field in front of McD's. The guys unloaded him from the car and carried him to the far part of the field, dumped him there and started to prepare for the BBQ. Andrew was a really squirmy wormy sperm. We actually had to take his shoelaces out and tie his hands with it cause he kept tugging at the masking tape that it got loose and was of no use. Anyways, I had a really good talk with Andrew while we waited. Very insightful talk it was. Just as we wanted to start BBQ-ing, it started to rain. =_=!

We freed Andrew and showed him the banner we did for him before we proceeded to AJ's aunt's house where we held the BBQ. The BBQ in general was awesome, I didn't eat much though but the group of people just made it so awesome that everything else didn't have to matter. We hung out, took pictures and laughed which in my opinion is the essence of a great party.

We ended things with a bang literally. Neil brought some firecrackers and lighted one or two but we mostly played with the sparkles. the ones you could hold and not burn your hand. The guys started to get really crazy and decided to light the huge one. So everyone got into positions to run after they lighted it. Neil being the crazy one, lighted it and as soon as he did, everyone ran to their cars, and sped off. It was a lucky thing too cause the bang set off a car alarm. Very exhilarating. Melvin even wanted to light another one while we were waiting at the shops.

So all in all, I got back at almost 1am and almost got into trouble with the parents but it was totally worth it.

I hope all goes well with you Andrew. All the best!! Keep rocking and I hope to keep in touch cause your one friend I don't wanna lose. =)

My heart is aching,

For what I don't seem to know.

I'm afraid of moving on,

Cause I'm afraid you'll think,

that it meant nothing to me.

I want to move on,

to fall in love again,

to experience what I did with you,

but I feel like I'm betraying you.

Please please know,

that I will never do.

You will always be my first love,

and nothing will ever change that.

I'm listening to

Whoever She Is - The Maine

a day to catch up..

Yesterday was fun. I did alot of catching up with people I haven't seen since I started college.

In the morning, I met up with my high school friends some of which have been my friends since primary and one since kindergarten. Just for memories sake when I read back, I shall name them. Li Onn, Jitesh, Xin Zhi, Justin, Sean, Suey Erz, Peng Yen, Jing Wen, and last but not least Kat. It was the first time, ever, that the number of guys and girls were the same. The guys usually outnumber the girls. It was nice being able to catch up with them again over some bah kut teh. We sat around talking about old times and some really funny stuff after we were done. It made me realize how much I miss those moments. We went back to Li Onn's house to hang around for a little before we headed back home. I had to send Peng Yen to Xin Zhi's house to wait for Lindy so we (Suey Erz, Peng Yen and myself) hung out in the car while we waited for Lindy to pick Peng Yen up. While waiting, I drove around a little and went to pick Ching Pei up cause we were going to my house to get ready for prom.


I had to rush off cause I thought my sister needed the car by 2 so dropped Peng Yen and Xin Zhi back at his house. Picked Sheila up from Centro and made a wrong turn and ended up going to a place I've never been before and going into two lanes which were dead ends. =_='. Anyways, we finally made it out and back. Then I called my sister to tell her we were going to be late and she said she didnt need the car by 2! double =_=! I was rushing everyone being all tension cause I thought she needed the car at 2. Sheila wanted to buy some food and Ching Pei wanted some coloured hairspray, but ended up not buying. So Suey Erz and I waited in the car while they went to buy food.

Once we reached home we started getting ready. Sheila helped us with the makeup. Ching Pei brought her straightener so I started straightening my hair and everything. The most epic moment while getting ready : Suey Erz's eye linear pencil broke and we stepped on the broken pieces without knowing it which caused my floor to look like it had black chicken pox. We sorta had a hard time cleaning it up. To make matters worse, I thought by pouring water on it, it would've been easier, which Suey Erz only later said that it was waterproof. My reaction, "what!?!? O_o damnit! *rubs the floor harder* shit! * haha. it was funny looking back.

Anyways, Maniraj picked us up and had to drop by Sheila's friend shop to do her eyebrows. After that we were off to prom and we were really late. How late I shall not say. =P. It was fun to see everyone again and to hang out with them. A lot of us have changed in many ways and it was nice to see that we were still able to hang out like we used to. I haven't uploaded the pictures yet but you can go see it after I have. =) I hope to see you guys again. =D

Oh talking about that. I had another gathering with my college friends and seniors that have graduated on Friday. May was gracious enough to invite us to her potluck dinner. It was an awesome time! Like AWESOME! We had lots of food but as usual the drink finished way before the food did. I'm not going to go into detail about it cause I can't exactly remember the sequence of things but here are the highlights. We as in Bob, Jameson, Andrew, Zer Hann, Bryan, Melvin, Razlan, Cecilia, Nisa, Evelyn and myself played "The Bachelor Game" like the one on "Who's line is it anyways?". I came up with real life situations and presented them to the guys and some answers were really sweet while others we really, "=_=! like seriously man? come on!" The two sexually confused bachelors Cecilia and Nisa were harder cause I didn't know whether to present the questions to them as a guy or girl. haha.

We then proceeded to the playground. Some of us played on the swings, the see-saw (Andrew and myself) and the jungle gym. We slowly made our ways to the jungle gym where we tried to have a photo session which didn't turn out very nice. oh well. =) Anyways, we got thirsty and went back to the other side of the field where the food were. Sat around and decided to play chap chilli chap. A super classic game some of us use to play back in primary school. haha. It turned out to be a super funny session with a whole load of laughter. We played a couple of other games that didn't really turn out.

We ended the night by helping pick up the rubbish, cleaning up and packing up all the stuff to shift it back to May's house. (I think I forgot to mention that we had it in the field in front of her house) The rest went back not too soon after while I hung around with Melvin since he was the one fetching me home. We had some pretty epic moments too. Not very surprising as Azim was there. The funniest joke of the night. Jacob apparently doesn't have a sense of smell and Azim went on about how he can only taste the texture of things and not the taste of it since he has no sense of smell and all that. So Azim was like so if I fart you can't smell it la? Then I said, oh if its like that then he tastes the texture of the fart la?? LOL!! Anyways it was much funnier in that moment. I laughed till my side hurt. haha. the day pretty much ended up with Melvin sending me back after everything.


Yup so that's pretty much about it. I know its a super long post. I might break it into two separate posts or something tomorrow.


P/S : sorry for it not having any colour. Bob keeps rushing me to finish the post. blame him! =P anyways. I'll add in the colour and all that later. =)

I'm emotionally tired,

emotionally drained.

I take on problems that aren't my own,

and it feels like it is my own.

The scars are ripped open,

And I'm left vulnerable,

I struggle to pick the pieces up,

Before anyone can see the mess I've become.

But just as I thought I got away with it,

they turn and see,

the person I don't want them to see.

The person struggling to better the better me.

I'm listening to

Only One- Augustana

just for today.. please..

Just for today just please let me hate the world.

Just for today just please let me be heartbroken.

Just for today just please let me be anti-social without judging me.

Just for today just please let me be anal.

Just for today just please let me hate the girl who keeps screaming at nothing.

Just for today just please leave me alone.

Just for today just please let me cry if I want to.

Just for today...

and now its going to eat at my soul

I got so nervous for my audition that I could hear the quivering in my voice. =_='.

Ergghhh!! So disappointed with myself. Someone give me their honest opinion on it please!!! I need to hear someone said that "yeah it wasn't good" and not "Its okay", "Oh, it was fine" or anything sugar coated. Give it to me straight up.

I can't do much about it now but focus on helping out with the musical backstage. I'm glad I don't have to audition for that. pheww.

Anyways, I only reached home today at 8.40pm and I'm BEAT!! Like seriously beat. I could barely keep my eyes open when I drove. shhh!! Well one thing was because there was a stupid freaking jam for reasons I cant seem to see. I left Subang at around 7.20pm and a trip that usually only takes me 15-20mins ended up being 1 hour 20 mins or so. LIKE WTH!?!?! =_=

I was already so tired and the jam, rain and air-con just made it worse. at one point I did close my eyes for a split second while I was stuck in the jam. Just too freaking tired. But don't worry people, the cars weren't moving at all and I'm still in one piece and nothing was damaged so its all good. =)

I still haven't gotten the hang of cutting into a lane which is bumper to bumper which also means the cars are close to each other thus making it to cut the cars really hard for a relatively new driver like me. I wanted to go left but was kinda scared of the oncoming cars so the car behind me ( a very nice uncle) flashed me to kinda let me know that I can actually move out. Well I think that's what he was doing and not just flashing me cause I didn't know how to get out. I'll just go with the positive version of the story cause I saw him later on giving way to this woman who wanted to cut which was really nice. =) . I love people who are considerate of other. =D .

While driving I also saw typical Malaysian drivers. This car wanted to cut into the middle lane from the right lane. She (I'm guessing) eased her way into the lane and NO car wanted to let her go. You know what they did instead? They just avoided her and continued on the lane meaning that she was literally stuck cause no one wanted to give her way. Its hard to explain it but that's the best I could do. Super sakai man. ergghhh! No wonder even my lecturers don't like driving in Malaysia.

I guess that's pretty much about it.

bye people of the planet earth. *insert peace sign* :)

P/S : I'm sorry if the post isn't up to my usual standards. I'm extremely tired and all I wanted to do was sleep ever since I reached home. As usual, later. (refer to my previous post if you don't understand)

I hold on to the memories,

so tight I feel my knuckles turn white.

I'm afraid that if I loosen my grip,

that it will all just fall away.

I never want to forget you,

and I always want you to be a part of my life,

and I hope, I am in yours.

Every time I have a happy memory,

I am filled with this longing,

But with this longing I remember you,

and the best memories you had given me.

You are something I will never forget,

neither something I will ever regret. =)

I'm listening to

When I Fall In Love -Nat King Cole.. ahhh the classics.

its in the middle of the night..

Just to update you about what happened between my last post and this post.

I went for the Musical meeting with intentions to do backstage work but ended up signing up for auditions too. I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT I WAS THINKING!!! Erggghhh!! someone please freaking kill me! Tze Ren telling me that that's how people hear you on recordings just made me realize that I actually really suck. X_X. I definitely don't wanna make a fool of myself.

Anyways besides that today's lunch pretty much sucked. We went to this vegetarian food stall near college. The food tasted quite weird. I didn't like that sodium-ish taste in the Wantan Mee I had. yuck! Well when we were eating half way, Zer Hann was like ewwww!!! I just stepped on something. So I thought it was like food or something. Instead I saw a freaking cockroach!! A FREAKING COCKROACH!! with like its juices all on the floor. eeeeeeewwwwwww!! well on the good side, Zer Hann sorta rescued the table from going into a fit of screams if the cockroach did crawl up any of our (girls) legs. XD.

Oh by the way, I have a new lunch gang now. My new lunch gang now is made up of Evelyn, Natasha, Zer Hann and Philip with occasional visits from people who so happen have the same break or whatever.

I definitely miss eating lunch with Victor and Min Zhi and all those little lunch moments I won't forget like the phone calls Min Zhi will get from his parents while also eating his lunch. epic!! =P. I'm so used to eating so slow with them that now when I eat with the others, I feel so extremely slow. I almost always seem to finish last. =S.

That's pretty much about the post. I'm like super sleepy now so I can't exactly think of things to blog about. I'm just blogging about what comes to mind.


Bye people! Take care. =)

P/S : Yes, as usual I'll redo the post later. Okay from now on to make things simpler, I'll just say later and it just means I'll re-edit it later. =)

Its like riding a roller coaster,

you go all the way to the top,

and hold your breath because you know,

that when you come down, it's heart stopping.

It grips your heart,

When all you want is for it to be free.

To be unable to feel.

Its funny how now that its over,

people seem to know.

And they help me deal with it.

To help me get back on my feet

and start smiling again,

without the pain that it hides.

I'm listening to

I'll be right here waiting for you - Bryan Adams

sorry if the pictures are pixelised cause I just copied it from facebook and kinda uploaded it and stretched it.

my soon to be distant memory..

At the rate I think I'm gonna go, my blog is pretty much going to die pretty soon. Last semester I finished class at like 1. Now I finish at 3.30pm. Yes people. My class is from 8am to 3.30pm. And yes, I am exhausted and its only the 3rd day.

I have no idea how I'm going to survive. =S

I have 2 breaks though but I'm using my second break for lunch so there isn't much I can do after my lunch so its pretty taken up to eat. My first break though is quite free. I could use this time to blog but I seldom get my "creative" juices flowing at 9.15 in the morning so yeah. At night is when I use the time to catch up with the world. I know it sounds ridiculous but most of the people I talk to are my college friends which doesn't really make sense as we can see each other everyday and still have things to talk about at night. XD

So far, I've never failed to my beloved freaks who think feel they're cool. None other than Adrianna Jane aka Ad, who some how doesn't make sense sometimes and you're left wondering what on earth she means. =P, Razlan aka Raz aka Razi who is always bored and random and found a "epal" sugus on his table yesterday and last but not least Victor aka Vic aka the ultimate freak =P. He usually kills the conversation with whatever he says. Sometimes he's pretty into the conversation and sometimes he's pretty missing from the conversation. XD

Yup, so that's all I wanted to blog about since I have nothing else to blog about and Ad wanted an update.

Oh and if you wanted to know. College is going pretty well. Kinda freaked out about all my subjects this semester. I took Law, IB, Econs and HAD to take LAN. Law and Econs are my main concern I guess. I got really awesome lecturers though. =D. Econs is seriously deep and intense but interesting. Its hard to explain till your in the class. somehow me and Victor can never sit together in this class. =_='. But whatever, we still have the same class. =D.

P/S : Pictures on my blog posts might be seasonal cause I'm using the college computer. I could like copy and paste the pictures I have on my facebook but I'll only do that if I have the mood. Yes, I am a very moody writer. =P. I am in the mood today but I'm sorta rushing to meet Raz at ECA to go stone with him. XD. *edit : okay so I didn't go to ECA. As I was just about to exit the computer lab, I bumped into Nisa, Adrianna and Azim so I decided to chill with them instead. =D.

Take care dudess!! =)

Every hallway holds a memory,

of us walking in every one.

My thoughts still wonder back to you,

But now I know to smile instead of hurt.

remembering all those times we touched,

still sends electric shocks through my body,

I know now that we can be nothing more,

But what happened to just being friends?

I miss you my best friend,

and that's what I really want,

my best friend back.

I'm listening to

Stay Close, Don't Go - Secondhand Serenade

It Keeps You Awake, Against Your Will.

So freaking sleepy now. Its like 9.15am and I slept at like 2am yesterday. I had to wake up to let the cleaner in and am now the fighting the urge to go to sleep, which I think I'll soon give up.

Anyways, I don't know what to do to help keep myself awake so here I am blogging. I was initially only supposed to spend a couple of minutes on the comp just to check my facebook but I ended up being stuck to it.

There's nothing much to blog about right now.

All the news I have right now is,

1. He's leaving Sunday evening.
2. I'm going to celebrate Jess' birthday tonight.
3. College is starting soon
4. And my trip to school to pick up my sijil berhenti sekolah was a waste of timecause all the info except my dad's name and my name were wrong. how can that be possible?!?! All they needed to do was to transfer info from a book into a cert and they still got it wrong. Idiots. and not only that, they have this counter so that you don't have to go into the office to deal with the people and they didn't wanna come to the window so they were standing some distance away asking me things. Like HOW CAN I HEAR YOU WHEN RECESS IS GOING ON AND YOUR STANDING SO FAR AND SPEAKING SO SOFT?!?! Okay this is more or less the conversation,

Lady : Apa? (or so I thought)

Me : Nak sijil berhenti sekolah

Lady : Tahu la. BILA??

Me : Oh. Tahun lepas.
Lady : Tahun bila? (Or so I thought, again)

Me : 2009?

Lady : Ish. KE-LAS A-PA????

Me : Oh. Errr.. *brain froze. I actually forgot what class I was in. I almost said 5S1*. 5S3

*she just walks away and directs me to another person*

after standing there like some idiot and I finally got my sijil, I check to see if the info is correct (all cause of mummy's training. =D) then I realized all my info was wrong. =_='. Dumbasses wasted my time coming to school and waiting for them just to get that piece of paper that contained all the wrong info. Goodness!! They can't even do this right. ish.

Okay, I know that this has become a rant post but who cares. you would be pissed too if it was you.

So that's pretty much about it for today.

Chao peps. =)

P/S : I'll re-edit it later when I'm more awake. =)

The more I think about you,

The more I miss you.

All the memories we had together,

Just makes letting you go so much harder.

Your leaving tomorrow,

and whether I'm ready or not,

I know I have to let you go.

so go be the best that you can be,

but please never forget me,

cause I will never forget you,

and how you made me feel. =)

I'm listening to

More Than A Love Song - Augustana